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hello! name's Willow. Using my love for psychology and philosophy to muse about the characters from the visual novel "Big Bad Dogs" created by @where-spar0w-barks , and making my own story about my characters based on the main story it self.

🐛 personal note; This is a collection of all the writing pieces I've done so far. They are not part of an official fanfiction yet, but will be re-written into one when we will have more information about the game's story and main characters. please remember I am not in the psychology field but I am studying it in my free time! I am also studying philosophy at school for passion and love for both subjects.🙏🏻❣

⚠️The following writings contains dark themes such as physical/emotional abuse, neglect, mental disoders, mention of self harm and possibly suicide, obsession and unhealthy relationships, stalking - there could be more, they will be pointed in each writing piece!

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Did she have a bit of internalized homophobia when she realised that she was liking Amelia more romantically and tried to convince herself that loving her would be "wrong" because she was raised into thinking that it was a "sin" (i hope she didn't that, poor Nicoletta 💔)

Or was she more accepting to herself knowing that the love she felt for Amelia is true🩷?

And was Nicoletta's family have a bit of a more homophobic beliefs or was her family more of the accepting and openminded type?

Hi Willow 🐛 🩷 i hope my ask doesn't come off as too touchy and if it does please feel free to ignore if it makes you uncomfortable consider this subject 😔, but as always hope to see more of your headcanons, theories, analysis with shift 3 coming soon (omfg I'm so excited for it 😵) and of course more about your OCs, much love and hugs your way as always🫂💕

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hii there, 🌻 anon!! how are you doing today?❣

ohhh you always ask me such juicy questions, THANK YOU SO MUCH😭❤❤❤ that triggers my yapper side sm lmao, and i think its smart to ask this in the gay month!!🥺🙏🏻 NO YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY FINE, you all know how much I love answering difficult questions and especially talking about taboo topics hehe🤭❣ and maybe if we can be more comfortable with each other, we can make the difference and not be afraid to discuss certain topics, that would be TOP for me honestly xD❣

im super duper excited too!!! im soo happy omg cant wait to know better my pookies...😭❤ I will def make more posts, cant wait to see the others doing that too🙈❣ and no worries, the content you described is coming soon trust...👀 okk lemme answers your questions without a particular order (sorry xD):

so Nicoletta has never brought up religion when she was in the first steps of knowing Amelia better, as if she would keep it secret in case Amelia wasnt too fond on the idea of dating a girl who's religious. i feel mostly because christianity always has the bad reputation of being overly confident in denying people be who they are without shame. but im pretty sure Amelia wouldnt care that much until it becomes a everyday thing, which is not because Nicoletta hardly brings up her sexuality, and she also dislike labiling, but its pretty obvious shes bisexual lmao.

interestingly so, she didnt got shamed from her family but from society in different ways. her biological parents were super accepting, as they saw her grow and they do remember her being overly close to girls and giving them small kisses etc...maybe their parents' girlfriend and boyfriend werent so happy to hear her coming out (I imagine her taking Amelia home in Italy, in a summer day of mid July), but its not like they dont want her to be herself. I think its safe to assume they are more scared of how society will see her, because there's a lot of stigma and hate towards the LGBTQ+ community, and of course some people wouldnt see her as equal. the important remains that her parents are more in the liberal side so they accept her for who she truly is.🙏🏻❣

I finished to draw this in one sitting, summer officialy started to me because I finished school yesterday guys I cant believe it😭🤚🏻

and i just wanted to draw them happy too, back when Paris was little things were better for sure🥺❤

I feel like he would be the angel of death, destruction and divine justice. which in in jewish, christian and occult traditions he would be the Archangel Samael. even tho he could also be the Archangel Michael, but hmm lets see🤔

useless angelology fact: he's a controversional figure, due to the fact he's known as "the holy Satan" and literally his name means "the venom of God". there's also some sources that says he might be the snake that seduced Adam and Eve back in the book of Genesis (this is why in the drawing our dear BB has a snake around his neck)🙏🏻 and he's literally the evil wanted by God, by tradition, which makes his figure much more strange and affascinting tbh!🤚🏻❣ so BB in this AU would have these roles and would guide and judge the souls of people through heaven.

BTW I KNOW THE DESIGN CHOICE IS NOT ENTIRELY ACCURATE, but its just a concept and i was playing a bit with the ideas, since making angels universe usually requies accurate and all, i'll do better next time for sure😔🙏🏻 but this is not meant to be biblically accurate, just fun mixed with facts i've learned as a person interested in theology ^^.

this is how I imagine him around his 40s, stressed and all.🤔 it was really fun, especially because I learnt many things with this piece about the app im using xD🤚🏻 and the tattoos are awful but forgive me i gave up😔💔

And who's your all time favorite pokemon?

Mine's bulbasaur🍃 and my all time favorite is meloetta🎵🎼🎶 :3

hello there, dear Anon!!♡

what a cute question omg!!😭🙏🏻 so im actually not much into pokémons anymore like i used to, so Paris is probably going to dislike me🙈 i remember i had many favorites! sadly i never got the chance to just buy a Pokémon game, but i had for a long time Pokémon GO on my tablet and i used to play it more in the summer with my brother.🥺❣ I also used to watch the cartoons a lot back then...aaa the memories😔💔

my favorite starter has always been Fennekin. which is still one of my favorite today, all of the evolutions too.🙏🏻

and as favorite pokémon of all times...i always say Eevee but because i always loved foxes/dogs like pokémon and i always put first of cute a pokémon is instead how strong it is xD🙏🏻like i pretty much love all the fairy ones because they are so pookie🥺❣

the ones you choose are also super cute!! i agree so much on Bulbasaur and Meloetta!! xD i feel like Paris would agree too, but I also feel like she looks more for how that Pokémon is useful and powerful instead of just focusing on the aesthetic🙈❤

hii there, dear anon!!♡

wow that was quick!! i didnt thought people actually care when i post comments under Laly's posts x)

so actually i dont particularly like Leon A LOT like my friend does, and not because of his chatacter himself of course, but because i haven't finished Resident Evil yet so i cant fully judge him. but i remember i have seen the one with Lady Demitrescu which i remember i have liked but again, never been super much interested in that. my friend likes him as look, because she does find him attractive and i get her, he might not sparkle my full interest but honestly i get her xD🙏🏻 its just fun seeing what your friend's hear me out are to be honest lmao.

and the last words did do something in me because i have always be bullied a bit for my interests, which are not only videogames and sometimes visual novels, but are also not so interesting if this makes sense? like of course reading classic books is not the worst, but I also have an interest for theology, philosphy and psychology as y'all know depending how much you have seen of me, and i also have interests into collecting things and other stuff xD🙏🏻

who once warmed the side of his bed and warmed his already broken heart, now is gone. burried, rotting, becoming part of the ground.

the hands of the clock continues to tick, second to second, minute per minute, and hour per hour. then boom, the day ended. and he whishes to end too.

"...if a million loved you, i am one of them, and if one loved, it was me, if no one loved you then know that I am dead." -Franz Kafka, letters to Milena.

the woman he swore to protect is gone, completely gone. the pity of his closest people at work doesn't matter anymore, because they just can't bring her to life. so he can't. he thinks of her, in a widely possessive way, like she was alive.

he dreamt of holding her again, pass the life with her, he laughed in the dark when imagines his loved woman making a joke or simply similing. it never happened, but he saw it happening somewhere.

even his perfect routine got interrupped by a mysterious sickness, it feels like a bit task to just put on the shoes. the house is dirtier, because the mere thought of doing anything for himself was not an option inside whatever sickness is contaminating his brain.

but oh, what wouldnt he do to bring her back in this hell of a life.

"you are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. that, my dear, is love." Franz Kafka, letter to Milena.

the man quiete frankly doesn't want to live anymore, since part of him died, there's just no reasons to keep breathing. everything that he loved doesn't taste sweet like it always did. and it hurts so much to swallow.

a bit of a softer headcanon which is different from my usual dark writings, but lets highlight some positive stuff from this man... i feel like BB would be the type of father that picks up his kids when they are out in the market for example.

or would pick their little hand into his when they are walking the streets or directly letting them climb on his back. because he needs to keep them safe and under his serious watch or he'll feel guilty for whatever happends to his kids.

maybe he'd even offer good play time with his kids early in the morning especially when the MC is sleeping or too tired to do anything. i dont think he'd cook breakfast because he's probably not that good, but would make sure his kids are fed in the morning and during the day really. maybe change his habits during the day to provide for them, since he has already done that for the MC first.🤔

right now im just too kin at the idea of him being really around his kids because he sees a lot of you in them.🥺 things might change when the kids grow, but one thing for sure; in his own reality and morality, whatever it is, he needs to follow and be involved on what the other piece of you does and love them anyway.

(btw I used plural and 'they' to generalize, but I thought about this taking in mind my own fanfiction and observation from the latest asks🙏🏻❣)

hii there, dear anon!!♡

help?? - 😭🙏🏻 yes it is funny and silly but honestly awww you thought i was the author of the game...🥺 nope, im cleary not and you can tell by how our art styles is different and honestly the popularity of the content etc.. xDD🤚🏻 i would love to be a game dev in the near future tho, even if I think I wouldnt be as good as Laly, so we'll see...🙇🏼‍♀️❣

dont be too harsh on yourself, im honestly so on verge sometimes i forget how to do things normally and even normally i do weird things and thoughts process in the daily basic😔💔 but im so gland you managed to tell who is who, im curious to know how my blog tricked you to believe i was the actual dev, but mistakes happen to everyone xD🤚🏻 im also gland you managed to tell the difference because my worst fear is to tell wrong things to the audience without having proof🙏🏻 this is why i care to clarify some things are my opinions!!

you got the description of my blog clear; we muse, think and unpack using logic/experiences and also if possible, reality. I admire to be like Laly one day, so I appreacite everyone engaging on my stuff and seeing how many people are interested in my work🫂❤

hello there!!❣

OMGGG, TYSM!!😭❤❤ this is such a beautiful compliment and i appreciate it deeply!!🙇🏼‍♀️❤ im so so gland my art could give you something, because thats what i strike for in both drawing and writing: give something to the person reading🙏🏻❣ especially because i always felt like im not good enough in art but im trying to improve everytime🥺🤚🏻 also the fact you scrolled through my things...😭❤

I LOVE YOUR ART TOO!!🙏🏻❣ i have seen some and maybe i didnt comment on every single one because im a bit awkard sometimes and cant fully compliment people😭🙏🏻 just know i appreciated your comment soo much and i really love your MC and your art style!! I think its unique<33

i feel like BB's father was in the military too, maybe a rank higher, and would costantly give to his kids an unimaginable pressure to follow his exact steps. because what he did and who he is, is the way to be perfect in life.

a command is an act of love, oppression is vigilated liberty, raising the voice and the hand to the kids or the mom is being caring for the other.

so BB followed the steps by letter, probably became the mini version of him and strarted to love the military life by force and obsess over the woman he will and can control. he will find comfort in the same thing that shattered his life in pieces but why throwing away the cause of the break anyway? his past job became his only true vision and reality, his daily actions will forever be contaminated by the dirt left from the weapons.

and the contamination will be spread like oil in the table inside his house, the wife, the kids, everyone. the same comands spread in his father's house shall be repeated in his own house. his woman will become the absolute fuel in his desperate house and the kid, maybe along his wife, must become the mini version of him.

because a true soldier, in the battle field, is half glory and half his aim. and has to kill, break and ruin everything he encounters in his path. empathy and being overly fragile are the worst weakness a true warrior just can't fall for.

I had to speed run this drawing, but I hope its okk like this🙏🏻 i usually dont draw like this but aaaa I fucked up so many things I hope its still worth the wait😭🤚🏻

I wanted to make this gift bc they are one of the besttttt people i've met here, they helped me smm with many things and im just sooo grateful...i hope u somehow like this daughter and mom together, Nicole (my oc) and Mai (their mc)!!❣❣

good luck with ur exams, im sure u will go just fine as usual🙇🏼‍♀️❤❤❤ and have the best birthday!!!🙏🏻❤

drawing without the writings under the cut:

AAAAHHH!!! Omg its been MONTHS since I fully opened tumblr again 😭🥺 Hii Willow 🐛🥺 hope you still remember me, finals really chew me up for a while and spat me back out fr but hey now at least I'm done hurray!!! 🎉, now it's time for me to cath up with your blogs and literally everything else I've missed in BBD 🥹 (my stress relief and reward honestly💕💕)

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hii there, dear 🌻 anon!!🙏🏻❤ how are you doing?? im soo happy to hear from you again, i hope the finals went well!! its a difficult period for all students but its worth it in the end.🙈❣

OFC I DIDNT FORGET ABOUT YOU, HOW COULD I😭🤚🏻 yesss its gonna be Lane's birthday, which sadly i cant make much for him in his special day, i got too busy and completely forgot tbh...🙇🏼‍♀️ BUT, her daughter will surely make him feel more special🙏🏻❤

sooo Nicole is someone who always gift something to her dear friends. especially her father and Amelia. the day will start normally, she probably woke up first because of school, didnt text him anything, and when she came back home she'd scream: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHERRRR!!" in a song like way while dressed as a horse (xD🤚🏻).

I feel like Lane at this point would either get scared and then laugh like crazy because, how did she came up with this anyway?😟 she would hug him and then tell him about his present: going out for dinner, at mc donalds🙏🏻

I knowww it sounds strange, but remember she's broke most of the times and she tries to work a bit herself to provide for her dad and for her own things. and she's honestly like her dad, she prefer the company more than an actual physical gift (to clarify, she will be absolutely happy with one, but its not like she demands it or anything like that). she's used to live and appreacite little things, which makes their dynamic and behaviours similar😭😭❣❣ SO NOOO she would never be that mean like you said in the scenario!!😭😭 thats somerhing Paris would do to her dad but reallyyy late in the canon fanfiction.😔💔 maybe when she was younger she used to take more in consideration actual material gift, and would give him drawings and handmade bracelets, but as time passes, she changed her mind in some things but surely didnt forget the old times where she didnt need to worry about money.🙏🏻

THEN when they finished to eat & chat, she would bring out from her bag a cake, but like those you buy from normal mini markets because guess what? shes broke. XD🤚🏻 but hey, she got candles and all. a hug from behind while he's still sitting there and a kiss on the top of his head.❤