I’m upset about so much, but I’m in no place to be upset about it. I can only accept what’s given

Fully grieving someone who is just a phone call away

Am I a coward for checking on you every night but still not reaching out?

I want to run and never come back

I can’t but you can

I let anger and fear destroy the things I love. I don’t think we can make it back from this one

You knew you loved me and I knew I loved you, but we waited to say it during our goodbye

We both know how this ends, how long do we continue before we admit it won’t ever be the same

You don’t look at me the same, of course the fear is kicking in

Fucking weirdos

You said it. Sure it was a dream but you said it

I had such a beautiful week, I dreamt of being my most vulnerable self with you

This feels right. I’m able to be gentle and soft without fear holding me back

And just like that I felt like I’ve said too much

I would have done anything for us to try again and try to work things out, anything. Remember that

I wish I could still come home to you, end the night with you.

I fell asleep watching old videos of us, scrolling through the pictures i have left and fell asleep mumbling the words “ i miss you”