I actually wanted to post this last night
But I was afraid it would spoil heenim's bday
But seeing how it turned out and how i kept mum about it made me think otherwise. I was out last night i put off my phone. Because I know that when I post about it, my notifs would burst. His decision wasn't stable. Not until today. Not until HE managed to sneak in that MEMBERS WOULD BE LEAVING KOREA. Was it coincidence? For me its not. Because he posted it just when MEMBERS were on the airport already. Did anyone noticed the hugs? Did you guys see their expression? How about heenim? He just had his birthday we should have seen him HAPPILY GREETING MEMBERS. But what happened? What have you noticed? Leeteuk wearing black glasses. Them wearing masks (its natural yes) but HYUKJAE TOTALLY COVERED, DONGHAE, RYEOWOOK AND YESUNG. how could you not notice? They are different. The vibes. Everything. This was not coincidence. And I think his decision was not because members wanted him to leave or the company. It was ONLY HIM. so stop trying to say that the members did this or that. YOU DON'T KNOW THE STORY. If you happened to watch 80% of his "off cam" and "on cam" interviews you would know how much he values the members and their words for him. In all about sj he confessed that he wants sj down after what happened to him but he changed. He did everything to go back up for the members in order for him to not drag them down. And he managed. Actually he did great. Imagine 3 seasons of A song for you and other shows. He even had a MOVIE for crying out loud. But it vanished. Everything he worked hard for gone in just one ACCIDENT. ITS NOT DRUGS. SO DONT YOU DARE DRAG HIM DOWN THERE. HE IS NOT PART OF THAT CHAT. HE IS NOT. AGAIN. I feel sorry for kangin. Because he was dragged down by others. Lucky for those who didn't leave the group eventho they were members of the group chat. I'm at lost for words. I just saw him 5 years ago. Twice. I didn't think it would be the last time. He was super fun. He made everybody laugh and his voice. Shit i will miss it. I remembered not long ago Yesung posted your upcoming drama. And damn. He was attacked. Yes ATTACKED because of those people who doesn't want SJ to be near you. BS to those people. I don't want to sound rude. Shit. I'm sorry appa. Im sorry. Im sorry if you felt alone. Im sorry if you feel that somehow we dont love you as much. But please know that WE DID OUR BEST. WE TRULY DID. I remember when you guys had intimate note. You were paired with sungmin. You hated it not because you hate sungmin but bcoz you're not comfortable with him. Appa you cared about the members we know that. And you always put them first. Those bitches who wanted you out knows that. Ah shit my tears doesnt stop.
I first saw you 5 years ago. SS5Manila. You were there always in front of us. You always wear a smile and laugh very hard. You were so cheerful and so handsome. My ghad. I even shouted your name. I don't know why. But I'm glad I did. The second was Best of Best Manila you were cheering amd saying that it was not awhile ago we were here you said and you also said that it was like super show again. You laughed so hard when donghae was doing his acrobat? Lol. Yeah. Im laughing but at the same time crying. I'm not sure what to feel exactly. I know and I'm certain I'm sad. I know I'm hurt because maybe the fact that SUPER JUNIOR isn't the SAME GROUP anymore. Who are we kidding, they are NOT THE SAME ANYMORE. 😭 Appa. I dont think I will get over the fact that the this is it. This is 💔. I'm sorry 😔. I haven't had enough of you yet. It was only 2 appa. 💔. But on the back of my mind I'm relieved? I feel at ease. That FINALLY you can now be free. Free from every disappointment this fandom gave you (im not speaking this in majority level) but this had been your family. I know. This was your dream after being a baseball player. I'm happy for you appa. Truly happy. But please give me this chance. Give this to me. To share what I feel. To say this to everyone who reads my posts and somehow understand what I feel. Im not alone right now. I know many are at lost for words. I know many fans love you. I know it well. Many hoobaes likes you. Many adores you. Even the sunbaes in the industry. You're a LOST NOBODY COULD REPLACE. But DAMN IT. WE JUST LOST ANOTHER TALENT. ANOTHER BEING WHO LOVES US DEEPLY. the name "KANGIN" WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED AS SUPER JUNIOR. You will always be our Kangbear. Our Appa. Our Hyung. Our Oppa. The Mother's Favorite son. The Father's favorite Son in Law. The BROTHER LIKE FIGURE. could this be a bad dream. Can I wake up from this? Appa. Please know that we love you. We will still support you. We will never replace you in our hearts. Your spot will be there. Shit I don't want to end this. I don't want it. Shireo. 😭
Kangin: "I'm going to protect Leeteuk and Super Junior no matter what"
*A promise that he fulfilled today. Leaving Super Junior to PROTECT Leeteuk and Super Junior is really risking his own life. 💙. I stan the right man. 💙🤘. I'm going to see you again as Kangin with very strong heart, mind and soul that no one can ever dissed again!
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