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Request detail: pls make quinn hughes bleed, pleeeeease (also if i get one more thing: can the reader character in this one be a bit less meek and cutesy? but if not that's cool) (by @everlovingdolly )
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Quinn gritted his teeth, a hybrid of a groan and a growl rumbling out of his throat. His eye momentarily rolled up before fluttering close then open to meet your gaze. His body tensed at the sharp pain that followed the unforgiving slice of your knife across his skin below his left collarbone. He didnโt need to confirm that the cut was deeper than your first cuts which were mere scratches that youโd press to make him bleed. No. This one immediately dripped, his warm blood trickling out of the cut.
It hurt.
It hurt so fucking good.
His cock twitched, dripping with pre-cum underneath his stained boxers. The pain was sharp, yet it melted into an intoxicating blend of pleasure. His body was burning as if he would spontaneously combust. He was fucking addicted to this amount of pain, to this amount of pleasure, to this amount of insanity.
He yearned for more. A deeper slice. A heavier drip of his blood. A high higher than he had ever fucking felt. It didn't matter if he might need stitches. It didn't matter if it would leave a scar. It didnโt matter if there was an odd chance that he would somehow bleedout from this laceration. It didn't fucking matter because he was craving more. He needed more. And more you gave.
The cold metal nicked him almost in the same place, causing him to gasp, to tug against the metal cuffs that secured his wrists to the headboard, to sob out a plea that you answered with a devilish grin. He helplessly rutted his hips upwards, meeting your lazy grinds, wishing desperately that he could feel your bare pussy around his cock instead of the friction of his pre-cum soaked boxers. This wasn't fucking fair.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!
He wanted to kiss you. He wanted to touch you. He wanted to carve up your perfect body the exact way you did with his as if it would make your bodies reflections of your shared darkness. He wanted you to bleed onto his bloody skin, your bloods mixing on each other's skin. He wanted to coat his cock with that mixture then he would sink into your quivering heat, painting your walls with the fluid that keeps you both alive and his cum. He wanted it all.
Quinn gritted his teeth, his whole being rattling, as you carved into his skin, swirling and pushing the sharp edge into his flesh. His blood dripped and dripped. Down his chest, down over his sensitive nipple that was still aching from your intense sucks and bites, down to his tensing abdomen, down to his waistband.
Off. He wanted his boxers off. They were in the way. His blood would've reached his cock. You would've been grinding along his length, smearing his blood on your pussy. Fuck his life.
"My Love," he panted, sounding like a whine. His watercolored eyes blurred yet zoned into your amusement. He groaned when your fingers traced over your masterpieces, sending shivers of pain to wreck his body. "F-fuck."
His eyes stung with involuntary tears. His cock painfully twitched once more, bagging to be fucked more than the torture of dryhumping. His mind that was turning with plans he was meticulously weaving turned blank and fogged over.
Fucking plans. His plan went to off the rails. He was supposed to be in charge tonight. He was supposed to strip you naked and secure you to the bedframe with the usual fleece-lined leather cuffs. He was supposed to eat you out until your pussy was swollen and ready for the smooth handle of the knife that he specifically had forged to its exact measurement and shape that would be perfect to fuck you with. He was supposed to bite into your flesh until he left you with bitemarks and bruises on your skin.That was the plan.
It didn't happen because you coaxed him into his position, kissing him so softly then roughly then back, effectively consuming his senses while you gripped his hands to your neck. The next thing he knew was you pushing his hands back and the sound of metal cuffs locking. Then you cut off his shirt, tugged off his pants, snatched the knife that he was hiding. You halted his protests by mounting him, grinding on him. You peppered him with kisses everywhere. Soft and innocent. Greedy and filthy. Then you started using his knife on him, effectively overturning his plans with yours.
Quinn had no complaintsโother than to get rid of the boxers, fuck you, and fill you with so much cum that you'd complain about it during clean upโbecause he fucking loved it when you take what you wanted with him. He loved to be used by you. He loved to hurt for you. He'd do anything.
Literally anything.
Even if anything meant dying of blood loss when you eventually cut him too much. He wouldn't mind. His life was yours.
"My Love," he called again, trying to sit up from the headboard. ignoring the soreness on his wrists. "Please."
"Hmm." You hummed. Your hips stopped, lifting from his cock, robbing him of his pleasure. You shook your head, your other hand flattening on his left chest, pushing him back. When he stopped moving, you brought the bloodied knife to your lips, kissing its face, leaving his blood on your lips as you put it down against his skin again.
You were ethereal like his very own Goddess of both Life and Death. You excude confidence as you dragged the knife over his skin, leaving a streak of red down his sternum. While on top of him, you looked up at him through your lashes, the spark of darkness and mischief turning into a feign innocence. You blinked, smiling so sweetly that Quinn swore he could taste its saccharine lie.
"Please what, Quinny? Do you want me to stop?"
"Never," the word slipped out in a hurry. His tone was tight and laced with panic. His heart twisted, tumbling with his spiral. "Please don't stop. Give me more. You can keep me like this. Cut me up. Make me bleed. Mark me up. Just let me fuck your pussy. I need to be inside you. I. Need. You."
You discarded the knife on the bed, not caring a single bit about the mess. Your hands hooked over his nape, pulling him for a searing kiss, lips parted for his tongue, but Quinn dared to lick across your lips first, taking his essense on your lips, feeling the ghost of your smile.
He groaned, the copper taste entwining with your taste. He felt your nails sink into his nape, heat stabbing through his cock. His breaths came short and shaky as he met the fervor of your kiss while he held off his orgasm. He hoped to anything fucking holy that he could still tamped it down.
"I need you too," you replied, dragging your nails from his nape to his chest, to his waistband, prying off his boxers to free his raging problem. "Oh, Quinn, you poor thing."
You giggled, your hand wrapping around his cock, your thumb pressing on his slit, making his eyes roll upwards. You were going to kill him. Figuratively. No. Literallyโ
"Fuck," he stuttered, writhing underneath you as you swiftly took all of him inside your wet pussy. The feel of your warmth hugging him got him choking on his spit. His body tensed as he came. "No, noโfuck no," he whined, shaking his head, his hips rolling to ride his own orgasm. "I'm sorry. I'm fucking sorry. I triedโ"
"Yes, yes. Fuck yes," you moaned, lifting up his throbbing length only to slid back down. You leaned down, your tongue lapping over his wounds, pushing him further and further as his peak dragged, spilling more cum inside you. "Fuck. Yes. Quinny."
Curses danced from his lips when he finally stopped coming and you continued to fuck him even as his cock softened, working his overly sensitized member so deliberately until he painfully hardened once more. Black spots darkened his vision as he met your thrusts. His ears rang as he heard a click of the cuffs unlocking. His mouth felt dry as he immediately gripped your hips in a bruising hold.
Quinn pushed through the pain. From oversensitivity. From his sore and probably blistered wrists. From the cuts that you continued to lick and prodded with your thumb. From his balls tightening with another load of cum ready. From the freedom that he must pretend that he didn't have yet.
He acted pliant, receiving everything you gave. He reciprocated every thrust and grind, every kiss and sighs, every moan and groan. He called out your name with tears strreaming down his face. He listened to how your body reacted, feeling the same fluttering of your walls until you came. He smiled in awe at the sight of your back arching, your neck looking so pretty and unmarked, yoour lips parted in your silent scream.
You were so pretty when you came, so beautiful when your pussy clamped down on his cock, so incredible when you panted and finally met his eyes, so cute when you squealed after he flipped your positions.
Quinn grasped the knife, perfectly gripping it and holding it to your neck, right against your thundering pulse, its blade nicking your skin, drawing the smallest amount of blood compared to his blood dripping from his skin.
Your eyes widened while your pussy clenched. "Quinnโ"
He thrust into you, reaching your deepest depths, smirking when your eyes rolled up and your hands slamming onto his chest. He grinded his hips, torturing your sensitive spot with his cock and your clit with his pelvis.
"I'm gonna breed you while I cut you, my Love." He grinned, pressing the knife harder on your neck, chasing after you when you tried to move away. He knew you weren't afraid. He could see your trust and your desire. Then he slid the blade down as he slowed down his thrusts, still driving into you deeply. He traced over your collarbone. "Scream for me."
You did when he cut through your skin exactly where your first deep cut on him.
You were so loud when he fucked you through the pain that you came for him.
You were so singing your screams so beautifully that he couldn't help but grab your throat and kissed you while you rolled into another peak over and over again.
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Besides Pride Night during hockey season, Moon Harbor Otters celebrate the Pride Month with their fans in the off season. Along with various activity and food booths for the first week of June, here are highlight activities that fans were waiting for:
Moon Harbor Otters' Morning Skate and Scrimmage
To officially kick off Pride Month in Moon Harbor, the team held their morning skate and scrimmage at the Hold instead of their training rinks. To watch it, there are limited tickets available at a discounted rate and all proceeds will go to LGBTQ+ nonprofits. There were only 400 available and they tend to run out fast! Players tend to gave out more pucks (Otters' Pride Month exclusive pucks) and well-decorated sticks compared to their usual giveaway during Pride Night.
Otters Pride Parade
With different parade floats made by the team, the fans, and sponsors, the Parade will start from the Holt and around Moon Harbor then back. Some players tend to attend this, especially the Captain (who typically carries Luna in a "baby" wrap) and Lionel (who might as well be part of the float for wearing so much rainbow colored apparel).
Find and Meet Livie!
A different kind of meet-and-greet had been one of the most requested activity. While it was already normal to take pictures of Livie when she is laying around the Holt or link hands with her and potentially be stuck for hours in a raft with her, finding Livie during Pride Month festivities would earn not only a picture of Livie wearing a colorful dress but also exclusive Livie-designed stickers and official polaroid photo with her. BUT! She must be found. Her location changes frequently with only her tagged photos are the hint.
The Edge of Darkness Trilogy by Leigh Rivers (Dark Romance, MF)
I have no clue if this include and HEA but I am gonna read it even if it will cause me tears and a heartbreak. I enjoyed Little Stranger (I didn't read Little Liar because truth be told, I really am so annoyed with FMC there). I heard good things so...YES!
Off-Campus Series by Elle Kennedy (Romance, MF, Hockey)
I am loving Off-Campus TV Show. I am still on episode 6 and I am milking it because I will be stuck there like I am still stuck in the cottage. Gosh, I love Garrett Graham. Like Belmont, i love you, you hot man. I just....I am a sucker for pretty men. I am gonna sob. I need more. i wanna read Dean's story too. I will see if I will continue after I read these two books. After this, I might plan to finally pick up Heated Rivalry + The Long Game, but I'll see how it goes.
I am gonna dive into FF Romance too, but I need recs. I'm so scared going to booktok for recs though...SOBS. If anyone know of anything, please give me some!! Only romance though. I need HEA. Less or amny smut, i neeeeeeeeeed.
More books I've read in month of May to currently reading now.
(Same disclaimer as before...Disclaimer: I have no clue if there were issues/controversy about the books and/or authors. I just read whatever that I come across of. Honestly, I don't really wanna know too coz I just read and be horny.)
Painter's Obsession Volume I and II by Luna K Wicked. (Erotic Horror, MM, SMUT)
This is my first erotic horror and I finished it. Author described it as "static white" which was darker than pitch black and I agree. It is dark. It does not have a HEA, but the way it ended was arguably a good ending in a way. It is actually super, extremely, fucking dark. Everything was open-door. It is depraved. It is horrifying. I was wincing and hiding behind my sheets most of the time, but FUCK, I couldn't stop turning the pages. I am so glad I didn't neglect the TW/CW because it helped me stomach the scenes. 10 out of 10 would recommend but you must read the warnings and be strong!
The Hunters Series by TL Smith. (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
There are three standalone books here. I'll discuss it. They are all touch her and die type even among each other lmao.
Moments of Malevolence was about Zuko and Alaska. Talk about uncommunicated kinks such as knife and breath play. Alaska loved it but she went all angry and crazy at Zuko for it. I love that hehe. I love when men get put in their place. Moments of Madness was about Kyson and Kalilah. This is the only book that got a safeword between the couples and I LIKE IT. I mean for the two others, they would stop if their girlies say so, but I love a detail of safewords. This got a slight pregnancy trope at the end tho yet it is my favorite out of the three. Moments of Mayhem was about Kenzo and Mayve. They were going for the marriage of convenience. It is nice, yes. Kenzo went all pathetic when Mayve "didn't" want him. But gosh, it is kinda not hitting something. I think I was just so into Kyson lmao.
The Pucking Wrong Rookie by CR Jane.
Logan York, the rookie with so much money but still ended up doing a funny burger commercial so he could afford to pay for that service but it is for Sloane so he did it! I am horrified (like always for FMC's circumstances in this series) for Sloane and her job. I am so happy that Logan got to whisk her away from that and of course, I love Lincoln MMC for The Pucking Wrong Number) still being the freaking best ever. I like it. I hope Everett suffered more though (he makes me so sick). ANYWAY, YAY!
Sunrise on the Reaping by Suzanne Collins (Dystopia, Young Adult)
I am still reading this. GOSH, I am so scared for the heartache so my reading is super slow. Like actually, I only have ever read a page or two per day. I AM SO SCARED but I know it will be good. I am gonna continue reading this.
In the Dark by Chelsea Curto (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
Stalker: Check. Masked man: Check. "Red flag": Check. Hunter is so not a red flag but he does have a stalker and vigilante tendency. HE IS PERFECT. I need a man who will fill up my fridge, do my laundry, fix things, and communicate his kinks and let me explore my freaking kinks. I NEED HIM. PLEASE. I AM BEGGING. 1000000 out 10, give him to me.
Bleed for Me by Hargrove Reverie ((Paranormal) Romance, MF, Slight SMUT)
The whole premise of having a contract with a vampire who wanted to suck your blood exclusively is hot and hold so much potential, but the writing is a bit off. The pace--the build up, the conflict, the everything--was wrong. I think it is because it is so short or idk. Not so sure. Not for me, i think.
That Sik Luv by Jescie Hall (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
I fear I might DNF this or start again from the beginning. I just can't do anything with religious trauma thing. I shall see what I'll do.
Daddy's Sinner: The Sinner & Dove by Luna K. Wicked.
Same with That Sik Luv, but I am certain I will DNF because of it being a cult thing. I will survive. It is just not my thing! I just tried to read it because it is the same author as Painter's Obsession but I discovered it is not for me so bye bye for now!
While I was on hiatus doing my personal stuff (that could not be shared here), I have also read books for a week (and some during) before I started those stuff. Now, time to yap about them.
(Disclaimer: I have no clue if there were issues/controversy about the books and/or authors. I just read whatever that I come across of. Honestly, I don't really wanna know too coz I just read and be horny.)
Kiss the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT, Age Gap)
I freaking love Gareth and his brat-iness. Like, GOSH, so bratty. I love how Kayden was able to tame him like putting him in his place. Brat and the Brat Tamer. I LOVE IT. I love how the Gareth was extremely possessive (they both are for each other) but something about his obsessive possession was tugging something inside me like he gets so consumed by it. I can't explain. I love Gareth so much (also Kayden but GARETH).
Hunt the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT)
It just keeps getting better and better, the MM romance of Rina Kent. I LOVE Vaughn and Yulian. The obsession. The possession. The insane and mind-bending love. Yulian loves Vaughn ever since and he gave everything. I'm so happy they got together at the end after that conflict. I'm so happy that...fuck...slight spoiler: Idk why but I actually crashed out when Vaughn was outed and talked with his parents. To be accepted like that...I want that.... ANYWAY, I LOVE THEM.
Quiet Obsession by IA Dice (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
I like it but GAWD the threesome scenes. I died. I fear it was so hot. The first scene was not for the main couple but I got so hot and bothered that I had to take a cold shower. I kinda forgot why Millie became selective mute (I also need to research on that) but yeah, it is so endearing that Creed was losing it coz she wasn't talking to him lmao.
I honestly don't remember besides the fact that Conner was such a MAN. I like it, I guess.
Highland Hideaway by Lily Gold (Romance, MFMM (No swords crossed), SMUT)
When I saw this, I jumped coz I am obsessed with Lily Gold's Why Choose/RH standalones. There is the golden retriever, the silent and grumpy acts of service man, and the apprehensive (idk the word) one. YET THEY LOVE HER. HEHE.
Karma by KA Knight (Dark Romance, MFMM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT)
I love a very strong FMC, Karma. Gosh, I want her actually. Like "Step aside, sai brothers. Give her to me." She is just so strong and she got that reputation. I like that she also some "weakness" about the main antagonist and gosh, she sorted it out yay. Anyway, I love her. Give her to me.
Delightful Sins by Lola King (Dark Romance, MFM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT
I guess I liked the spicy scenes, but I must say...I hate that people don't believe Jade. Everything just circled around that. I've read darker books than this but I kinda don't like it. I finished it though. There is a good ending, of course, it's just...idk.. too much but also not. Something is missing. I might not read the other books of this series.
Older by Jennifer Hartmann (Romance, MF, SMUT, Age Gap (kinda forbidden?))
This is a reread. I am freaking out. It was just different from my usual age gap romances (like mmc is just 21 or something then mmc is on 30-50 etc), coz this started with them meeting with Halley as a 17-year-old that pretended she is older but she immediately got discovered lol so nothing really happened then. Alarm bells, mayhaps, yet it didn't feel dirty or disgusting? It felt somehow real especially when Halley was getting trained (martial arts) by Reed. She is getting stronger. She came a long way from how "broken" she was from her abusive father. Idk, it really was such a read. I can't explain. Just happy they got together in every way they did.
Twisted Pawn by LJ Shen (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
All I remember was the time Achilles who tried too hard at the beginning like going to full degradation route coz he knew Tierney likes that with her previous partners but wrong move for him coz communication is the first thing about kinks. Poor man but also he deserve it. Anyway, good ending. I liked it ig.
Blood King by Natalie Kane (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT, Mafia, Age gap)
IN JULIAN, WE TRUST. I fear I need to read the other books for these series since this is technically book 2, but it is a standalone. He is just so protective and so strong. BUT I think he didn't grovel enough after the fuckass thing he did. It took him WEEKS to pull up the tapes?? Like man, are you insane? More grovel!!! LONGER GROVEL!!! Anyway, I even read the bonus chapter so I like it!
That's all I read before and during my personal stuff. I will yap about the books I read when everything is calming down on another post.
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I am okay, ma'am!!!! I just had some...obligations that I had to straighten out. It is still on progress but I am slowly getting free *cue chains breaking off* MWA. You are the sweetest, ma'am! MWA!
