On the edge of a breakdown
Sick of running through mazes
Into your dead ends and traps
Will these wounds ever heal?
Or will you just make things much worse?
Will you turn out to be a blessing?
Or a never ending curse..
I know that this is toxic
And I know that you’re not okay
But I knew that from the very beginning
And I promised i would stay
You don’t even let the scars form
You keep picking at the scabs
Everytime I dodge the sucker punch
You hit me with these little jabs
I feel like I’m slowly asphyxiating
Spiralling hard towards the floor
And when I think you’ve done your worst
You show me you’ve got more
I’m breaking down into pieces
You can watch the slow decay
But I knew what to expect with you
When I promised I would stay
The unapologetic narcissism
Oh what it must be like to be you
To say the things you say to hurt me
To do the things you choose to do
I’m a lovely little plaything
Like a child’s favourite toy
To love and hold and cherish without abandon
Then, someday unexpectedly destroy
Your love for me is undoubted
Your possessiveness is pure
I’m trapped in this codependent loop
Fueled by your devastating allure
My soul is slowly dwindling
My heart is just so broken
But I’ll still carry on
I’ll take on every devastating blow
I’ll love you till my dying day
And you can keep what’s left of me
Because I promised I would stay