bittersweet

Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.

It takes courage to say goodbye. To stare at a thing lost and know it is gone forever. Some tears are iron forged.

A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end it was never bound to be, and you just have to let go.

Letting go is such a difficult thing to understand. You can’t try to let go. Trying to let go is like trying not to think about something. You’re just going to think about it even more. I think letting go is less of an ending of one thing and more of an acceptance of everything. It’s okay that this is the way it is right now. There’s no other way it’s supposed to be.

i miss our old, innocent selves, before life broke us.

you don’t stop loving someone just because you don’t talk to each other anymore. you don’t start hating someone just because things got tough or wasn’t all sunshine and butterflies the whole time. sometimes things work out, sometimes they don’t, sometimes shit just happens, and that’s okay. love is really, fucking complicated guys. but go with it when you find it anyways. you might get lucky or you might not, but either way you can say you tried and learned. and that’s important too.

It is not easy to let go of people, especially when they are of kindred souls to your own. You just have to trust that however short they stayed in your life, they have fulfilled a beautiful purpose - perhaps it was to touch you softly, or to wake you up from a stupor, or to teach you a lesson of some sort. Whatever it was they came into your life for, you are never emptier for their absence. Rather, you are more whole for it. Love them while letting them go. Love them even after they are gone. And love yourself all the more for your strength.

I hoped and prayed that you would come back and we would live happily ever after. But the truth is, you had your chance and you threw it away. So now I sincerely hope you never come back because I don’t know if my heart can handle saying goodbye to you again.

People in the real world always say, when something terrible happens, that the sadness and loss and aching pain of the heart will ‘lessen as time passes,’ but it isn’t true. Sorrow and loss are constant, but if we all had to go through our whole lives carrying them the whole time, we wouldn’t be able to stand it. The sadness would paralyze us. So in the end we just pack it into bags and find somewhere to leave it.

The storm will pass. Your heart and mind will settle.