I kinda don’t know what to do with myself since my plans for the next two years have completely changed. I was planning to be in England + Europe for two years and now I’m not... I don’t really have any big goals. I’m not interested in studying atm and I can try and get a job but that’s going to take awhile. I don’t have a passion pushing me in any direction so it’s hard to really grasp what I want now. I guess save up money until borders re-open and I can go away again

I need someone to tell me I not fundamentally different from everyone else because lately it’s been getting worse and I feel more of a divide between myself and everyone around me - even strangers. I feel like I’m walking in a world I’m not part of. It doesn’t really hurt, it just makes me awkward. I keep thinking I’m not like you during conversations. If you knew this or this you would see me as different. When really I know it doesn’t matter. I’ve been accepted time and time again despite thinking I wouldn’t. Opened my body to strangers thinking they would reject me and it’s been the opposite. I just wanna break through this and be as confident as I was last year.