can I ask a James x f!reader; angry/jealous smut ??? you decide the plot + maybe black album or and justice for all era . thank youu
hi dear thank u for the request, hope u enjoy xx
warnings: angst, toxicity, jealousy, swearing, smut, unprotected sex, fingering
Description: 1991, you are a new 90s pop artist and you’ve been dating James for years now. You got nominated for the first time at the Grammy’s awards, but the plans don’t go as planned…
“…And this is the plan for the Grammy’s night: dancers, choreographers, red carpet, show outfits, hairstyle and after party dress… what do you think?” I look at the papers that my manager was showing me for the most important night of my life as a new emergent pop artist. “That’s amazing Nick!” he smiles proudly “Can i see the outfits?” his smile fades a little bit raising his eyebrows “Yeah sure, here they are” he passes some other papers. The first one shows the red carpet dress: a long silver dress, opened on the side exposing the right leg, the back is all exposed and the neckline, well… I swallow hard seeing the other two outfits. The after party dress is short, really short, black lace, should be wear with a matched underwear set. The next paper shows the choreography show one… low waist shorts, white top. “They are…”
“Amazing?” Nick completes what I was saying “Different actually” I correct “What do you mean Y/N?”
“They are totally different outfits… They are not what you told me weeks ago…” he smiles “But they are amazing! you will be amazing!”
“Nick, I’ll be completely naked! I don’t want this, we didn’t talk about this!” he sighed “Y/N… this is what the media and people wants to see”
“But- but how am I supposed to dance in those things? how the dancers are gonna lift me up? what if the shorts slip and all the music industry sees my… you know. It’s not what I had in mind and James, what am I supposed to tell him?”
“This is your career not his! you always care about what he is gonna think cause of his anger and jealousy issues! You are gonna wear what we decide and if we want you to be half naked at the Grammy’s that’s it! no more boyfriend’s drama! Now go, tomorrow you have the practice with the dancers”.
I cried after the meeting, that’s felt completely wrong, didn’t want what they decided and those weren’t the planes that we planned together when I got nominated for the Grammy’s. James hated the way they treated me since the first day he met them. He used to be really protective since I was new to the music industry, we had hundreds of fights about this, sometimes he also used to stay away from home for days, and today it will be probably one of those. Maybe.
The front door opens, James just got back home from the studio where him and his band are recording their new album that’s gonna come out this august. I hear him sighing heavily throwing the keys on the counter at the entrance and then his steps got closer. I stood up from the couch where I was sitting going towards him “Hey James” I say with a soft smile “Hey doll, come here” he stepped closer hugging me, lifting my body up like i weighed nothing, his hands strong on my waits slipping down to squeeze my ass while his lips found my sensitive neck skin “Mh James”
“What?” he asks looking at me “You smell of alcohol… weren’t you practicing?” he sighs “I had a few drinks with Jason before coming home” He puts me back down going towards the bathroom “And you drive?” in the last months his alcohol addiction got worse “Cause of the new album stress” staying at his words “Yes I did, now what you wanna act like my mom or something? I don’t wanna talk about this Y/N It’s been hours since I saw you, tell me about the meeting with those fuckers” I froze at his cold tone, he was clearly drunk, I knew how it would be ended if I told him the truth and what Nick said to me and how… “Great actually, everything is ready!” he comes back smiling at me “What are you gonna wear? the dress that you showed me the last day?” he refers at the long elegant red dress that I thought I was gonna wear “Y-yeah sure that one!” he kisses my forehead smiling “Good baby, I gotta go to sleep tomorrow I have practice, you can come with me” I was gonna say yes but then I remembered that I had the choreography practice too, with the new dancers but of course he didn’t know that yet “Oh I have some practice too tomorrow…”
“Uhm vocals” he nods “At least come to bed with me it’s late” He grabs my hand leading me to our bedroom.
Grammy’s day finally came, the practices in these days went good, I met the new dancers and learnt the choreography which is kinda different from what I imagined it, same as the dancers, months ago I requested all female dancers specifically for the song that I’m gonna perform with tonight, but Nick thought about choosing just men.
“Stand up straight honey, don’t want to see that dress ruined before the red carpet” Nick’s voice brings me back to reality “Hey Charlotte, is James coming?” I ask my assistant “We called the studio and they said that he left ten minutes ago” I swallow hard looking at myself in the mirror thinking about how he is gonna react and how exposed I’m gonna be in front of the paparazzi “Can we pull this part a little bit up?” I say trying to pull up the neckline “No! Y/N that’s perfect! the idea of the dress is that!” Nick says removing my hands from the silver fabric “It’s too low Nick! My boobs are almost out!”
“That’s the fucking idea Y/N! you do your job and I do mine!” he shouts. “What’s going on here?” I hear James’ voice coming from outside the room “James come in” I answer. The man enters the room full of makeup artists, hairstylists and personal assistants, he looks at me, my body, my hair, my dress, how it fell on my shapes exposing my leg and my back, the silver fabric was so thin that my panties were pretty visible, my breasts pushing the small part that had to cover them “New dress I see” he coldly says “Guys can you leave us?”
“Absolutely not we have-“
“You heard her fucker get out!” James cuts Nick annoying voice immediately, and with an head nod everyone leave the room leaving me with my boyfriend “They changed the dress”
“I can see your fucking nipples Y/N” I nod “This ain’t a red carpet dress this is a… I don’t even know how to call it. It doesn’t reflect your music, your style, doesn’t reflect you!” I sigh “James please, I didn’t decide, I couldn’t, you know how it works”
“No I don’t fucking know Y/N! at least it doesn’t work like this for metal! and this is also your first award nomination why the fuck did they give you something that you are not comfortable with?!”
“No you are not! I can see that, you keep pulling this shit up! don’t fucking lie to me!” he raises his voice and probably all the people outside were listening “Ssh James please, don’t do this scene!”
“I do whatever the fuck I want in my house! I know what they want from you Y/N, and you won’t listen to me! I’m trying to protect you and you keep following what they tell you to do!”
“It’s my fucking job James! I know what I’m doing, I won’t stay here hearing your loud annoying voice, talking to me like this in the most important day of my career!”
“They are using you! why don’t you understand this?! You act like a little girl, keep smiling to those idiots like you don’t know what they actually care about!”
“Shut up James! Shut up! and get dressed you gotta come with me. Or you forgot this too like you forgot my birthday or our anniversary cause of your stupid addictions?!” He didn’t answer he walked out of the room passing through my team and slamming the door so hard that the floor trembled for a second.
The car drive was silence, James didn’t say a word he kept his eyes locked outside the window and I did the same. As soon as the car’s door opened all the paparazzi were on me screaming my name, pushing me too “Hey move back dick! don’t fucking touch her!” James pushed a photographer back to his place making his camera fall “James… please, don’t make any other scenes for today”
“I’m trying to fucking help you Y/N! why the fuck you don’t get it!” he says keeping one hand on my waist roughly; I look around seeing that we were arguing basically in front of all the people there already knowing what tomorrow’s news is gonna be about “James Hetfield and Y/N Y/S/N, arguing in public again, this time on the Grammy’s red carpet”
“Forget it” I say walking forward.
“James! one picture with her!” a photographer screams. I was already posing and James of course had to act like a kid keeping his distance and waiting for me to finish. With an hand gesture, like you call an hurt dog, I let him notice to get close to me “Come here” he visibly sighs grabbing my body, an hand on my hip, gently rubbing it, he barely smiled. “One kiss come on!” another one screams followed by his colleagues. James rolls his eyes kissing me for two seconds, the coldest kiss I ever received from him. He was ruining my night, and my face didn’t went unnoticed. “Don’t do that face Y/N, I don’t wanna see it tomorrow on some magazines. Come on” he says detached grabbing my hand and pulling me towards the entrance.
The night begins, some artists already performed and now was my turn for my exhibition. James didn’t know anything about this, but at that point of the night I didn’t care, I had to give my best and show him that all the people around me may be stupid but they work for me cause I’m the best fucking opportunity that ever happen to them, also knowing that he is gonna screw up watching the choreography with the other dancers. “Honey your turn” Charlotte whispers in my hear “What for?” James asks “The exhibition” I answer “You didn’t tell me about it” he says, almost hurt “I wonder why James” I stood up and walked heading to the backstage, getting ready for my moment.
Once on the stage the lights turned on, my body illuminated by the flashes, my voice fills the room. I keep singing, coordinating my body with the boys on the stage with me, the flash lights make me feel like I’m performing on the stars, I was feeling the energy and the excitement in my blood. The choreography was a mix of modern, acrobatic and sensual movements. I could see the amaze sights of the other singers, artists and rockstars in the theater.
The dancers get close to me, touching my body, moving with me, messing up my hair, tangling our legs, some acro elements before the end of the performance, they all lift me up in a split while the lights turned off.
My breath was heavy, but my ears got immediately the cheering of the crowd, I smile at myself, I made it, I did the best performance that I could have ever done. After thanking the dancers I reach for my troupe in the backstage before hearing the winner. “And the Grammy for the best new artist of this year goes to… Y/N!” I reach the stage again collecting the award, a standing ovation that lasted an eternity for me “Thank you all so much! I don’t actually know what to say, this is my first time performing in front of such an important audience. I wanna thank my team, my family for always supporting and my handsome man, an amazing artist and person. Thank you James, I wouldn’t be here without you… I love you” I say trying to look for him in the crowd my the lights were too bright.
I reach for the backstage again, changing in the last dress of the night, and James wasn’t there waiting for me “Charlotte, where is James?” she sighed “He left right after your performance I think he is already at the after party with some other rockstars that left earlier… I am sorry Y/N” I was shocked “But… he didn’t even heard my speech then” she shook her head.
The party’s room was now full of all the celebrities, but my eyes were looking for him. All the people watching me, my body, my dress… “Amazing performance dear” a voice caught my attention, tattoos, ginger hair, glam style “Thank you Axl” I talked to him already a couple of times always when I was with James and his band “Never saw any artist moving like that” I blush softly, he always used to be very gentle with me also when James was around, knowing that he hates him pretty much “You drink?” he asks “Uhm yeah sure, I just got here so…” He leads me towards the counter making me a gesture to sit on the high chair. His hand passes me a drink “Cheers” he says “Cheers” I repeat. We talked for what it seemed like an hour or more and then Axl asked: “Why you here alone? I thought I saw you and Hetfield on the red carpet earlier”
“I think he didn’t like the show, I didn’t tell him about all the organization let’s say” he nods “Yeah I would be jealous too believe me”
“He doesn’t understand that this is my job too and I can’t do wherever I want all the time”
“Yeah I understand I think it’s just cause of-“ Axl’s voice stops as soon as a tall figure pops up behind me “Oh here he is… I’ll leave you two alone” The ginger stands up and walk away towards his band table “You are alive I see” I say facing my boyfriend “The fuck were you doing with that idiot?”
“Yeah all right bye James, I’m over this tonight” I try to stand up but his hand grip makes me sit again “Why didn’t you tell about all of the things that happened tonight?” I scoff “Are you serious? look at your reaction! how could I tell you about the outfits and the performance! You fucking left during the most important night of my life!” James doesn’t answer “And you didn’t ever hear what I said about you when I won! Cause you weren’t there for me!” “Okay now calm down everybody-“
“I don’t fucking care James! Cause you can always act like the crazy, toxic man that you are in this relationship! you act like a dick all the time and I don’t have to care if you are embarrassing me! but when I’m trying to tell you how fucking stupid you are you ask me to calm down! I won’t fucking calm down! I hate you! you ruined everything James! Everything!”
“Don’t give me that fucking attitude in front all of these people! You don’t understand that those people don’t care about you and they only want your money or your fucking body! Same as that fucking dick of Rose! you think he cares about you?! you think I’m fucking happy about seeing my girl doing all the pick me with anyone at all the events just cause her manager asked her to do so?! You think I’m fucking happy to see you dancing like a fucking whore with ten men in front of all the music industry?! Fuck no!” He shouts back “I did the best performance I could ever done, and I would love to see you happy for me once in your life instead of highlighting everything that you are jealous of all the time… I would love to see the man I love proud of me, instead of being humiliated…” He probably realized, the alcohol effect probably vanished for a second cause I could see his real eyes, the ones that I fell in love with four years ago “Y/N I didn’t want to-“
“I go back home, I take the driver’s car you take a taxi, and don’t come home till you are sober” I grab my award, everybody’s eyes were on us, I left the room leaving him there alone in the middle of the crowd.
As soon as I get home I let my body rest on the big mattress, I imagined the night different, and I was happy that I had the courage to tell everything to James.
It’s been four hours and my sleep got interrupted by a weight that moved the bed behind my back. A big hand caressing my skin still covered by the black dress and then a line of kisses touched my neck “Am sorry baby” James low voice says, but without receiving any answers “I’ve been a jerk, I promise you that I’ll work on my jealousy and anger issues… it’s just, I can’t see you like this in front of all those people, especially those dickheads rockstars”
“You weren’t even there how would you know” I say keeping the most cold tone that I could possibly give him “I just know it…” I could feel his eyes pierced on my back “Doll come on…” his hand grabs my hip trying to turn my body “I don’t wanna talk to you James”
he scoffs “I told you that I’m sorry and I’m trying to fix everything! I’m fucking stressed out in these months cause of the new album and you know it!”
“Don’t blame the album, I know you”
“Look at me Y/N…” I don’t answer “Goddamn it look at me!” he pulled me against his body, by back pressed on his; his left hand roaming on my body caressing my curves. His face lowers on my ear “I’m trying to fix my fucking mess and you are acting like a bitch… and I fucking hate it” his lips now leaving sloppy and wet kisses on my skin while his hand now fell on my thigh “James… leave me alone…” I whisper “I wanna stay with you, after what I saw on that stage… I wanna show you how proud I am of your own job, not those fuckers’s” he bites my neck “You said in front of everyone that I danced like a whore James come on” he squeezes my leg “I was drunk Y/N and you know how toxic I can be when I drink too much, and you know that I might say things that I don’t actually think… I’m sorry baby” hi lips now on my cheek while he grabs my face trying to turn it towards him, and he does. His mouth roughly pressed on mine, he didn’t wait, his tongue pressed hard asking for entry attacking mine, he tasted like cigars and beer, his mustache tickling my smooth skin. An hard grab on my tit made me moan in his mouth making him grin immediately “I fucking hate letting see other people what’s mine Y/N…” James says between the kisses “But then I remember I can fuck you whenever the fuck I want” at those words I felt immediately a warm feeling between my legs, my stomach started to shake. He started to kiss me again, his hands squeezing my waist, his other hand reached for my head grabbing and pulling my hair while his tongue kept exploring mine. His grip left my body, lifting my dress up, he plays with my panties fabric, teasing my swollen clit through the black lace, before moving it on the side exposing my wet pussy to him. My hands grab his neck, pulling him closer to my mouth while his fingers starts to bury inside of me without making me wait anymore: he starts with one, then two, his big fingers digging inside my gummy walls till the end, he pushed harder then the usual, his thumb makes circle around my bean making me shiver. “James, I- I want you please” he smiles on my lips, while he moves down my neck reaching for my neckline, he starts to bite, and then sucking, leaving purple dark marks on it, while his hand kept moving inside of me. “James please…” he grins, removing his sticky wet fingers, tasting them. He positions his self between my legs, and while I remove his belt and unbutton his pants with rush he does the same with his shirt. His hands found my panties again removing them, he grabs my shoulders letting me sit for a second to lift my dress up and untying my bra, and then he pushed me back on the bed. His already throbbing cock points towards my entrance,
“You fucking turned me on when you gave me that attitude ya know?” his eyes sparkling at his own words, he lowered his body, his belly pressing on mine, his hands grab my head sides “I want you to take it all baby” he guides for a second his dick towards my hole, and with an hard and confident thrust he fills me with his chunky length, a little pain cause of the stretch hits my walls. My moans are so loud that James had to make me shout keeping his tongue buried in my mouth. He keeps pushing and pushing, making my wetness fall down on the blanket, balls slapping hard at every strong movements. I tangle my legs around his waist, pushing him even deeper inside me “Harder James! Harder” his salty sweat falling on my forehead, while a cocky smile appeared on his lips hearing my request, he pulls out of me, and with his strength he turns me, facing the mattress, hitting my ass with an hard slap that echoed in the room, his hand grabs my neck pulling me up making my back press on his chest “Now you stopped being a bitch I see uh?” he pushed me back again pressing my face in the pillow, while his dick buries inside me again, making me whimper at every deep thrust. His fingers pulling my hair while his palm keeps pressing on the back of my head, I feel his body lowering on me, his weight pushing down my body, his hand leaves my my hair, finding its way between the mattress and my boob, grabbing it hard, his heavy warm breath tickling my ear “I fucking love you baby…. I- I have been a dick you- you were right…” he barely found the words between every heavy breaths “I- I’m coming James-“ at my words he pushes harder again “Finish around me baby, wanna feel you squeezing me while I fill you up” With a few more pushes a warm sensation fills my used walls, making my clit pulsate hard, I could feel my cunt squeezing James’ cock at every last thrusts he made before his hot seed reaches for my insides, while James suffocates his moans in my ear.
He pulls his dick out still cum dripping, he moves on the side, his body all sweaty and heavy “Come here baby” his arms pulls me closer to his torso “It’s been amazing James” I was breathless too “I hope you forgive me… I’ll change baby I promise, I’ll fix my behavior and I’ll support you in every moment”
“But you were right in some ways James… You may not have the best behavior of this world, but you are right, some people don’t probably care about me” he kisses my forehead “Don’t worry about it, I’ll help you if you want, I know how to handle those people… I’ll always stay with you Y/N… if you’ll want me to”.
dividers’ credits: @sperocordolium