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Lionel Hill @ MHO Pride Month | June 1, 2026

Lionel looks forward to Pride Parade after the scrimmage.

Besides Pride Night during hockey season, Moon Harbor Otters celebrate the Pride Month with their fans in the off season. Along with various activity and food booths for the first week of June, here are highlight activities that fans were waiting for:

Moon Harbor Otters' Morning Skate and Scrimmage

To officially kick off Pride Month in Moon Harbor, the team held their morning skate and scrimmage at the Hold instead of their training rinks. To watch it, there are limited tickets available at a discounted rate and all proceeds will go to LGBTQ+ nonprofits. There were only 400 available and they tend to run out fast! Players tend to gave out more pucks (Otters' Pride Month exclusive pucks) and well-decorated sticks compared to their usual giveaway during Pride Night.

Otters Pride Parade

With different parade floats made by the team, the fans, and sponsors, the Parade will start from the Holt and around Moon Harbor then back. Some players tend to attend this, especially the Captain (who typically carries Luna in a "baby" wrap) and Lionel (who might as well be part of the float for wearing so much rainbow colored apparel).

Find and Meet Livie!

A different kind of meet-and-greet had been one of the most requested activity. While it was already normal to take pictures of Livie when she is laying around the Holt or link hands with her and potentially be stuck for hours in a raft with her, finding Livie during Pride Month festivities would earn not only a picture of Livie wearing a colorful dress but also exclusive Livie-designed stickers and official polaroid photo with her. BUT! She must be found. Her location changes frequently with only her tagged photos are the hint.

The Edge of Darkness Trilogy by Leigh Rivers (Dark Romance, MF)

I have no clue if this include and HEA but I am gonna read it even if it will cause me tears and a heartbreak. I enjoyed Little Stranger (I didn't read Little Liar because truth be told, I really am so annoyed with FMC there). I heard good things so...YES!

Off-Campus Series by Elle Kennedy (Romance, MF, Hockey)

I am loving Off-Campus TV Show. I am still on episode 6 and I am milking it because I will be stuck there like I am still stuck in the cottage. Gosh, I love Garrett Graham. Like Belmont, i love you, you hot man. I just....I am a sucker for pretty men. I am gonna sob. I need more. i wanna read Dean's story too. I will see if I will continue after I read these two books. After this, I might plan to finally pick up Heated Rivalry + The Long Game, but I'll see how it goes.

(Same disclaimer as before...Disclaimer: I have no clue if there were issues/controversy about the books and/or authors. I just read whatever that I come across of. Honestly, I don't really wanna know too coz I just read and be horny.)

Painter's Obsession Volume I and II by Luna K Wicked. (Erotic Horror, MM, SMUT)

This is my first erotic horror and I finished it. Author described it as "static white" which was darker than pitch black and I agree. It is dark. It does not have a HEA, but the way it ended was arguably a good ending in a way. It is actually super, extremely, fucking dark. Everything was open-door. It is depraved. It is horrifying. I was wincing and hiding behind my sheets most of the time, but FUCK, I couldn't stop turning the pages. I am so glad I didn't neglect the TW/CW because it helped me stomach the scenes. 10 out of 10 would recommend but you must read the warnings and be strong!

The Hunters Series by TL Smith. (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)

There are three standalone books here. I'll discuss it. They are all touch her and die type even among each other lmao.

Moments of Malevolence was about Zuko and Alaska. Talk about uncommunicated kinks such as knife and breath play. Alaska loved it but she went all angry and crazy at Zuko for it. I love that hehe. I love when men get put in their place. Moments of Madness was about Kyson and Kalilah. This is the only book that got a safeword between the couples and I LIKE IT. I mean for the two others, they would stop if their girlies say so, but I love a detail of safewords. This got a slight pregnancy trope at the end tho yet it is my favorite out of the three. Moments of Mayhem was about Kenzo and Mayve. They were going for the marriage of convenience. It is nice, yes. Kenzo went all pathetic when Mayve "didn't" want him. But gosh, it is kinda not hitting something. I think I was just so into Kyson lmao.

The Pucking Wrong Rookie by CR Jane.

Logan York, the rookie with so much money but still ended up doing a funny burger commercial so he could afford to pay for that service but it is for Sloane so he did it! I am horrified (like always for FMC's circumstances in this series) for Sloane and her job. I am so happy that Logan got to whisk her away from that and of course, I love Lincoln MMC for The Pucking Wrong Number) still being the freaking best ever. I like it. I hope Everett suffered more though (he makes me so sick). ANYWAY, YAY!

Sunrise on the Reaping by Suzanne Collins (Dystopia, Young Adult)

I am still reading this. GOSH, I am so scared for the heartache so my reading is super slow. Like actually, I only have ever read a page or two per day. I AM SO SCARED but I know it will be good. I am gonna continue reading this.

In the Dark by Chelsea Curto (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)

Stalker: Check. Masked man: Check. "Red flag": Check. Hunter is so not a red flag but he does have a stalker and vigilante tendency. HE IS PERFECT. I need a man who will fill up my fridge, do my laundry, fix things, and communicate his kinks and let me explore my freaking kinks. I NEED HIM. PLEASE. I AM BEGGING. 1000000 out 10, give him to me.

Bleed for Me by Hargrove Reverie ((Paranormal) Romance, MF, Slight SMUT)

The whole premise of having a contract with a vampire who wanted to suck your blood exclusively is hot and hold so much potential, but the writing is a bit off. The pace--the build up, the conflict, the everything--was wrong. I think it is because it is so short or idk. Not so sure. Not for me, i think.

That Sik Luv by Jescie Hall (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)

I fear I might DNF this or start again from the beginning. I just can't do anything with religious trauma thing. I shall see what I'll do.

Daddy's Sinner: The Sinner & Dove by Luna K. Wicked.

(Disclaimer: I have no clue if there were issues/controversy about the books and/or authors. I just read whatever that I come across of. Honestly, I don't really wanna know too coz I just read and be horny.)

Kiss the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT, Age Gap)

I freaking love Gareth and his brat-iness. Like, GOSH, so bratty. I love how Kayden was able to tame him like putting him in his place. Brat and the Brat Tamer. I LOVE IT. I love how the Gareth was extremely possessive (they both are for each other) but something about his obsessive possession was tugging something inside me like he gets so consumed by it. I can't explain. I love Gareth so much (also Kayden but GARETH).

Hunt the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT)

It just keeps getting better and better, the MM romance of Rina Kent. I LOVE Vaughn and Yulian. The obsession. The possession. The insane and mind-bending love. Yulian loves Vaughn ever since and he gave everything. I'm so happy they got together at the end after that conflict. I'm so happy that...fuck...slight spoiler: Idk why but I actually crashed out when Vaughn was outed and talked with his parents. To be accepted like that...I want that.... ANYWAY, I LOVE THEM.

Quiet Obsession by IA Dice (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)

I like it but GAWD the threesome scenes. I died. I fear it was so hot. The first scene was not for the main couple but I got so hot and bothered that I had to take a cold shower. I kinda forgot why Millie became selective mute (I also need to research on that) but yeah, it is so endearing that Creed was losing it coz she wasn't talking to him lmao.

Silent Vows by Jill Ramsower (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT, Arranged Marriage)

I honestly don't remember besides the fact that Conner was such a MAN. I like it, I guess.

Highland Hideaway by Lily Gold (Romance, MFMM (No swords crossed), SMUT)

When I saw this, I jumped coz I am obsessed with Lily Gold's Why Choose/RH standalones. There is the golden retriever, the silent and grumpy acts of service man, and the apprehensive (idk the word) one. YET THEY LOVE HER. HEHE.

Karma by KA Knight (Dark Romance, MFMM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT)

I love a very strong FMC, Karma. Gosh, I want her actually. Like "Step aside, sai brothers. Give her to me." She is just so strong and she got that reputation. I like that she also some "weakness" about the main antagonist and gosh, she sorted it out yay. Anyway, I love her. Give her to me.

Delightful Sins by Lola King (Dark Romance, MFM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT

I guess I liked the spicy scenes, but I must say...I hate that people don't believe Jade. Everything just circled around that. I've read darker books than this but I kinda don't like it. I finished it though. There is a good ending, of course, it's just...idk.. too much but also not. Something is missing. I might not read the other books of this series.

Older by Jennifer Hartmann (Romance, MF, SMUT, Age Gap (kinda forbidden?))

This is a reread. I am freaking out. It was just different from my usual age gap romances (like mmc is just 21 or something then mmc is on 30-50 etc), coz this started with them meeting with Halley as a 17-year-old that pretended she is older but she immediately got discovered lol so nothing really happened then. Alarm bells, mayhaps, yet it didn't feel dirty or disgusting? It felt somehow real especially when Halley was getting trained (martial arts) by Reed. She is getting stronger. She came a long way from how "broken" she was from her abusive father. Idk, it really was such a read. I can't explain. Just happy they got together in every way they did.

Twisted Pawn by LJ Shen (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)

All I remember was the time Achilles who tried too hard at the beginning like going to full degradation route coz he knew Tierney likes that with her previous partners but wrong move for him coz communication is the first thing about kinks. Poor man but also he deserve it. Anyway, good ending. I liked it ig.

Blood King by Natalie Kane (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT, Mafia, Age gap)

IN JULIAN, WE TRUST. I fear I need to read the other books for these series since this is technically book 2, but it is a standalone. He is just so protective and so strong. BUT I think he didn't grovel enough after the fuckass thing he did. It took him WEEKS to pull up the tapes?? Like man, are you insane? More grovel!!! LONGER GROVEL!!! Anyway, I even read the bonus chapter so I like it!

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