OOC | Important
It breaks my heart to tell you that Andre, the mun behind @cajunwithcards, @wingedxworthington, and @loveofspiders passed away on September 22.
I waited so long to say something because, first and foremost, I didn’t want it to be real. Then, after I went to his funeral and it started to hit me that it is real, I couldn’t find the words.
Dre was my best friend. We met because we were both chronically ill, and became close through our shared experiences and, among other things, a mutual love of Marvel and Star Wars, and other geeky things. When I found out he once belonged to a Star Wars RP forum, I convinced him to jump into the world of Tumblr RP, first through a Marvel group, then indie. RP provided him with a creative outlet and an escape from his illnesses. It gave him a way to connect when he was too sick to leave his house, or bored at the doctor or hospital.
I’m letting all of you know this because he cared about his RP partners, IC and OOC. He cared about all the blogs he followed, whether or not he wrote something with them (y’all don’t know how many texts I got at 3am saying ‘OMG did you see Soandso’s thread with Suchandsuch?!’). I believe he would want you to know that, and know that he wouldn’t have just left his blogs and threads without saying goodbye if he had a choice in the matter.
I believe he would also want to thank everyone who interacted with him for the way you improved his life. He hid his pain extremely well. I was privileged to be privy to more of it than most people, and I want to thank the Tumblr RP community from the bottom of my heart for providing him some respite from his struggles.
Andre was a very private person, and he expressed a desire to keep the details of his health private on Tumblr. He wanted this piece of his life to be unaffected by his health, so I feel uncomfortable posting details publicly in this post, but if you were one of his RP partners or mutuals, you’re welcome to message me for more info, here or through skype (holorp).
I’m positive that I will accidentally leave out people, but I’m going to try to tag some of the people I know Andre followed and/or RPed with, and hopefully this will make its way around and be seen by everyone Dre would want to see it.
@psionicisms | @thecorteztwins | @southernxbelle | @fangedfirecracker | @dad-neto | @redroomrecruit | @xthe-fifth-headless-horsemanx | @msmarvel-ous | @butterflythief | @bornathief | @littlemissclarice | @outcfcontrol | @noworldnomad | @dxggersoflight | @analcg | @daughterofrogue | @ghcstpryde | @fledgling-phoenix-ray | @aroguedeviation | @sablierternie |
I KNOW I’m missing people, so please forgive me; I promise I’m not leaving anyone out on purpose.
I’m absolutely devastated. I feel somehow betrayed, or responsible. That I should have known something was wrong, that it was totally unlike him not to respond to his Skype messages for so long. But I just assumed his computer broke down or something and continued to leave the occasional message as I always do when friends are offline. He mentioned he was sick once but I don’t think it ever registered how severe it was.
I feel like I should write something, and I know I’m nowhere near ready to, but between Yom Kippur today and my going out of state in a few days, I’m scared if I don’t speak my piece now it’ll never be heard.
We met via a Marvel RP group. It wasn’t a particularly good RP group, but we had fun together and I remember talking to him for hours about things like magic in the Marvel Universe. When I got disenchanted with comics after the AXIS and Secret Wars events, we switched to talking about Star Wars, and he eventually resparked my interest in the comic community and would ask questions about the Inhumans, and constantly liveblog his own adventures in reading to me. I remember being up at the unholy hours of the morning laughing at his comic liveblogs and he at mine.
He introduced me to the Star Wars TV shows. We watched the animated Dr. Strange movie together. We played SWTOR together. Fandom was how we interacted and it was a wonderful experience.
I don’t know how I’m doing right now. I feel like I have to talk, let people know how important Andre was to me, but at the same time I don’t feel capable of it.
I’m thinking of all the things we never got to do. I kept telling him I’d make him RP icons if he’d only narrow it down to ONE character between Sabine Wren, Warren Worthington III, and Alison Blaire. I don’t even like making icons. I always wanted to have one more SWTOR gaming session together. I wanted to know what he thought of the Darth Revan book if he ever finished reading it, and if he really wanted to go ahead and make that Revan blog he mentioned wanting once. I wanted to watch season three of Rebels with him. I wanted him to see Rogue One, and the conclusion of the IvX event. He was so excited for these things.
Am I being selfish or petty about thinking about this in terms of fandom or just experiences I had or wished I had with him, I don’t know. I feel like a big part of my heart has been ripped out. He was probably one of the closest friends I made on tumblr and I never really knew what he was going through.
I miss him and his infectious excitement. I highly doubt I would have made half the blogs I’m running now if not for him rekindling my interest. It was an incredible adventure being his friend and I hate spewing the incoherent waterworks all over the place so soon after just finding out, but I needed people to know. Andre was a valuable and irreplaceable part of this community to me, and my heart’s with his family and friends through this.









