I held on to hope that we would be given the justice you deserved.. I held on to hope that he would be sentenced to the worst possible consequences human trash like that can be given, but no this countries justice system has failed every single one of us. It failed you and they've done nothing but give that poor excuse of a human every opportunity to be let out back into society for the chance of doing heinous crimes like what was done to you. None of this is fair. None of this makes any sense.. What gives him the right to get slapped on the wrist and continue living with the chance of speaking & holding his family when we're here with this deep emptiness that feels endless. We're left longing for your smile, your hugs, your beautiful words, your amazing soul and every bit of happiness you've brought into every one of our lives. What gives him the right to see the light of day? What gives him the power to graduate from school, explore new things, meet new people, grow older surrounded by the same crappy people who helped him hide? What gives him the ability to hold his family? How is it fair that we have to carry on without you? How is it fair that I won't ever be able to hold you, see you, talk to you or have the luxury of watching you grow into the sweetest most wonderful young man you were already becoming.. I won't be able to watch you graduate high school, I won't get to see you get your first official job, I won't be able to wake up at random times throughout the night to texts or calls from you asking for me to get you home. I won't have the chance to wake up & drive us both to work with you sleeping beside me on our way. I won't get to hear you asking for money again I won't get to be the person who goes out of my way to make sure I get you home safe. I miss you. I miss everything about you. I miss teasing you about wasting my gas driving you around places. I miss hearing you tell me you love me I miss hearing you say how much I meant to you. I miss hearing you say that I mattered. I miss YOU. I miss your soul. I miss your voice, your smile, your jokes, your beautiful mischievous personality. I miss getting in trouble for spoiling you and solving all your problems (well at least attempting to solve them) I miss everything about you. There hasn't been a day where I don't wish to have taken your place. There's so much more you could have accomplished, I know you would have done amazing things because under all that tough "don't care about school" exterior I know was a soft warm kid with a ton of dreams & I would of given anything for you to have been able to achieve everything your heart desired.
