Musings @ Mid-20s

I hope we live a life we’re proud of, filled with people and things that matter most, or sometimes the absence of them, that make us feel alive, in chaos and energy, in quiet and peace, in both grand adventures and simple joys. And if we ever find we’re not, I hope we have the courage to start over.

Roseletter

Vienna

Summer Breeze is playing. You are sound asleep from the iPad tired for the day for installing MooMoo for Merrill and I am seated at the corner while waiting for my enzyme peeling to dry on my face. I woke up super late today at 12:47pm, blame k-drama. It was a nice sunshine and I had to go out. After almost an hour basking in the sun, I went back and had the house cleaned up. So after 3 hours, the apartment is spic and span. Esslingen is nice, the apartment is nice, havong accomplished chores and the sun made my Sunday happy. But there’s missing. It’s you. Great things are manifesting to us at this moment.

You didn’t want your picture from the train station be taken.

As the train’s distance from you gets farther and farther so does my heart feels heavier and heavier like a hole that can’t be explained because I left my heart with you and I took your heart with me and the only time both will feel whole again is when you come soon to take it back and put mine in my chest, for us to reunite. Until then, I pray for your health, happiness, and protection. God’s angels will be with you. God is with you.

There haven’t been a decision in my life that I have underestimated, except this one.

You’re sound asleep, we fell asleep easily and early while watching Demon Slayers.

I will be strong but my heart, you are taking it with you so it would feel heavy and won’t be normal and happy being apart for a while. I will miss your scent, your warmth, your body, your hugs, your touch, your koala leg. But I will look forward to these again soon.

I’m working and Jigs has finished work. It’s cold and cloudy but ain’t it cozy because we’re together.

BE CURIOUS

For the first time in several weeks, I've completed a full uniterrupted sleep. Says millions about my brain to have finally calmed down from its activities. I just needed to fine tune my presentation to Gaby, Head of Global MM and send one more BSC invitation for sustainability which was to my brain is a little more like a piece of cake.

All of us had presentations about ourselves and what we were working on. Mine was one of the strongest, leaves an impression and done professionally. Thanks to Nicolai, these were one of the things I've learned. I listen and observe from someone who I would like to emulate, then I adopt their best practices.

Gaby was another one, similar to the heads in Germany like Laura, she was slow to speak but with substance, she shows curiosity in every person who spoke by asking questions in a non probing way but with the intent and sincerity to learn more about him or her a little more. That's what I want to duplicate - be curious. And also read 99 books.

Today, Chandra showed me the PDQ cost and while I wanted to push that to FSH, my brain functioned again while thinkibg about Gaby and Nick. It's actually an opportunity to push for Black Belt. :)