Emotional Wreck

and that was the hardest goodbye of all.

-Lady

- Lady

- Lady

- Lady

and I caught myself smiling.

He’s everything I’ve ever wanted.

But the second I’m alone, my mind turns on me.

Telling me I’m not enough.

That I don’t deserve this kind of happiness.

I just wish my mind would be as gentle with me as he is.

- Lady

Is it because I was the black sheep that was always left out as a kid?

Who am I?

- Lady

I just don’t know how to sit with it yet.

I used to crave this kind of quiet.

Now that I have it, my mind keeps trying to convince me something’s wrong.

But there isn’t.

I’m okay here.

- Lady

I am struggling, I feel lost and I never know truly where I'm going in life. I

I feel like I should be happy.

I have the family I wanted.

Money could be better… but honestly, that’s on me.

Since I quit smoking, I don’t really have a vice anymore.

Nothing to take the edge off when everything feels too much.

And now I’m just… angry.

All the time.

Snapping, yelling, hating the way I sound, the way I feel.

I miss who I used to be.

The fun, bubbly version of me.

But after years of being hurt by the people who were supposed to love me the most…

I don’t know where she went.

Somewhere along the way, I lost myself.

So now I keep asking—

who am I anymore?

~ Lady