i had a boyfriend. i didn’t even like him all that much but when we split i took it hard. it was my decision yet i feel as though he hurt me, and he did in a way.
he was the one who asked me out, but i was always the one who put in more effort time and money. he claimed he was the “one with the plan” but i always made the moves, not him. we fought almost every other day but i miss the comfort of having someone to talk to. and after all of that he didn’t even like me. he just wanted someone to talk to. how can i be hurt when i used him for that too? i don’t deserve to be mad but i am. he pretended to be someone he wasn’t just so i would be vulnerable around him. i gave everything i could and it still wasn’t enough to make him change for me. i changed the way i dressed the way you did my hair the way i did my makeup all for him. and now i’m alone in a person that i hate.
i’m just alone again.
