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what to know: yang jeongin x hairstylist!reader, sfw, mutual pining, jeongin struggling with self image a little, tiny hints that reader is older than jeongin but not explicitly stated, awkward confessions, humor/sarcasm, banter, flirting, kissing, reader thirsting a bit over jeongin's muscles
inspired by jeongin's new hair. he's just so ugh. i'd love to get my fingers in there
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recommended listening: what you waiting for - jeon somi
Someone was going to die.
Whether that ended up being your boss killing you, you strangling Yang Jeongin with your bare hands, or Jeongin simply killing you via cardiac arrest remained to be seen.
All you knew was that no good had ever come from an idol requesting an "emergency appointment" at eleven-thirty at night with absolutely no explanation beyond please don't be mad (on your day off, mind you), and you stood by that.
"Please tell me I'm dreaming," you muttered as you rounded the corner into the private styling room.
"You're dreaming," Jeongin said.
"Don't even play with me right now, Yang Jeongin," you hissed, stalking closer till you were right in front of him, eyes burning into his skull.
"But you told me to...?" he mumbled to himself.
"Now you listen to me?!" you exclaimed, smacking his arm repeatedly (why did it feel like hitting a wall?). "What about me telling you to never touch your hair unless I was present or at least gave you the go-ahead? What about that, huh?! Where were your listening ears then?"
He cringed away from your onslaught but clearly knew he deserved this as he didn't step back to put real distance between you.
"What were you thinking?" You smacked his arm again as he straightened out. "Were you thinking at all?"
"Hey!" Jeongin had the audacity to look offended.
Not offended enough to defend himself, because even he understood that he was standing on very thin ice, but offended enough that his eyebrows pulled together and his mouth dropped open.
"Are you punishing me for something?" you asked then. "Did I say or do something that would make you retaliate like this?"
"What?" he sputtered. "No! No, you didn't do anything."
"Then why?" you stressed. "What could have possibly possessed you?"
His eyes flickered away, debating something for a moment before returning back to your gaze. "Let's call it a midlife crisis."
"You're twenty-five," you deadpanned.
"I'm proactive." He shrugged.
"Yeah, proactive at giving me grey hairs," you scoffed. You sighed, squinting through a wince as you surveyed the damage. "Oh, Jeongin-ssi, just what am I to do with you?"
"Fix me?" he suggested, hands held up in a plead and bottom lip jutting out.
Oh, for heaven's sake.
You hated when he did that.
Not because it was childish. Well... maybe a little because it was childish. But mostly because he knew exactly what his facial expressions were capable of, and he chose to weaponize it.
It was blatantly manipulative. There was a reason people had been calling him a fox for years.
"I can't fix whatever is wrong in your head," you answered dully before sighing. "But let me see what I can do for what's on it."
You stepped away, almost swatting him one more time for good measure but thinking better of it. If it was true that he was having some sort of quarter-life crisis, ridiculous as the notion was, you figured he deserved some mercy and kindness (and it was also starting to make your hand ache).
"Okay," you said, reaching for the styling chair behind him and giving it a light tap. "Hoodie off. Sit."
Jeongin obeyed without argument, which, if nothing else, told you he understood the severity of the situation.
He reached both hands behind his neck and peeled the hoodie over his head in one motion before tossing it onto the empty styling station beside him. Underneath, he wore nothing more than a plain white ribbed tank top, which told you he'd likely rolled straight out of bed, thrown on the nearest pair of sweatpants and jacket, and bolted out the door before anyone could stop him from making his poor decisions your problem.
You blinked.
Since when had his arms gotten so... arm-y?
You saw Jeongin all the time. Well, almost all the time. Schedules changed by the hour, different stylists rotated through depending on the day, and there were stretches where you wouldn't see him for a week or two before suddenly spending every day together again. It shouldn't have been enough time for noticeable changes, and yet somehow, every single reunion came with another unpleasant surprise (the most recent one had been his jawline, and the time before that had been his voice being just a tad bit deeper).
His shoulders had broadened, his upper arms had filled out, even the line where his shoulder met his neck looked more defined than you remembered.
Changbin.
It had to be Changbin's fault.
Or Chan's.
Probably both, actually. Those jerks. Had they no idea what their machinations could lead to?
You turned away before your thoughts could become any more traitorous, suddenly finding your station in desperate need of organization. The combs were already lined up, the clips were already where they belonged, and your spray bottle had not moved since you'd been here a day ago.
Naturally, you adjusted all of them anyway to look busy.
It was called professionalism.
You were a professional.
You had seen shirtless idols before. You had styled people in considerably less clothing than this. A tank top should not have been enough to derail your train of thought.
And yet here you were with an overturned train.
Once you heard the chair creak beneath him and watched him settle through the mirror's reflection, you finally reached for the cape hanging from a hook on the wall. You crossed back over near-blindly, draping it around his shoulders before fastening it securely around his neck, and you couldn't help but silently thank whoever had invented the things.
Bless the cape.
It covered his shoulders. It covered his chest. Most importantly, it covered the evidence of Changbin's gym propaganda.
Now you could focus on the actual disaster sitting atop his head instead of all the other ways Yang Jeongin had decided to change while you weren't looking. That alone was going to require every ounce of your concentration.
"Music?" you asked, reaching for your phone.
It was mostly a formality.
Styling appointments were long. Color corrections, trims, touch-ups, fittings, makeup, all of it took time, and very few people enjoyed sitting in near silence while someone hovered around their head with sharp objects. The members certainly didn't. Some preferred conversation, some preferred doomscrolling until you tapped their hand away because they kept tilting their head at the wrong moment, and some simply liked having something familiar playing in the background.
Jeongin fell into that last category.
"Yeah," he answered. "I added stuff the other day."
You hummed in acknowledgement, your phone connecting to the Bluetooth speaker tucked away beneath the vanity. It paired with a chime, and you navigated to the playlist you'd made for him a while ago.
Every member had one.
It began as a practical solution after the fifteenth argument over who got to hijack the salon speakers, but somewhere along the line the playlists had taken on lives of their own. Songs would appear overnight because someone had been listening to a new artist. Others would disappear after being skipped one too many times. Sometimes you'd add something because it reminded you of them.
It was strangely intimate, now that you thought about it.
Not necessarily in a romantic sense, though it bordered on it sometimes.
You knew Jeongin had been having a bad week if melancholic indie songs started appearing near the top. You knew he was in one of his nostalgic moods whenever old second-generation K-pop found its way into the mix. You didn't know, but you had a feeling, that he was in a particularly good mood whenever love ballads played. At least, he always seemed to be happiest and extra chatty when these were on.
The first notes of a trending sad song drifted softly through the room.
Hm.
Perhaps the crisis was more serious than you thought.
Proceed with caution, your brain screamed.
You picked up your comb, stepped behind him, and finally allowed yourself to really assess the damage.
Your fingers gently combed through the front, lifting sections one by one before letting them fall naturally back into place. Every few seconds you'd separate another piece, studying the (severely split) ends, the weight distribution, the places where he'd decided to keep cutting... and then keep cutting a little more.
Your lips pressed into a thin line.
"What did you use, safety scissors?" you tutted in light horror. Under your breath, you uttered a, "Geez, this kid."
He at least had the decency to look properly chastened, slumping further in the chair till you pinched his ear and forced him back up.
Your attention drifted back to his bangs, gently pressing one section between your fingers before comparing it to the other side. Uneven, of course. And the back was its own catastrophe. That didn't surprise you. Even the best hair stylists in the world would struggle to properly cut the back of their own hair.
Thank goodness for job security.
Out of your periphery, you noticed his stare reflected in the mirror. And you couldn't quite tell for sure, but it seemed to you as if his gaze was not on his hair at all, but on you.
After a moment, he heaved a big sigh, a rather sad one that made you pause.
Having known him for some time now, and being pretty familiar with the emotions of others, you knew this wasn't just him lamenting his own bad decision (though there was probably a bit of that included). This was a sigh from the depths of his very soul.
You found yourself rounding the chair to tilt his chin ever so slightly toward the light, studying his face—his eyes, mostly—rather than his hair, though he would be none-the-wiser.
People had a funny way of telling on themselves through their eyes. You'd spent enough years standing behind salon chairs to learn that the face people presented to the world wasn't always the one they revealed in the mirror.
Jeongin had always been particularly difficult to read.
Not because he hid things well.
Oddly enough, it was the opposite.
Everything seemed to pass over his face for the briefest moment before disappearing again: embarrassment, excitement, irritation, insecurity, amusement. They were all there if you happened to catch them in time, flickering across his features before he—unconsciously or knowingly—tucked them away beneath another joke or an absent shrug.
You'd become pretty good at catching those moments.
This one, however...
There was something sitting just beneath the surface of his expression. Not sadness, exactly. Not even frustration. More... uncertainty. It was not a feeling you often associated with him, if ever. To you, Jeongin was a confident guy. Sometimes to a fault.
Your thumb brushed lightly against his jaw as you turned his face a touch to the left, your gaze flicking between his eyes and the uneven fringe hanging over them.
One of the first things they drilled into you in cosmetology school, somewhere between sanitation protocols and color theory, was that people talked in salon chairs. Some clients wanted to vent about work. Others came armed with neighborhood gossip or relationship drama. There were women who scheduled trims every six weeks just to update you on their grandchildren, businessmen who somehow managed to conduct three meetings while getting a haircut, teenagers whose entire lives unfolded in forty-five minute appointments.
Hairdressers heard everything.
Sometimes whether they wanted to or not.
The trick wasn't getting people to talk.
It was making them feel like they could.
Silence, you'd learned, was just as important as conversation. If you filled every quiet moment with questions, people tended to retreat. If you left enough space, eventually they'd fill it themselves.
Most of the members were exactly like that. They liked to chat once you got them going.
Jeongin...
Jeongin joked.
He teased, you teased him back. Your humor had always connected you, being so similar.
But when it came to himself?
To the things that actually mattered?
Those conversations were rarer. Not because he was closed off. Just because he seemed content letting people assume he was.
You'd learned not to take it personally. Some people processed their thoughts out loud, while others needed to carry them around awhile before deciding whether they were worth sharing.
Jeongin had always struck you as the second kind.
So instead of asking what was wrong, you resumed combing through the uneven strands as though nothing had crossed your mind.
Maybe you were reading too much into it.
Maybe you were projecting onto a twenty-five-year-old who had simply made an impulsive decision with a pair of scissors.
Or maybe, after spending years watching people quietly reinvent themselves one haircut, one color appointment, one comeback at a time, you'd simply gotten decent at recognizing when a haircut wasn't really about the hair.
You reached for the spray bottle sitting beside the mirror, giving the nozzle a few experimental squeezes before misting the front of his hair until the uneven strands began clumping together.
You combed the fringe forward again, studying the silhouette it created before moving to the sides.
"I'm going to have to take quite a bit off," you warned as you sectioned out the front. "There's really no way around it. If I try to preserve the length, it's just going to look... unintentionally messy and asymmetrical."
Jeongin nodded. "I figured."
You picked up your scissors and began carefully evening out the first section.
Snip.
Comb.
Check.
Another snip.
"I do have a couple ideas," you said after a long moment or two of this, mostly thinking out loud as your brain pieced together possibilities. "The length isn't what concerns me. I think I can work with that."
Jeongin watched you through the mirror, one of his feet lightly swinging in a way that brushed your calf every time you moved in front of him.
"I've been wanting to try pushing more of it off your forehead anyway," you continued. "Not every day, just for schedules and shows. We'd have to use more product than you're used to, probably a stronger hold than we've been using, but..." You tipped your head, mentally picturing it. "... I think it could work really well. It would suit you."
"I trust you," he said simply. "Whatever you think is best."
"You say that," you muttered, scowling at the back of his scalp, "and then you immediately go home and butcher what I think is best."
"... I'm sorry, okay?"
The words were quiet enough that you almost wondered if you'd imagined them. You looked up to find Jeongin wasn't smiling anymore. His eyes stayed fixed on his reflection rather than yours. And his jaw was clenched, accentuating things you normally tried to avoid looking at.
"I am," he said again, rubbing absently at his knee beneath the cape. "I'm sorry."
You hesitated, having not expected an apology from him at all. Especially not one delivered as more of a snap than sheepish or amused.
Sure, you ribbed him about this, and you truly were a little annoyed over the whole ordeal. But it was mostly in jest. Though you were loathe to say it considering it was your whole world, it was just hair.
Your head stylist would probably rip a new one into you during group meeting tomorrow (even if it wasn't your fault and Jeongin had blindsided you as well), but your job and livelihood was not truly at risk.
"It's okay, Jeongin-ssi," you said. "I'm mostly joking, you know that."
"I know, I know," he said quietly. "Sorry for getting snippy."
"'Snippy,'" you echoed, snorting. You clicked your scissors twice. "Good one."
"I'm here all week," he said, a light smirk decorating his face.
"Better not be," you warned him. "I have other clients, you know."
"But I'm your favorite, right?" he asked, tilting his head back into your hands to glance at you upside down.
Yes. "After this stunt you just pulled?" you threaded your fingers through his hair and tugged pointedly.
His eyes fluttered shut, and you immediately let go to fix what you just mussed up. Professional!
With a hand on either side of his head, you tilted his face back down, ignoring the sight of him suddenly biting his lip. He would be the death of you—intentionally or not—you swore it.
By the time you'd finished evening everything out, the floor around the chair looked as though a small animal had exploded. Typically, during normal hours, there would be another team member around to sweep and vacuum this up. Maybe you'd get Jeongin to clean it up, it was the least he could do.
You set the scissors down, worked a small amount of styling cream between your palms, and began pushing the front back and away from his forehead. You reached for the stronger gel next, adding just enough to create separation without making it crunchy before locking everything into place with a light mist of hairspray.
Finally, you stepped back to look it over.
"Hm," you hummed, tilting your head back and forth, feeling an odd sense of déjà vu. "This kind of reminds me of Chan-ssi's hair."
Chan had come in a couple weeks past, asking for an edgier look. After a long series of discussions with the glam team and head stylists (as was the proper process), the approved solution had been to go shorter.
"The way it sits off your forehead," you explained, moving around him to adjust one stubborn piece. "Not exactly the cut, just the styling. Do you see it?"
Jeongin nodded, though it was more of an unconscious one as he looked himself over.
You reached forward again, pinching another section into place. "He'd probably have good product recommendations if you wanted to style it yourself. We've basically narrowed his routine down to a science at this point."
"You think it looks good?" He studied himself in the mirror.
"I do." What sort of hairdresser would you be if you didn't like your work?
"... You think I look like Channie-hyung?" he asked then, thoughtful.
"I mean, your hair does, yeah," you said, brows furrowing. "You still look plenty like yourself."
The tiny spark that had appeared in his eyes dimmed just as quickly. It was so subtle that someone who didn't spend half their life staring at faces in mirrors might have missed it.
He tipped his head one way and then the other. His fingers twitched beneath the cape as though he wanted to reach up and touch it but knew better.
"It's still me," he murmured in agreement.
Something about the way he said it made your chest tighten. Like he was resigned to the fact. As though that had been the answer he'd expected all along, but not one he'd wanted.
"What were you hoping for?" you asked, unsure.
Jeongin was quiet for several seconds. When he finally spoke, he didn't look at you. "Do you find me... desirable?"
And how glad you were that you no longer had scissors or anything else in your hand. You feared what might have happened to his precious hair.
Every cell in your body, despite the sudden shock, gave a resounding yes!
"What sort of question..." you breathed, trying to steady the sudden shake in your fingers. "'Desirable?'"
Jeongin still didn't look at you. His eyes stayed steadfastly fixed on his own reflection.
"I don't know," he admitted after a moment, a little frustration creeping into his voice. "I don't know where that came from. Forget the word."
Impossible. "Gladly."
"I just..." He bit his cheek. "When you look at me, do I still seem..."
He trailed off, and you merely waited.
"... young?" he finished.
You leaned one hip against the vanity, crossing your arms loosely as you studied him through the mirror instead of fussing with another stray piece of hair to distract yourself.
"You are young," you pointed out carefully.
"I don't really mean my age." His gaze finally met yours in the reflection. "I mean..." He searched for the words with a small grimace. "When you see me."
He gestured vaguely toward himself.
"Do you still see..." Another pause. "... the kid?"
Jeongin had never been the kid to you, despite your grieved utterances earlier. You'd only joined the team a couple of years back, long after the braces had disappeared and the baby cheeks had started giving way to sharper lines. The version of him you'd met had already been somewhere in that awkward in-between stage where adulthood had arrived before everyone else seemed willing to acknowledge it.
Still, you thought you understood what he meant.
You knew how most of his fandom viewed him.
The maknae.
Baby-bread.
The little brother of the group.
They were affectionate labels more than anything else, but after years of hearing them repeated over and over again, you supposed they had a way of sticking to a person whether they wanted them to or not.
You found yourself nodding slowly.
"I think people have a hard time letting go of the version of someone they met first," you admitted. "Once they decide who you are in their heads, they don't always notice all the little changes happening right in front of them."
Jeongin didn't answer. He just kept looking at himself.
"I just want to be seen as mature," he admitted at last. "I want to be seen as grown, as..." He hesitated long enough that you almost thought he'd abandon the sentence altogether. "... sexy."
He said the word as though it physically pained him, like a curse.
Your jaw felt a little loose, and you feared it might unhinge itself and land somewhere near the pile of freshly-cut hair on the floor.
Perhaps you really were dreaming.
"Believe me," you said after finding your voice again, "there are millions of people out there who see you as sexy, Jeongin-ssi."
The reassurance didn't have the effect you'd expected. If anything, it seemed to disappoint him. His shoulders sagged the slightest bit, and he let out a quiet breath through his nose before finally dragging his gaze away from the mirror to look at you instead.
Not at your reflection.
At you.
"What about you?" he asked.
Your stomach dropped. "... What about me?"
"When you look at me." His voice had gone quiet again, stripped of the joking tone that had carried him through most of the morning. "Do you see me as mature?"
You blinked. Before you could even begin to start sorting through an answer, he spoke again.
"Would you date me?"
Your entire train of thought promptly drove off a cliff again. You watched as it soared through the air, all its cargo spilling out, until it crashed with a boom at the bottom. You had a bad feeling that all that cargo was actually your common sense.
"Those are two totally different questions," you stammered, very aware that if your hands hadn't still been tacky with styling product, they'd probably be sweating.
"With the same answer?" he asked hopefully.
"You've certainly... matured," you said slowly. "And as for that second question... I haven't reviewed my contract in a while, but I'm almost positive there's a section about not fraternizing with the talent."
Way to sidestep the question!
"Forget legalities." He flicked his hand dismissively.
"Um," you hesitated, "I'm a law-abiding citizen...? I don't even jaywalk."
"It's just a hypothetical question," he insisted.
Was it really, though?
"Hypothetically, the economy is terrible and I enjoy remaining employed." A horrible thought suddenly struck you, and your eyes widened. "Are there cameras in here?"
You twisted and turned to look up at the corners of the room where, no, there were no cameras because it was technically a dressing room. You then started patting at the cape over Jeongin's tank top, trying to feel for a mic.
"I promise," he said, trying unsuccessfully to hide how amused he suddenly looked, "I'm not mic'd."
"My trust in your judgement after last night is on the rocks," you replied, still searching. "You'll forgive me if I verify that myself."
Just before you could shove him forward off the chair to start feeling around his waistband for the lump of a mic pack, the cape shifted and Jeongin caught your wrists. The heavy fabric bunched around his forearms as he reached out, his fingers resting lightly around your wrists before lowering your hands back toward your own sides.
"You have my word," he said, his voice calmer than it had been all morning, "this isn't being recorded."
You searched his face for any hint of mischief and found none.
"Then why are you asking me these crazy things?" you whispered, your eyes darting toward the ceiling fearfully one more time anyway. "You're going to make me develop a stress-induced heart condition."
The corners of his mouth twitched. "Is it really that crazy?"
"The questions?" You let out a breathy laugh that sounded much more nervous than amused. "Yes."
He made a face, considering this.
"If what you're looking for is an ego boost," you continued, "I could hand you my phone right now. Open literally any social media app. I promise you won't make it three posts before you find somebody thirsting over you."
Which perhaps revealed too much about how the algorithm curated your content.
"I'm gonna be honest," he said, thankfully not mentioning anything about that. "I'm not really interested in what everyone else thinks."
"... Huh?" you said, despite hearing him and understanding him clear as day.
He looked at you as though the answer were painfully obvious. "Because I'm not trying to date everyone else?"
Which implied he was trying to date you.
Now, you weren't exactly clueless.
What you had with Jeongin, from the very beginning, had been... how should you say this?
Charged?
From the first meeting, you guys had engaged in what you considered 'recreational flirting.' It was fun, it was easygoing, it was low stakes. It had always felt harmless, if a little hollow because it felt a little like an endless road. Because there had been an unspoken understanding that it wasn't actually going anywhere.
Neither of you acknowledged the occasional flutter in your stomach when he'd grin after successfully making you laugh, or the fact that he actively sought you out over the other stylists even when another was available, or how your eyes had developed a habit of seeking him out whenever the group walked into a room.
Those things were... manageable. They stayed neatly tucked away in the little compartment of your brain labeled Absolutely Not Happening (...Unless?).
Not because you had never considered it.
You had considered it plenty.
You had just also considered the very real possibility of losing your job, creating an awkward environment for everyone involved, and having to face the rest of the team after making the world's most questionable career decision. There were certain lines you did not cross when you worked with people, and dating one of your clients was very firmly printed in bold letters somewhere near the top of that list.
So, for everyone's sake, you had simply decided that whatever this was stayed exactly where it was in the do-not-touch box.
It had been working surprisingly well.
And now Yang Jeongin had broken into that compartment with a crowbar.
"The contract?" was all you managed to weakly get out.
"A mere piece of paper?" he replied, leaving off the obvious You think that's enough to stop me? Really?
"I signed a digital copy," you murmured, doing your utmost to wrestle your rapidly unraveling thoughts back into something resembling order.
"So a couple pixels then?" he asked, one eyebrow lifting ever so slightly.
You stared at him for a long moment, and, frankly, the way your heartrate spiked was your own fault. You had done entirely too good of a job. You had absolutely cooked.
The haircut sat exactly how you'd imagined it would. The product caught the light just enough to emphasize the sharper angles of his face, his forehead no longer hidden away behind soft bangs, his eyes somehow looking even larger despite there being less hair around them.
This was your worst nightmare and greatest dream all wrapped into one. A magnum opus, you might call this.
The only thing preserving your professionalism at present was the salon cape wrapped around him. It was difficult to impulsively climb into someone's lap when they looked like a disjointed head.
Thank God for hygiene and cleanliness.
"Why do you insist on putting me in these tough spots?" you sighed.
"I didn't think this one would be that tough." He frowned at you, genuine confusion softening his features.
A tiny, disbelieving laugh escaped before you could stop it. "Once again," you said, pinching the bridge of your nose, "I have to ask... were you thinking at all?"
"I thought about it for a long time, actually," he balked. "It's all I've been thinking about. You're all I've been thinking about."
Oh.
Oh, hell.
Every sensible thought you'd painstakingly attempted to gather over the last several minutes packed up their little briefcases, wished you the best of luck, and walked clean out of your brain.
You didn't even realize you'd moved until you were standing between his knees.
Jeongin blinked up at you, clearly startled by the sudden lack of distance.
"You..." he started carefully.
"Don't."
"Don't what?"
"Don't say anything else."
"Why?"
"Because if you keep talking, my common sense might come back."
He looked adorably confused by that. Unfortunately, you found confused Jeongin almost as endearing as smug Jeongin.
Your hands found the fastening at the back of his neck.
Rrrrip.
The Velcro came undone, the cape slipping from his shoulders and sliding into an unceremonious heap on the floor.
His wide eyes followed it just for a millisecond before lifting back up to yours.
And that's when you kissed him.
It was the culmination of every lingering glance caught in mirrors, every teasing comment that had simultaneously frustrated and titillated you, every almost that had quietly accumulated between styling appointments and late-night schedules until there simply wasn't room for another one.
Jeongin made the softest sound of surprise against your lips before instinct took over. His hands found your waist, and you could feel him start to rise from the chair on pure reflex, nearly taking you with him.
"Mm mm," you refused against his lips, one hand pressing firmly against his shoulder to keep him seated.
He didn't fight back, but he was considerably more upright in the chair than he had been before, craning his neck to be more level with you. You could feel the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth against yours.
Trust him.
Trust Yang Jeongin to adorably dimple-smile into his first kiss with you.
One of your hands came up to cup his jaw, and you could feel him slightly cringe away from the stickiness you'd yet to wipe off, but he didn't get far before deciding he didn't care.
Your other hand drifted almost absentmindedly to his shoulder, a shoulder you'd been thankfully able to ignore till this point.
Your fingertips brushed over the fabric of his tank top, feeling the solid warmth beneath it before they slid higher, catching briefly on the layered necklaces resting against his collarbone. One of the pendants had twisted sideways sometime during the session, and without thinking you straightened it.
He hummed sweetly against your lips to the rhythm of 'Thank you.'
Your hand at his jaw eventually found its way into his freshly styled hair, and the product gave beneath your fingers.
Some detached, horrified little corner of your brain registered the fact that you were ruining your own artwork.
The rest of you couldn't have cared less.
Your fingers threaded through the shorter strands, feeling them catch slightly against your knuckles as you gently combed them back, only to have them spring forward again when you loosened your grip.
Jeongin made another soft sound against your lips, somewhere between a laugh and a sigh, his forehead bumping lightly against yours as he chased after you when you pulled back only an inch for air.
His hands, which had settled carefully at your waist as though still asking permission even after you'd kissed him first, finally grew bolder. They slid around to the small of your back, fingertips pressing gently through the fabric of your shirt before traveling higher, slow enough that you could feel every inch of their path. There was a hesitation to the movement.
He wasn't uncertain.
He was making sure you wanted this just as much as he did.
You answered by kissing him again.
Any remaining restraint he'd been clinging to seemed to dissolve beneath the reassurance. One hand spread comfortably between your shoulder blades while the other wandered only as far as propriety and the awkward angle of the styling chair allowed, his thumb absentmindedly tracing small arcs against your side.
You'd never realized how warm he was.
Or perhaps you'd always known, years spent fussing around his face and neck putting you close enough to notice, but never close enough to linger on it.
Now you felt everything.
The faint scent of whatever body wash he'd used the day before, only partially masked by hairspray and styling cream. The cool brush of his necklaces whenever you leaned closer, the pendants occasionally catching against the back of your hand. The way his shoulders seemed even broader without the cape hiding them, your palm naturally settling there before drifting lazily over the firm line where his shoulder met his neck.
Your thumb swept across the edge of his collarbone.
He inhaled quietly, and your lips curved. "Ticklish?"
He answered by burying his face briefly against the side of your neck, and you felt his laugh more than you heard it. Such a pretty sound.
The laughter quickly died as he found a newfound interest in tracing his lips against your pulse point. The hand behind your shoulder blades slowly pushed and pushed, silently telling you that he needed you closer, until you had no choice but to support yourself on the chair somehow.
While one of your legs bent at the knee and rested on one side of his thighs, the other resolutely stayed grounded on the floor. You were a bit up in the clouds, but not enough to forget this was your place of work. And though you had established and reaffirmed that there were no cameras, that did not stop the slight edge to your nerves that told you to be on the lookout for any colleagues coming in on their day off.
The hand he'd been using to keep you steady on your hip slipped down to squeeze your thigh pointedly, pleased with its placement. It slid higher and higher until he met the crease of your work pants, settling there permanently.
Had his hands always been this big?
He pulled back after making a particularly squelchy sounding kiss under your jaw, lips pink and cheeks pink and ears pink. You glanced over your shoulder at the mirror, finding yourself in similar straits. When you turned back to face him, he was merely staring up at you, breathing heavily.
Your eyes drifted up to the mess you'd made. All this because he'd freaked out over the way people—namely you—viewed him. You had to make sure it didn't happen again.
"So this crisis..." you started, clearing your throat.
"You know what?" he cut in, tugging you closer again. "We don't have to talk about that anymore. I think I got my answers."
"Hey," you resisted his pull, though it took tremendous effort both mentally and physically, "I need to make sure you don't do anything drastic like this again. Last thing I need is you buzzing everything off without warning."
"So long as you keep kissing me, that's not going to be a problem," he assured, smiling cheekily.
And, really, it was only logical (a reminder that all your logical reasoning and common sense skills had vacated the premises).
From a professional standpoint, it was in your best interest to continue kissing him. It was in the best interest of your job, because you would prefer never to experience a damage-control emergency again. It was in the best interest of his career, because you were fairly certain the stylist team would collectively expire if they received another message that began with Jeongin has made a decision without consulting anyone.
Therefore, by all accounts, you were simply doing your duty.
You were a hero, really.
A very irresponsible, contract-breaking hero.
And with that perfectly sound reasoning in mind, your mouth was back on his, all remaining thoughts of professionalism, common sense, and consequences temporarily forgotten somewhere beneath the pile of hair and cape on the floor.
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synopsis: Tartaglia's taken his stunning wife (you) as his plus-one to a gala held by the Fatui. All goes well, until a Snezhnayan diplomat’s flirtation earns a laugh from you and awakens the Eleventh Harbinger’s possessive side. And you being, well... you, can't resist an opportunity to tease your husband. Tartaglia makes it clear in a low whisper that his wife’s teasing will have consequences, and once returned home, you discover just how long a night he had in mind.
wc: ~ 3.7k
forewarning: mdni, contains NSFW content after the cut. · vanilla degrading · rough sex · edging · praise · creampie · p in v · light dom. let me know if I missed anything.
no pronouns for reader are used, but they are referred to as 'wife', 'lady', and 'ma'am', as well as having female genitalia. no use of 'y/n' either.
The gala held by the Fatui was a spectacle. Of wealth, power and everything in between to disguise the greed for more that filled the hearts of the rich.
Crystal chandeliers glittered overhead, hanging from intricately designed high ceilings. They cast a muted white light across the grand ballroom while the strings played something elegant and haunting in the background.
Nobles, diplomats, officials, and high-ranking members of the Fatui mingled all around the grand room, every smile polished and every conversation layered with hidden meanings.
You had attended plenty of formal events like these in your life.
But tonight, it was just a little different. Tonight, you were attending as the wife of the Eleventh Fatui Harbinger. The Tsaritsa's personal war-hound.
Admittedly, that made things a little more interesting. Even if it was just a tad.
"You're staring."
Your husband's voice came from beside you, amused and warm. You blinked, turning your attention away from him for perhaps the third time in the last minute.
"I am not."
That smug grin on Tartaglia's face widened. "You absolutely are."
You gave him a pointed look, though the effect was somewhat ruined by the fact your gaze immediately wandered over him once again.
Well, what were you to do? He looked unfairly handsome tonight, and that definitely wasn't your fault.
His formal Harbinger attire suited him perfectly to a tee. A long and tailored black military uniform fitted neatly beneath a white coat trimmed with thick fur. The coat gave him an almost imposing, aristocratic presence, which was only enhanced further by the red accents woven throughout his clothes. The polished black boots on his feet reflected the low light of the ballroom.
Your husband hardly wore his official uniform, unless he was required to for business. He preferred something lighter on him that allowed him to move with that dangerous agility he was so well known for. Practical, and comfortable.
But in the rare days he did wear this masterpiece of an outfit, you could hardly get enough. So it was only fair you got eyefuls while you still could, right?
Perched atop his usually unruly orange hair was his signature red mask. It wasn't covering any part of his face tonight.
Which was, in your opinion, a very good thing. Because you quite liked looking at him, and especially his face.
"You look handsome," you told him.
His smile softened for a moment as he looked down at you, before curling into a small smirk.
"Just handsome?"
You rolled your eyes good-naturedly. "Don't push your luck."
He laughed, low and pleased. The sound sent a warm little flutter through your chest.
"And here I thought you'd have more to say after staring at me repeatedly."
You lightly swatted the arm yours was hooked through fondly.
Cocky bastard.
He chuckled a little more, enjoying your reaction.
And then his eyes dipped, very slowly. From your face, to your exposed throat, and slid down to the cut of your deep red dress.
And his gaze settled there.
You glanced down at yourself.
The gown you had chosen to wear tonight was a rich, dark crimson. The colour was deep enough to resemble red wine in the low light, but vibrant enough to catch an eye whenever you moved. The smooth fabric clung elegantly to your figure before falling into a smooth, sweeping skirt that brushed the floor from the knee down. The neckline was low and flattering, but tasteful, and the fitted bodice emphasised your waist perfectly.
The colour choice, on your part, was admittedly deliberate.
You knew perfectly well that red was Tartaglia's favourite colour. And especially this shade.
Your eyes had been on him sure, but the only reason your husband knew so often was because he eyes had been on you too for most of the evening.
His hand had found your waist more times than necessary, his fingers had brushed against the small of your back whenever someone approached, and he head leaned down to speak into your ear when there was absolutely no need to do so.
He was being slick about it. But you were his wife, and you had been married to him long enough to recognise the signs.
You glanced at him as his gloved hand casually brushed against the curve of your ass.
"Tartaglia," you murmured.
"Hm?"
"If you keep touching me every time someone looks in our direction, people are going to start talking."
He gave you an innocent look, his sapphire eyes faintly sparkling with mischief. "Would that be so bad?"
"You're impossible."
"And yet you married me."
"Unfortunately," you sighed, but there was fondness in the sound. He chuckled once more, holding you a little closer as you leaned into him.
Your throat was beginning to feel a little dry, you'd been here for an hour or so but was yet to drink anything yet. And then an idea came to you.
You turned towards the tall ginger, and offered him your most charming smile.
"Since you're an absolute darling, would you be kind enough to grab me a drink, my love?"
He stared down at you.
"Buttering me up to do something for you, are you?"
"Yes," you replied shamelessly.
"And leave your side?"
You blinked innocently. "Only for a moment."
His eyes narrowed just slightly. You smiled wider, hoping he would fold and agree.
He knew exactly what that smile was for. And, because he adored you and was apparently incapable denying you anything when you asked sweetly enough, he sighed.
"Fine."
"Thank you, darling."
He leaned down, pressing a lingering kiss to your temple. Then, with one more look at the mingling people around, he left your side.
You watched his broad frame disappear through the crowd for a few seconds before turning back towards the dancers in the center of the ballroom.
He was gone for no more than two minutes.
Perhaps less than that.
Which was why you were mildly amused when a Snezhnayan diplomat appeared beside you.
He was polished, well-dressed, and confident in the way of a man who had never been told no often enough.
“My lady,” he greeted, bowing his head slightly.
You forced a polite smile. “Good evening.”
"I hope you don't mind me saying so, but you look particularly stunning tonight."
"How kind of you." You knew your husband wouldn't be too happy to hear this.
"Any man lucky enough to have you is a fortunate man."
"He is."
You briefly wondered if the man even knew you were spoken for. Though the fairly large diamond ring that sat on your finger was hard to miss and said what needed not be said anyway.
The diplomat might have not noticed. Or perhaps he was ignorant.
His lips curved into an easy smile, and his eyes lingered on you. It wasn't quite long enough to be blatantly rude, but long enough to let you know he was in fact checking you out.
"I wonder," he began, "if my lady is aware of how many people in this room are admiring your poise."
"Oh? Is that so?"
From the edge of the ballroom, Tartaglia returned from his short venture to the table of drinks with two flutes in his hand.
And now he stood, stuck in place a little over two meters away from where he had left his beloved wife.
His beloved wife.
You could feel the weight of his stare before you had even turned to look at him. His blue gaze was trained on the diplomat conversing with you by your side.
His jaw clenched at the sight, and the hand holding the two champagne flutes tightened around the delicate glass so it made a soft clink sound.
The diplomat continued on to speak, but instead of excusing yourself and moving to your husband's side, you listened.
And that was risky, because you knew Tartaglia knew that you knew he was standing right there. And furthermore, just to tease your watching spouse just a little, and because you were a terrible wife in the very best way, you let your eyes brighten just a little. Like you were paying attention to every word the diplomat had to say.
And when he said something that was perhaps meant to be a mild joke, you let out a soft, amused laugh.
The effect on the man was immediate.
His face lit up at the fact he had pulled a laugh out of you, and he looked positively delighted.
But from where Tartaglia stood, his grip tightened further around the glasses. You glanced back just in time to see the muscle in his jaw twitch.
Oh.
He was ticked. And you'd be lying if you didn't find it attractive on him.
You hid your smile behind your own gloved hand, and the diplomat, blissfully unaware of the impending danger, continued to speak foolishly.
"Perhaps, I might persuade you to join me for a dance later."
But before you could open your mouth to answer, a familiar voice spoke up from behind you.
"Viktor."
You didn't know when Tartaglia had made his way to stand behind you, but he was there as you turned your head to look. The tall ginger stood there with a smile on his face, taking a small step closer to wrap his free arm around your waist and gripping it just a little tighter.
It was everything; bright, beautiful and perfectly charming. But it was also entirely, completely, utterly not genuine.
"Enjoying your chat with my wife?"
The diplomat, Viktor, froze. He slowly looked up. And up. The Eleventh Harbinger was tall enough to be imposing even when he was relaxed. And he was considerably more imposing when he had just watched another man flirt with his wife.
The diplomat surely knew who he was. Everyone did.
Tartaglia was a man whose bloodlust for battle was known far beyond Snezhnaya. A man feared on battlefields, spoken about in lowered voices by those who had seen him fight. And those he fought never lived to tell their tale.
And currently, he was standing directly beside his wife. With a dangerous smile playing on his lips.
The diplomat swallowed thickly. He realised he may have overstepped.
"Lord Tartaglia, I-"
"Childe," your husband corrected pleasantly.
The diplomat blinked, and when Tartaglia's smile darkened a tad, the man scrambled to apologise.
"Apologies, right of course."
There was a long pause, and Viktor decided that for his safety it was perhaps ideal for him to take his leave now. He gave you a stiff little bow.
"It was a pleasure to meet you, ma'am. Lord Childe."
"Likewise."
And then he had retreated, quite quickly. Almost like a mouse scurrying away from a predator. That was probably wise of him. You watched him leave for a small second before turning back to your husband.
The smile on his face had dropped slightly as he made sure Viktor was far enough, and his grip on you had tightened a smidge.
You looked up at him with the most innocent expression you could manage. "Hello, darling."
His cerulean eyes dropped down to you. "Hello, sweetheart."
You tilted your head slightly.
"Did you get my drink? I'm quite parched." He held it out to you, and you gladly accepted it. "Thank you, love."
"You're welcome."
You took a sip of the bubbly drink as you observed your silent husband. And finally, unable to resist, you opened your mouth to ask him. "Are you all right?"
"Perfect."
"Are you sure?"
"Completely."
You took another sip, and then smiled. Your husband was jealous.
He stared down at you for another moment before he leaned in closer. The hand on your waist pulled you in too, and his fingers pressed into the fabric of your dress just firmly enough to let you know that his mood had not improved.
His lips brushed the shell of your ear. His voice dropped into a rough whisper that was meant for you alone.
"Keep laughing with other men like that, sweetheart, and I'll remind you exactly who you belong to the moment we get home."
Your breath caught.
And despite the obvious possessiveness and the quiet warning, the promise beneath it bloomed a small fire at the bottom of your stomach.
He pulled back slightly and you could see that his expression was perfectly composed for the benefit of everyone watching, like he hadn't said anything in my ear at all.
But his eyes held the truth.
You knew those eyes.
And you knew that the moment the gala ended, the moment you were finally alone, he would make good on what he said.
You smiled up at him sweetly.
"Is that a threat?"
His gloved hand rubbed a circle over the fabric at your waist. "No, my love." He leaned in once more, his mouth close enough to your ear to brush it once again. "It's a promise."
And with that, he straightened, and lifted his own champagne flute to his lips, resuming back to looking every bit like the Harbinger he was. Like he hadn't whispered something filthy enough to make your pulse jump in excitement.
And all because he had gotten jealous.
You took another sip of your champagne, and smiled to yourself.
It was going to be a very long night.
"Sorry, m'love, what was that?"
Your insatiable husband was bullying you. Both with his thick and long shaft that continuously rammed through your overly sensitive cunt without falter, and his mouth as he pulled apologies out of you left and right.
"'m sorry, I swear," the whine spilled from your lips pathetically, a hint of irritation at the continuous need to apologise slipping through.
He leaned down and pressed a kiss to your bare collarbone in acknowledgement. All while thrusting into you with long, steady strokes.
The second the two of you had returned from the gala, Tartaglia wasted no time in throwing you over his shoulder and carrying you upstairs to the bedroom.
You didn't complain, you never did. Matter of fact you enjoyed being manhandled like that, and your husband knew it too.
By now you had orgasmed more times than you could count, and despite being two rounds down and halfway through round three, Tartaglia showed no signs of tiring.
"You made me leave s'you could flirt with another man, was that it?"
You tried to let out a huff in response, but it turned into a gasp of pleasure instead as the tip of his dick kissed your cervix just right.
"Ah, fuck, Ajax..." your nails dug into his back and your toes curled on the wrinkled sheets with every rough thrust.
He let out a low groan in response, his grip on your hips tightening.
"That's not an answer, woman," he leaned down to nip at the junction of your neck. By now, you were surely littered in marks from his grip and love bites, Tartaglia was extremely proud of his work as he looked down at you.
You were too fucked out and overstimulated to think of a coherent response.
"No, no, no..." you rambled, "That's not what I was doing."
He chuckled. "Damn right, you're only my woman."
Heat pooled further between your legs at his words, something about the possession in his tone arousing you even more. He noticed that too.
"Ya like that don't ya? Being mine," he had a smug grin on his lips, watching you nod frantically in your sex-dazed state. "Fuck baby, you're squeezing me so tight..."
"Ajax," you moaned his name again. He hissed, ramming into you a little harder and faster now.
"L-love! Slow down... t'fast..." you whimpered, letting go of his neck to grip the sheets instead.
"You can take it, love, I know ya can," he replied, not letting up with his pace. He leaned down and captured your left breast into his mouth, swirling his tongue around the pebbled peak, making you mewl out in pleasure.
One of his hands left your hip and went between where the both of you were joined together, using your oozing slick and the sticky fluids from previous rounds to work on your sensitive nub.
Your mind was blank with pleasure, you could hardly think. It felt too good. It was almost too much.
"Ajax, I'm gonna cum..." You could feel your climax slowly nearing, getting so close and unbearable until-
You whined in utter frustration as your husband came to a complete standstill. You were still full of him, your pussy clenching around his cock as if begging for him to move, but he didn't and kept you there. His hands, his tongue, everything came to a stop.
And he did it all with a shit-eating grin on his face.
You opened your eyes to glare up at him, your eyes still glazed over from the pleasure.
"Why'd you stop, asshole?"
You tried to move your hips, to get any sort of movement, but he was quick to grip your waist with both hands again to prevent you from shifting, his grip equal to weight of iron.
"Tch, so impatient baby," he teased. "You can't cum yet, not unless I say you can."
You grumbled in annoyance, and he let out a chuckle.
"I can feel you squeezing around me, your pretty pussy trying to coax my cock into making her purr again. You want me that bad, huh?"
"Stop teasing me, AJ, your being s'mean..."
"Oh? I'm being mean, am I?" he leaned down closer to your face. "Who was the one that was happy to listen to another man flirting with you while you knew I was standing two steps away?"
He clicked his tongue in faux annoyance. "But I'm the mean one, is it? Oh well, you like it too, don't you, love? You like me being mean. You like me being rough. You like me jealous so I can fuck you like this, don't you?"
His playfulness was making you wetter, and his words didn't do anything to help.
"You're mine, baby. All fucking mine, you know that? This pussy, this body, you. All of you, all mine."
He closed the gap between your mouths and pushed you deeper into the mattress as he kissed your lips. It was rough and passionate, full of desire but also love. His tongue danced with yours, and he lightly nipped your lip before pulling back.
"Say you're mine, lyubimaya."
"Yours, lyubimy."
"Fuck."
And then he was pulling out of you all the way, your puffy lower lips clenching at nothing in the air. You nearly whined at the loss of him, but before you could complain, he slammed into your gummy walls, bottoming out in one go, knocking the air from out of your lungs.
A sweet moan spilled from your lips.
He gradually increased the speed of his thrusts, setting it to the same pace he had beforehand.
"Say it again, love, say your all mine."
"'m yours, Ajax, 'm all yours!"
He kissed your lips again, his finger returning to rub your sensitive clit. When he pulled back from your lips, a thin line of saliva stretched between your mouths.
"S'good f'me, baby... taking me so well, like you were made f'me... mm, perfect girl, and all mine..."
He pumped in and out of you for a few more moments before you felt that familiar fire return in your gut.
"Honey, I'm close, I'm so close..."
"Cum f'me love, cum on my cock, let me feel you." He thrusts picked up a little more pace. "Cum. Now."
His command didn't have time to settle because as soon as the words left his mouth, white hot pleasure burst through you and your fingers dug into his arms as you moaned out his name. Your body convulsed around him as he continued to thrust, riding out your climax.
He followed behind soon, his hips stuttering once, then twice before he creamed into your pillowy cunt, thick white spurts shooting out as he softly groaned.
He stayed inside for a long second, basking in the moment. He looked down at the pretty sight before him.
You looked positively debauched, claimed, marked. And you were all his.
He committed every bit of this moment to memory. Then he carefully pulled out, watching his seed spill out of you without his cock to plug it in, mixing in with your own sweet slick.
Tartaglia leaned down and gently pressed a soft kiss to your lips. You closed your eyes and melted into it, your body feeling like jelly.
He lay beside you, pulling you into his warm chest as he nuzzled into your neck and kissed the smooth skin.
"You're all mine, you know that?"
You turned around in his arms to look at him with a soft, satiated smile on your lips. You lightly kissed his nose. The curve on your lips widened as you couldn't resist teasing him just a little.
"And all this because you got a little jealous, hm?"
"He tried to sway you from me."
"He was talking."
"He was flirting."
You let out a soft sigh, lightly shaking your head. "You're impossible."
"Still married to me, though. So you love it, don't deny it." He replied easily, a smug smile on his lips.
You smile despite yourself. "Unfortunately."
His expression softened too, and he leaned down to press a gentle kiss to your temple. The gesture was tender and sweet like sugar.
But his next words weren't quite all that warm.
"Keep calling it unfortunate," he murmured, his mouth lingering against your skin.
You looked up at him. "Or what?"
His blue eyes gleamed with a renewed hunger as he looked over your bare body. You were exhausted, but that didn't stop the goosebumps rise in anticipation from his heated gaze. Your stomach fluttered.
"I hope you aren't planning to sleep just yet, sweetheart," he grinned as he moved up to hover over your body again, his eyes tracing over your figure beneath him.
"We've still got a long night ahead."
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🌸 — felix who both teaches both you and your daughter "accidents happen" when she spills her sippy cup on his new rug.
🍼 — paring・dad!felix x mom!reader // genres・ hurt&comfort, angst, fluff // words・1.4k // warnings・abuse is a very heavy subtext in the readers reaction specifically fear of fathers, a pretty heavy panic attack, talks about trauma, pain, wounds and everything that goes along with that. felix is the most sickeningly sweet man alive in this.
a/n・ i recently got a notification that somebody reblogged this original story that i posted on my old blog last year around this time and i physically cringed because it was...so..bad...i'm in pain. i used so many words wrong like i used the word obscene in a sentence?? it was meant to be a happy sentence?? what was i thinking?? anyways haha i like this version a lot more and i hope you do too!! (am i off of hiatus? maybe? will probably drop off the plant for a little bit longer??) is this any better idk i'm anxious and sleep deprived so probably not
There was little validity to the statement—don’t cry over spilled milk—when your one-year-old just dumped her entire sippy cup on your husband's new six-hundred-dollar rug. There weren't enough adjectives in the English language to describe the horror that washed over you as the milk turned into a bright white stain atop the black furnishing.
It was completely irrational, you were fully aware of that, but the anxiety that coiled underneath your ribs and encased your lungs still persisted. You took a deep breath, desperately shoving away the memories that flickered underneath your clenched eyelids like a dying candle's rebirth.
Your father, ever the perfectionist, never would have let something like this slide. Felix wasn’t like that. Felix was a good father, a gentle father. Lee Felix would never even utter the word—spanking—around your kid let alone act on such a thing; but as your trembling fingers pick up the sippy cup, cold, hard doubt pierces you.
The world swirls around you as you stumble towards the kitchen, cup clattering into a dirty sink. You worked through this. Damn it, you did! All of that was over. This was different. Felix was different. A broken cycle, a generational curse drowned in love and care.
Then, why couldn’t you take a fucking b r e a t h?
Your clammy palms gripped the sink until your knuckles turned white. Until Ha-Yun stopped babbling in the corner and throwing cheerios onto the ground. Until you heard the deafening sound of your keypad—click, click, clicking.
The door opened, and there’s this moment where the world is entirely watercolor. His gaze catches yours, and as he slowly sets his coat onto the arm of the couch, all you can see is your father. “Y/N?”
How could you have been so stupid? How could you have let him see what happened? It was still there because stains don’t magically go away, and spilled milk was something worth crying over. This was all your fault.
You don’t dare look at him as you drop to your knees beside Ha-Yun, scrubbing at the white. It wasn’t coming off. It wasn’t coming off. You scrub harder, scrub until your knuckles burn and the tears drip down your neck. It still wasn’t coming off.
“I’m sorry,” your voice cracks. “I’ll get it up. I’ll clean it right now, please just go take a shower. I’ll deal with Ha-Yun after. Please, j-just i-it’s fine, e-everything's f-fine—” You were not fine. It showed in the way your spine arched and trembled as Felix grew near. It showed when he curled his pointer finger around your chin, and gently eased your eyes up. It showed in the way, for a split second, you looked like you were five all over again, naive and terrified.
Felix gasps, the sound soft and broken, and then, without a second thought, he drops to the floor and pulls you onto his lap, curling his arms protectively around your quivering figure. He didn’t say anything, he didn’t need to, his body said it all.
He pressed his lips atop the crown of your head over and over, and you could finally breathe again, filling your lungs with the scent of his cologne and his sweet, sweet love for you. His love—the kind you had only dreamed of before him and knew you could never find again. Lee Felix was everything to you.
He rocked you back and forth, brushing your hair out of your face to flash you a calming, comforting smile. “Wanna tell me what happened?” You must look like a wreck—face blotchy and red, snot dripping down your nose, tears straining your cheeks—and yet, he’s still looking at you like you’re the most beautiful woman he’s ever laid eyes on.
Your face heats up and you bury your nose into his shirt, giving a small shake of the head. You were still dizzy from your panic attack and the thought of opening up was enough to make your stomach turn all over again. “No…I’m sorry”
Felix wasn’t oblivious to your past, if anything he helped you through many hard days, but you had never been this vulnerable with him quite yet. You thought you’d already gotten over it, but clearly, some wounds never heal. You would beat yourself up over it a lot. There were nights where you stayed with Felix at the kitchen table until sunrise, working through your issues. You hated yourself for how quickly you could unravel or how, even unto death, your father haunted your life.
You were convinced that your past was something you should hide, and frankly, he thought that was bullshit. Felix would kiss every pain and doubt until all that you remembered about your scars was his love and the feeling of his lips.
He’s still working on that father wound, though. He had a feeling he’d be working on that one for a while.
Ha-Yun had other plans when she nailed Felix in the forehead with one of her cheerios, reminding them both that they had a life to live outside this little bubble. He would hold you until the sun set, but he had a baby and a mess on the carpet that would be ten times harder to clean if he left it sitting.
“I’ll go get a towel,” You say, putting up those walls again as you brave face, sending Ha-Yun a dazzling smile that makes her laugh and smack her highchair in joy. Felix is having none of it.
He ignores your protests when he scoops you up, cupping the backs of your knees and laying you onto the couch with a soft “oof.” You pout, crossing your arms like a petulant toddler. “Let me help you.”
Felix kisses you once more, effectively shutting you up before pulling away with a mischievous grin. “You’re going to sit there and look pretty, okay?”
He doesn’t wait for your stubborn refusals, he’s already heading to the kitchen, ripping off some paper towels and tossing them onto the mess before pulling Ha-Yun from her highchair.
You jolt up, heart quicking instinctively.
“I’m going to help her clean it up” Felix quickly reassures, voice kind and patient. “I’m going to teach her how to pick up a mess, that’s all. No pain and no punishment, I swear.”
You slump back into the couch, a sigh of relief dispelling from your lungs, though you were still alert, eyes locked onto his every movement. Ha-Yun beams, all gummy and innocent joy as she spits incoherent nonsense that Felix pretends to understand very intently.
“Is that right?” He gasps, setting her next to the spill. “You really, really wanna help me clean up your mess?” Ha-Yun’s face drops. She blinks, once, twice, before her entire face contorts into an absolutely devastating side eye. Felix’s jaw drops, and it takes him a solid twelve seconds to recover before he’s looking over at you and bursting out laughing.
“You’ve got a lot of sass for a baby…probably got it from your mama,” His lip quirks up, glancing at you from the side to capture your reaction.
You stop mid-laugh, offended,” Y’know what—”
“—looking pretty.” He sings, interrupting you with a playful grin. You have to fight not to glare at him. Felix snickers before sobering up and placing his hands atop her tiny ones, gently guiding her to the layer of paper towels. “You made a mess, and that’s okay, but you’re going to have to clean it up now, okay.” The girl looks down at the mess, blinks, and you can see the gears turning in her head when she starts carefully moving her hands back and forth on the rug.
“That’s it,” His voice is as warm as honey and as soft as silk, his eyes glow with pride and a fatherly smile spreads over his lips. “Accidents happen, Ha-Yun, you never grow out of them. You just gotta learn to clean them up.”
As you watch the scene unfold before you, you feel it from your head to your toes, the emotion that threatens to spill out of you. It was bliss, or perhaps something greater—something that tasted like contentment and the felt like his kisses sealing all your wounds shut. You weren’t healed yet, not even close, but as Felix said, accidents happen—you never grow out of them.
And if he got to choose, he would hold your hand through every single one.
A little update, I finally get into Caleb's story! Daaang, finally understand all the Caleb's craze in the fandom. I can't get enough of his characters and I agree that his story is the most interesting one (for me, at least)
Ngl at first I thought people were being weird for hyping him due to all the pseudo-incest allegations, but after going through his story NO MY BOY DID NO WRONG!!!
omggg yaaaayyy i’m glad you enjoyed caleb’s main story😻😻 his lore is so interesting, and i live for the drama! and i usually don’t talk about his og trope, but believe me, i do get iffy about the pseudocest stuff with him too. i’d rather he just stuck with calling mc pipsqueak instead of baby sister💀 but i still keep clinging onto him like a leech cuz he is still my type i fear🫠 yummy possessive and obsessive colonel🥵🥵🥵
i also just had to accept that it’s his og trope, and i can’t do much about it😔💀 i don’t have to play every card of his and that’s okay😭😭😭