listen to your captain

every fat person you know for the most part probably has a story like this, of medical neglect. many of the stories i've heard personally are when the complaint or the doctor wasn't related at all, like being told to lose weight at the ear nose and throat doctor or at the dentist. it's straight up just bias. it's such a thing that in the show Shrill it's portrayed, when Aidy Bryant goes to the gynecologist and her doctor suggests she get gastric bypass.

the studies on health and fatness are simply not that black and white and there is basically no research that shows that more than an incredibly tiny minority of people can lose weight and keep it off for more than like 2 years. bodies have set points that they gravitate towards, it's not a personal failure. this also is how the weight loss industry succeeds so well - repeat customers.

some of the harm associated with fatness is also due to weight cycling, which is very hard on your body and is even worse if you get off a GLP1, which according to a recent study causes weight to be regained at a rate that is 4x faster than without taking a GLP1.

you don't have to hate yourself. you don't have to hate other people for their body type either. it makes me so sad to see the thinspo tag going around again in 2026 a lot like it was back in the day.

some resources to learn more here:

https://www.reuters.com/article/business/healthcare-pharmaceuticals/feeling-fat-may-be-worse-for-you-than-being-fat-idUSTON079061/

Deserving/Not Deserving clearly has no power. Look at who has everything, who has nothing, who takes and who is taken from, who has the means to give and who actually wants to give, who makes the system that distributes life sustaining necessities, who can judge who is lazy and who isn't, etc etc etc etc. Deserving/Not Deserving is not at work in any of these instances because it doesn't fucking exist.

There is no divine force deciding who are the haves and the have-nots. There is no God of Deserving/Not Deserving that gives to the needy and punishes the greedy. There's only human people acting like their judgment reflects a higher moral power when in truth it's just for their own interests.

So I'm not bothering to ask if I deserve something I want anymore (and by whose standard was i going by anyway??). Instead I'll only ask "Do I dare?"

Do I dare to take an afternoon nap? Do I dare pause work and eat a meal? Do I dare to buy a $10 game?

Because probably, yeah, I will dare. And the consequences can find me rested, nourished, enriched, and happy fuck you

(and if I don't dare, it'll most likely be for concrete reasons like "I don't dare buy that game or else I won't have enough money for bills," or "i will not dare to eat that ice cream because i don't want to deal with a stomachache.")

tl;dr // It's not that you don't deserve rest/food/fun/housing/healthcare because of moral or divine reasons. It's that the people who dared to take those things for themselves don't want to share it with anyone they can't profit off of in some way (monetarily, socially, whatever). So i'm dropping the idea of deserving/not deserving and picking up the idea of daring.

HANDMADE♻️A🌲THON

This week Mark and I will be crafting every day to make our handmade wares! If you wanna follow along I'll be posting here throughout the week!

Handmade-a-thon?

Just what we have been calling it, we use 100% moreno wool, secondhand & scraps to create a variety of our own patterns!

10% of proceeds from our handmade wares are donated to various charities. Ex: Patchwork whales to ocean conservation!

The items we make this week will be available online and at our future events!

For my omer-counting project this year, i got some beautiful Assaf wool from Handmade Palestine and have been spinning it into these lovely strings! :^)

The wool has a natural ivory color with flecks of warm reddish brown, and a wavy, energetic texture.

✨☝🥴HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!🌈🥰🎉

I'm Ruta and i LOVE doodling in ms paint!

I'm happy to step in 30 years old train hell yeah!!!!

a few favorites from the many altered key pendants i'll have with me this weekend at Yet Another Queer Pop-Up Market. i've been collecting the keys for years & it's very exciting to finally be doing what i want with them! the metal decorative elements on some of the keys come from a box of castoffs from a 1910s costume jewelry factory (lucky find 15+ years ago that i've been slowly working through). finding the right size quartz points for the hollow clock key tips is oddly satisfying!

Sickos selection is back!

Over 900 pages and 100k words of filthy art, comics and fiction for $25. The last edition of this bundle raised $58k, all split equally by the artists with no publisher’s cut or middleman. Sale runs until June 5th – and then it’s gone! Past editions have covered people’s rent, medical bills, moving costs and other emergency expenses, and it's an incredible way to show direct support to adult creators in the face of deplatforming and deindexing.

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Look at this LINEUP: