A fucking monster @rotting-cloves - Tumblr Blog

Intro I guess

You found me.. but will you stay..?

I'm a monster who's rotting away on the inside

This is mostly a vent blog

You can call me Rot, Monster, Oliver, or Ash

My pronouns are he/it/thing/rot

I'm broken on the inside

My main blog is @silly-fi5h

Let's pray and hope none of my friends find this fucked up blog

I do use trigger warnings on certain triggering topics, I'm a monster but not evil

You probably won't enjoy your stay here

I will NEVER try to hurt anyone on purpose

Wow I'm amazed you stayed this long, well that's it, I hope you're doing better than me

#vent blog #rotting away #fucked up monster

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Saying how you relate to stuff like that doesn't make me happier it makes me feel like you're trying to compare your issues to mine... so if anything it just makes me feel worse...

#why do people just keep doing it...??#im not asking for you to help but if you're willing to say something at least make it so you're not comparing yourself to me..#vent #cw vent #rot rambles mindlessly

All I ever do is fucking mess up..

I was only joking...

I keep hurting people..

WHY?! why can't I just be normal!?!?

Why can't I just shut the fuck up...

Maby i should just leave this app...

That still won't get me away from my irl friends though..

But it'd be the best for everyone i know on this app if I deleted it..

I deserve to drown in my suffering by myself..

It's not like anyone in my irl life ACTUALLY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT MY FUCKING SUFFERING, AFTER ALL WHY SHOULD THEY CARE!?!?

I'd just be a burden on their shoulder..

It's sad to think she cares more about her son's friend more than her own child...

Who knows.. in the end maby it was all for attention..

#by the time they actually care I'll be bleeding out in my room...#vent #im sorry #im sorry i couldn't be better..#im in so so so much pain...#im sorry..#cw vent #tw sui #i should just kms #they don't care...#if only.. if only i was normal..#im sorry...#...

It's always the same response "oooh you can dm if you need someone to talk to" THE LAST FUCKING PERSON I DID THAT WITH KILLED HERSELF.... and it was all my fault... I should have... I could have done better.. she probably did it cause of me... so no I can't dm you and vent to you... you couldn't handle all the fucking pain I'm in.. no one could... not even myself sometimes...

If I did tell someone each and every thought I would be put into a.. place...

#vent #i should just rot away in the woods #i should just die #i need help #help #im a fucking monster #im sorry i couldn't be better..#im in so so so much pain...#im sorry #i need to just do it already #i need a therapist #tw mental hospital

Tw: pictures of sh

Wow I really really can't control myself can I...

#tw sh #i hate everything #vent #i should just rot away in the woods #im a fucking monster #sh #im sorry i couldn't be better..#im in so so so much pain...#put me out of my misery

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Maby I could starve myself

Maby I could cut so deep to the point I die from blood lost

Maby I could just suffocate

Maby I could cut my throat open

Maby I could eat a ton of pills in my house

Maby I could bash my head against the wall so many times I fucking die...

Why can't I just fucking die?!?!?

...

#tw sui #suicide #i want to die

I'm scared I might cut again tonight..

#i deserve to suffer #my best isn't enough #sh #tw sh #i like it #it feels good..

All my irl friends have no clue what I did to my arms last night... and they will probably never... neither will my mom..

#help #i need help #i need a therapist

Ah how it hurts but feels so good...

Tw: sh, pictures, and blood

#sh #tw sh #pictures of sh #tw blood #blood #it hurts..

And now there is blood everywhere...

#tw sh #sh #i got a new blade..#it's very sharp..

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What's a dream with no future....?

And if I just.. disappeared...

Why can't I just fucking end mine and everyone else's misery by killing myself...

I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONE IM FRIENDS WITH ON HERE KILLS THEMSELVE I WILL FUCKING DIE RIGHT WITH THEM... I can't... I won't deal with the pain of it all over again.. I know I'll blame myself again... god why can't I do ANYTHING right!?!?

It feels like everyone I've ever loved just leaves me... god it hurts so so much..

My brother is making me so uncomfortable...

#im gonna fucking cry #vent #im gonna fucking kms #it feels like everyone is leaving me to suffer by myself..#im drowning in my own tears #im in so so so much pain...

No one would actually care if I ended my life

They don't care how hurt I am

They don't care that I fucking cut myself

They care when I'm sitting alone

Not like they would realize if I was gone anyway

Anyone I've ever dated left me

Or was only using me for their pleasure.. which is absolutely fucking disgusting.. no wonder I'm afraid to date men... it was always a fucking man...

Maby it's just me..

Maby I'm the one that everyone hates...

I'm a weirdo

I'm boring

I'm a freak

I'm faking my whole identity

...

im broken...

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I'm sorry

#tw sh #vent art #vent #im sorry..

EVERY SINGLE DAY IT'S THE FUCKING SAME

My pain never ends..

It may stop...

But then it just comes back

Five times worse than before

WHY CAN'T I JUST END THIS FUCKING NIGHTMARE!?!?

I hate everything, I hate everyone, I hate myself, I really really hate me...

Why can't it just end..

I wanna wake up from this never ending nightmare...

...there's only one fucking way to do that..

What if I did end up doing THAT...?

Would anyone miss me...?

Would anyone care...?

.....

would anyone even remember who I was..?

maby that would be for the best...

...

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I couldn't do better

I'm sorry I ruin everything

I'm sorry you ever talked to me

I'm sorry I make people worry

I'm sorry im not good enough

I'm sorry I'm failing

I'm sorry I never actually helped anyone

I'm sorry I exist...

I'm sorry

....

#im so fucking sorry #im sorry #im sorry..#i should just rot away in the woods #im a fucking monster #im sorry i couldn't be better..#vent #cw vent #....#no one cares do they...#they never ever EVER did...#im in pain..#...

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