Track 1

I knew i’d seen that face before.

It was a life ago.

If only for a moment,

my memory would own it.

I tried to let those remnants go.

Your disconnected line,

the pay phone in my mind.

Pages I’d left unread.

Saving for a better day,

Collect my mind from disarray.

Words we never said

in the bed we hadn’t laid.

In rooms I wish you’d stayed.

Now months have passed & I’m at your door

that broken glass swept from the floor

Not holding back but on for more

I knew i’d seen that face before

Track 2

I’ll wait til breath escapes my chest for you

no surer fate awaits the day i rest but you

holding my hand enclosed in the two of yours

just like the way you held it before 

Just like birds encaged between tiny metal doors

like i hold my hands cupped with your heart as it pours

blood and love and everything

we died in the winter but reborn before spring

blood and love and everything

that four letter word that i never could sing

that four letter word that i never could bring

myself to admit that it is.

Track 3

I would wait a day for you

if you could miss me so much more.

To see that smile streak across your face as I open up your door

or when i pull up to your driveway

and you get inside my car 

and it won’t matter where we’re going

it only matters where we are.

cause when i’m with you

its like the whole world slows down

when i’m with you its like theres no one else around

and I could be a better man with just the promise of your hand in mine 

it don’t hurt to be me now

cause when i’m with you

I feel found

and theres somethings i’ve been holding back to say

but it gets closer to the tip of my tongue everyday

about your laugh your heart your independence 

lately i feel most repentant thinking that i hurt you in anyway

Cause the mind that you possess if i could carefully confess 

it holds the person who in bed with i want to lay

so stay with me

until tomorrow comes we’ll hold on tip the morning sun

stay with me

until it’s bright outside ill hold you close all through the night

Track 4

I’ll empty out my lungs 

but it won’t mean  a single thing

dig for a truth just to prove you were right

to take a chance on me in hopes you’d see

the person that i want to be

not hanging from this noose that I tie I my mind

cause the words i said they won’t mean a thing

if i can’t make good on these actions

You gave me your heart and opened your mind. 

both wrapped beautifully… delicately..

i opened up and let you inside 

to places nobodies seen in me

if you were to leave i’d tear it all down

set a fire so no one could ever ever again

call it their home

I don’t measure my life

by its passing of time

but in moments

that show us there’s reason why

why its worth it to breathe,

to get out to bed, to smile to give away a piece

of yourself.

and I know thats what you are for me,

And i’m sorry. You never asked for it.

Track 5

You met me at the bottom of a hole

the same one you had dug yourself into

and we both sat there cold and alone

waiting to be found

but we’ve held on this long

I need you to be strong

don’t want to give up on this now.

before the sky swallows us whole

i’d empty everything inside of me

for a chance to see to feel to hold

a possibility to be. 

Track 6

Callous

She only asked for one thing.

Careless 

Her heart the cat my love the string

it isn’t me it never could be

to play these games. I never should be

messing with emotion, my only raft upon this ocean

desolately steering safe beyond the sea

a hole in you. the end of me.

a puncture, cause by my words 

destructed infrastructure

disfunction a this juncture

I sank in the crest and I rose in the trough

replenished my lungs as the water turned off

my faculties.

each wave destroyed a piece of me

i couldn’t feel I’d ever be

steering safe beyond the sea.

Track 7

I never meant to hurt you

You really need to know that

I wish that i could make you strong

enough to stand the impact

of this fucked up world

how it warps and twists a perfect girl

distorting your view

of all the worth within you

if we could raise our daughters

to stand proud like flags upon these waters

shed navigate her way home

perpetuating new tones

stand tall to feel the worth of your femininity 

don’t you dare let them dictate what your self worth should be

magazines, websites, what you hear on T.V.

breeding shame for the beauty of your sexuality

these words are all i have to give

with this life I made now yours to live.

Track 8

Is god really dead? 

or has he just turned his back

abandoned his actors 

in their near final act?

caught up in our rapture

our conscious drawn blanks

overdrawn checks in spiritual banks

judgement day is round the bend 

yet we can’t near prepare

cause salvation was never there

if we go down it’ll be in flames

when we go down not a soul remains

we rode this bus together

but we’re all alone

humanity’s dysfunctional family

the earth’s our broken home

Track 9

”$$$$”

I was promised prosperity

They sold me their hope

Just enough to hang on to

Til I was hung like a rope

I’m at the end of mine now

at the end of the road

Like a gun To my temple

I’m alone to unload

In any direction I choose

These are my modern day blues

How many dollar signs does it take to spell freedom?

Or to send the American dream wrapped up to the museum

In the halls of the antiquities

As a memory of what used to be

Track 10

"Nobody Likes a Hero”

When there’s nothing left, and all we are is ash.

There’ll be no one left to remember your name.

You dig ‘til you find a grave in your mind.

You can’t discover truth every answers the same.

So we kick and we scream ‘til we all start to be

the very source of this insanity.

Cause every truth we tried to find and every word we hid behind were lies

It’s true what they say oil runs thicker than blood

you’ll drown deep in it before you’ve had enough

will this state of emergence at this level bear cause

that what is above us is of no concern to us?

so we keep our heads turned and our ears to the ground

feeling out the floor and begging for a sound 

while in pews with hands crossed we pray to be saved

we’re only tightening the shackles to which we’re enslaved 

but what is there left to say

when all that you talk is all that you pray

and all that you pray just won’t save us anyway

It’s so strange.

The way it consumes us.

Has it’s way with you until you are used up.

And isn’t it sad how we’re all fucked up?

unloved to loveless. the careless all abused once.

From tough love we seek happy endings.

Empty arms hopelessly extending

forward to see what we learned from T.V.

Cause Mommy & Daddy couldn’t seem to

get it right

to teach the feeling we speak of as we turn out the light.

Ritualistically 

using words to express what we never could see.

Like a river run dry

made a canyon of  me

what had flowed in my youth 

by my teens slowed to freeze

now i’ve buckled and broken and weak at the knees

as i struggle to survive through these mid-twenties