Romans 13:8

Lord, help me not be bitter. Change me. Fix me. Let the things I bitterly hope for not be true. I say that I wait for her to break his heart, and the evil part of me wants that to happen so I can be right and she can be terrible, but I know that he will ultimately be hurt in that scenario. Let my love be sacrificial. I don't know what will happen tomorrow or a month from now or a year. If we'll be together or if we'll barely be friends. I want to lovingly kick his ass. Tell him that he needs you and a therapist and a new way of operating. I like honesty. I'll give that to him. Help me be more like you lord. Amen

Lord, help me fight desperately to overcome my need for attention. Help me be a better person. Help me reach out when I'm feeling like this so I can get support.

Just now I looked up at God and laughed at him with a solid "You... Motherfucker!" cause he's so faithful it's nearly unbelievable if I wasn't here alive seeing it for myself

Lord, What do you do when your life is on an upswing, but your friends is spiraling down? What do you do when you stopped being angry, but they get madder for you and for themselves. What do you do when you're fine and they aren't? How do you celebrate being okay without bragging.

So at the beginning of the semester, I would lowkey talk about how cute John Michael and Jesse were, mostly because they are cute, I know they're Godly, and both seemed really unattainable at the time so they were safe. But idk I've been chatting with John Michael when I see him in passing and he seems nice and we flirt which is cool but also... Last night Jesse came to crosstalk and we talked afterwards. And he so openly talked about the Lord with me and how God has been leading him and I was able to share part of my Christian journey with him as well and... Last week Andi told me that God is looking through head shots, but he's waiting for me to write the resume so he can cast my show. I haven't written the resume, but..... I think this is what I'd like in a relationship? And it's more than liking Nate because he's nice to me. Or John Michael because he holds my hand and makes me laugh. It's like.... Wow. I feel so sick thinking about him because I'm so overwhelmed. Is this what a Godly man looks like? I was so scared of Godly men for the longest time because I was scared of them being this scary conservative overbearing monster but Jesse is a sweet Austin hipster who plays guitar and is majoring in theatre but still talked about God's plan in his life with me..... I feel sick but it's a good kind of sick. A good kind of feeling where my stomach hits my chest, but it's like my heart is full of helium. At the very least, this is God telling me what I need to be looking for. Like maybe Jesse and I aren't meant to be but I'd really like to get to know him and really like to get to like him but even if I don't or we can't at the very least God is telling me that this is the kind of thing I should be searching for. I never started on that resume because I wasn't sure where to start

Lord, I pray over our country. I pray over other countries and the Muslim people there who can't find refuge. I pray that this is the last bad thing to happen politically in the next four years. I pray that every woman in a Hijab can walk home safe every night. I pray that we as a society are able to have faith and trust in others that is merely a testament of your love.

This is the second week in a row where I'm not going to church 😬 last week I rolled over at 8am and was like "lmao nope I'm sleep" and this morning even tho I got up at 9 I showered and now I'd only have an hour to get ready and nah

I just had the best God experience and it almost ended with me blacking out butt naked in the middle of my bathroom

I think that God wants us to live minimalist-type lifestyles Because ultimately minimalism is about freeing yourself from earthly things and measures of success and if we can free ourselves from Things and focus on God I think he'd like that a lot