mors vincit omnia

i don't understand how i am supposed to live with this profound sadness. to be honest

the feminine urge to isolate from society and meditate in the mountains and let my soul rest

old friendships make me want to climb in their arms and be my 16 yo self w/o being hated or scolded for it

No because pride and prejudice isn't "I changed myself for you so you would love me back." It's "your blatant rejection and disdain for me made me realize things about myself no one had ever been bold enough to tell me so I sat down and evaluated all my behavior patterns and why they came about and came to the realization myself that I had to work on myself. Also I don't expect you to love me now that I'm a work in progress, so I'm just going to do nice things for you because I don't like seeing you hurt." No wonder P&P fans refuse to settle.

For me peak level of intimacy is when someone wipes my tear or cry with me