The demon of the darkness

Ever since she appeared the plot moved forward and it became way more intriguing.

It would have been amazing if her past in the organisation and all the trauma it caused were explored, but I guess we'll never have a proper explanation outside of fandom's theories.

Basically we know that she's traumatised and terrified by Gin, but we never discover what happened between them. She's terrified by him just as much as he's OBSESSED with her, but why? We still don't know for certain.

Yes, she's scared of every member of the organisation BUT it's undeniable that she's scared IN PARTICULAR by Gin. She knows everything about him (but little to nothing about any other member of the BO) and he knows EVERYTHING about her, he even recognises her by a single auburn hair- weird??? He also imagined her n4ked TWICE while smiling in a very creepy way- EVEN MORE WEIRD???

In an official drawing/scheme we see the relationships between some members of the BO and when it comes to Gin and Sherry it says “love affair?”, while when it comes to Sherry and Vermouth it says “love rivals?”- LIKE??? At this point it's clear that something very traumatic that goes beyond the simple fear of being killed has happened.

It would be great (and very dark) to explore the trauma that Ai bears for being in a forced toxic relationship with Gin, a relationship that not only has a big age gap but also a disparity of power (plus she was probably manipulated in many ways inside the BO, both by Gin and by any other member who had more power and influence)

The introduction of Akai/Subaru could have helped cause he was in the organisation just like her and he was her sister's boyfriend, he had to know something about her (and her implications with Gin), right? Ai-Akai is a duo that together could be so powerful, they know many and different things about the BO, they would be the key to destroy them.

It would have been awesome if Aoyama had explored all of this in the manga, but I guess he forgot that Gin had this weird obsession for Sherry

ALSO she has suicidal thoughts everytime she thinks that the BO has found her and she's willing to sacrifice her life for her friends. This was just shown but never explored and it pisses me off because?!?!?

"Having played Ai for so long, I am the most surprised by how she's transformed. At first, she was haunted by her past, trembling in the shadow of the Black Organization she once served and forever treading the line between life and death. But thanks to the earnest and unconditional love she feels from Conan, the professor, the Detective Boys, and her other friends, she's slowly begun to change. In recent years, she even worked with Kogorou to investigate Ryuusuke Higo; she's started expressing both her happiness and anger more freely; and where she used to simply pass on all sorts of things, now she's become a sort of guardian angel for the detectives.

At first, I was confused and even worried about Ai's transformation. How much emotion should I put into her voice? But maybe she didn't really change at all, and this is actually her true self? When it occurred to me that perhaps we're getting a glimpse of Shiho Miyano, the person she was before she got involved with any drugs or crime syndicates, then I was able to accept it.

What made me realize this was the movie Countdown to Heaven, which I both loved and hated. The idea occurred to me during the scene when Ai visits her late older sister Akemi Miyano's room and listens to her answering machine message.

When this movie was released in 2001, smartphones and photo attachments weren't nearly as common as they are now, so Ai's one and only tool for remembering her sister was that answering machine message. And since Ai took the drug to turn herself into a child and barely escaped from the organization with her life, of course she wasn't able to bring any physical mementos to remember her sister by, so the message that begins with "Hello, this is Miyano" must be truly dear to her heart.

All that's left is the recording of her voice. 

"She just can't answer the phone right now." 

“Maybe she'll call when she gets back."

Ai tells herself this imaginary story, knowing all too well that it isn't true, as she thinks of her lone sister."

- Megumi Hayashibara, The Characters Taught Me Everything: Living Life One Episode at a Time (2021)

(Translated by Jenny McKeon & Nathaniel Hiroshi Thrasher)

I’m sorry to be slightly late to this but…

My line of thinking is that while Masumi is his little sister, he has sworn his life to protect Shiho

Of course he loves Masumi but he also views her as “can handle herself” which she has proven several times

Shiho on the other hand? He has promised Akemi to protect her. Shiho is the last connection to Akemi Akai has/ knows of

@aqualianbird I appreciate your differentiation very much, thank you for taking the time to go through it in such detail

When I get to writing this (I haven’t written something this heavy on internal monologue/ introspection in ages), I’ll be sure to send you the link to the fic

Rye

I’ve always wondered about the significance of this color regarding her character. First we have this from Vol.24…

…then in the bus hijacking case in Vol. 29…

..the dolls case in Vol.38…

…the Porsche case in Vol.41…

…we also know Akai means red, so… could he have anything to do with this? Or am I overthinking it?

This One Shot from the Entire episode Speaks Volume......

At least he is showing some ABS here💜 would love to be his student if I get to see those sexy ABS 💜💜

like, both of the people he most worked with (Scotch and Rye) were found out as NOCs, which would personally make me suspicious of him, and the members of the black organization are way more wary about NOCs

not only that, but Akemi Miyano is his childhood friend? she could have let slip something about him and his cover would be blown

there's the time where Taka'aki knew where he was and that Kuroda had to act too, because if he was too late to act, his cover would have been blown in front of Rum of all people