it’s been a while
I just received an email asking me if I still wanted this username. I haven’t used this account properly in years, bar the odd depressing update or two. I’m 26 now and I’m in my final year of my masters degree. I’ve put on an insane amount of weight over the last few years and I hate myself for it. I have struggled so much with my mental health for so long now and getting a reminder about this blog and all the memories and painful thoughts and recollections that I had stored in various blogs attached to this account have just made so much pain and anger and broken feelings swoop back on me. I have gone through so much trauma and so much hurt and heartache and every other kind of emotional pain I can think of. It was somewhat cathartic deleting all those blogs only filled with sour memories, yet reading some of them again is opening wounds I hadn’t thought were still there after years. I will keep this blog as long as I can as some sort of testament to how life has/had been for me. I don’t know when I’ll next post to here. I’m still alive, I’m still fighting. It’s a tough fight but I’ll keep going. I have to.
