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unpopular opinion:
binge eating and food addiction are ed just as valid as anorexia or bulimia
this lowkey really bothers me to see companies treating us LGBT+ people as trends
Me: *looks at food and doesnât know the calories*
Intrusive thoughts: UFO, Unidentified Fattening Object

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hobbies include sitting on my bedroom floor being absolutely devastated by the fact that i have a physical form
Everyone please remember: Paul was the only dumb slut who didnât wear a coat on the rooftop (in January). Thank you.
A hoe never gets cold
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quick bodycheck without binder because it's h o t a f and I'm lowkey dying because body dysphoria and dysmorphia have teamed up against me
sometimes I just wished I lived alone and had no friends or social obligations or people near me
so I could just. plan. my. diet. perfectly.
and starve myself to death

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if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âfoodâ labeling some good, some bad as i assign moral value to this grain of rice i might say ânumbersâ counting, measuring, tracking calories, sizes, BMIs allthetimecalculating everysinglething if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âbeautyâ complete devotion, idolization of the western standard begging for othersâ envy i might say âattentionâ desperately needing someone anyone, to notice me at all to see that i am unwell, to care if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âcontrolâ the sick, sick result of discipline gone sour a curdling obsession i might say âguiltâ over being too big too plain too comfortable too needy too me if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âangerâ hating the injustice of living hating everything, everyone including myself i might say âpainâ a way to transpose the scars of my soul onto the body aching for congruence if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âminimalismâ my mind whirls like a run-on sentence and i canât stand being wasteful so no thank you i donât need anything at all really i might say âself-righteousnessâ iâm parading the streets, declaring my holier-than-thouness because hey look! iâm better at dying than you if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âexpectationsâ iâve been naturally small my entire life and now, but now i lose myself when i grow i might say âchildhoodâ reverting to my prepubescent body no breasts and when sex was just a word muddled with giggles if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say âaddictionâ a habit that canât be kicked craving the buzz, the high of manipulating my insides i might say âdeathâ iâm not that happy anyway so why not drive my body to the edge, tempting it to quit? if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say nothing because i do not know itâs not like it matters because you donât ask because you donât know either
âi donât know, you donât know, no one knows // 01.22.18
well I'm fucked.
I lost 4 kg and I'm officially at my lowest weight, but now I have 7 days of a trekking camp where not only I can't count kcals (I don't prepare meals) but I can't even fast/restrict/purge because I'll be constantly with people and checked during the meals
I feel horrible and I don't wanna gain weight again after all that I went through to reach the point where I'm now.
my only hope is to burn most of the stuff I eat. I'm so anxious
70 & 80â˛s fandoms be like
@eltonhjohnâ
the beatles as the âI want a babyâ meme
John:
paul:Â
george:
ringo:Â
have some fucking tips for androgynous presentation that mixes femme and masc styles and isnât just âbe afab and wear trousers from the menâs sectionâ
recently I wore some of those trousers with the wide non form fitting legs  and added small heeled boots. 10/10 would recommend I felt very high fashion. looked masc but was making the femme click clack heel sound.
basic loungy outfits can be made 100% more queer by adding colour. srsly jeans with a nice tshirt is queer as fuck if the jeans are orange.
wearing the femmest outfit possible, long skirt, cute blouse, etc. becomes a power move when you do so without a single shred of makeup. bonus if your hair is short. bonus if itâs not a pixie. bonus if your shoes are stompy
find all your Statement Pieces. wear them together. voila.
we all know about suspenders. now put them where they donât belong. attach them to skirts. attach them to your trousers but leave them hanging
literally just wear stuff you think looks rad because if you enjoy both masculine and feminine clothing styles it naturally follows the stuff you think looks rad together will end up being genderfuck
embrace alternative fashion/weird charity shop finds/vintage/stuff that breaks fashion rules even if its âtechnicallyâ femme/masc. part of fitting into gender roles is wearing mainstream and current femme/masc clothes because gender roles and their associated accepted dress are always shifting so anything that differs from that is automatically subversive.
billowy shirts. undo them as much as youâre comfortable with. somewhat obvious but the howlâs moving castle vibes are v strong. am I a femme arts student or a dashing masc pirate type? who knows.Â
floral patterns feel a billion times more masc if the colours are bold.Â
personally after I stopped wearing makeup I felt I lot more able to just be like huh. thatâs my face. and feel kinda triumphant in the ugly parts of it and just be unabashedly weird. and if thatâs not genderfuck idk what is. same w not shaving my legs tbh. I enjoy just existing.
that said if you do like makeup, using just (just. no foundation or shit) eyeshadow or just lipstick? also a power move.Â
If you go for the classic dapper style of androgynous presentation but want something closer to androgynous than just weird masc, try adding a soft girly jumper to your manly trousers and etc.
adding an emphasis to your natural waist to a masc outfit (with a belt or something) is a good way to feminise it and vice versa with emphasising a dropped waist in a femme outfit to bring attention away from your smaller natural one (again with a belt or maybe low waisted trousers)
long coats are very good I feel my most formless and inexplicable when my outer layer goes straight past my knees.
obviously all this is gonna be slightly biased to my agab/personal style/body type/etc. but yeah. thereâs my tips and hopefully none of them are weirdly unachievable or equate androgyny with masculinityÂ
Love this. đ
Some other androgynous styles I like:
⢠Not shaving underarms and wearing lacey tank tops
⢠Wearing makeup but contouring to appear more masculine
⢠Shaving the sides of your hair but growing the rest really long
⢠If afab, binding your chest when wearing a dress or other high-fem outfit
⢠Makeup for creative, not gender-related things. Put glitter and fake freckles and purple eyebrows and shit
⢠Super masc clothes with makeup, painted nails, and fem jewelry
⢠Huge cloaks. Canât see my gender under my fucking cloak

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my stomach: hungryyy
me:
Our toxic asses in the ed community watching each other starve to death like