Whoops, all gays!

guys i have to stop being the kurasame guy i got called sexless last night and its like i literally know exactly why you think this of me and its because of kura. its literally all his fault. grox would never do this to me. the kurasame effect but its making u sexless.

i rly love what feels like a dichotomy between the two styles of foxes that people end up picking to draw. sometimes u get a mix but i feel like its usually pretty split and one of the most defining proofs of this dichotomy is the across the nose scar.

and if i hold you underwater and if i watch the bubbles leave your mouth and if i watch your eyes in a frenzy and if i watch your limbs flail to stop me and if i watch you beg and beg and beg and watching is all waiting and waiting and waiting and you will die and i will be a killer but arent you glad i didnt look away. arent you glad i did the least i could do. arent you glad i couldnt do anything else.

thinking more abt his time in rhodesia and mozambique. like that guy.

thinking abt grox more. i miss him. thought abt him picking snakes lighter off him to convince him into favors around base. like snake wouldnt have done em anyway. offering cigs n snacks n drinks to get out of having to do any work around the base. and then getting told off by miller for it when he's caught. because of course he is.

i dont really try to write all fancy or flowery. i think i just write the way it feels to be alive. to me.

and if i listen to music that scares me i dont think i really exist at all

because if i think about him. if i think about him and his dynamic w snake it makes me sick. i heart messy situationships and emotions you both dont know how to deal with + you literally cant do anything with them and maybe if i see you behind my cigarette smoke itll tell me this is all a dream ill wake up from except im waking up in bed next to you and realizing its all too real. my head hurts. i dont feel good. maybe if i burn our lips going for a kiss while sharing my cigarette's light youll think of me the next time you have your lighter close enough to feel its warmth.

can you tell i genuinely dont think im capable of dying by the way i write so many of my muses to be apathetic to the concept.

wanting to write bonds nn is gonna kill me. the macklin celebrini effect.

the overflow issue in 2 is my current mood rn

unfort sooo partial to sbk and bken. nanas weird uncles. "what abt aqi" hes nothing to me.

its still incredibly funny to me that 2s meant to go law. like yeah whatever man. go my megiddo ark.

gotta love inventing crackships that you get too invested in. uh oh.

spent all day looking at salamanders. im gonna get in trouble at work. oops.