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“S-Suzuko…” 

It was literally no use. Suzuko had obviously made her mind up and Ittoki could do nothing to stop her. The male stuttered, trying to get his words out. He felt a large lump in his throat and his eyes starting to feel heavy with tears. Was he going to cry over this? It didn’t seem like Ittoki to be so easily affected, but he just couldn’t help it.

Perhaps she had been too harsh, but the brunette was sure it was for the best, that he would thank her for it later, for saving him from disappointment, from hushed whispers and cold stares. Although, truth be told, Suzuko had no idea how else she was supposed to respond. She couldn’t remember the last time anyone tried to reach out to her like that, if ever. Wanting a friend for so long and then being faced with the opportunity, it scared her, it was too much too soon, he’d tried to force too much on to her. 

       ‘But I really didn’t have to be so cruel, did I?’ 

Too stubborn to admit it aloud, to turn around and apologise, keeping on her path back to her dorm where she could calm down and get some peace away from people. Maybe if she saw him tomorrow she would say something, or maybe it was just best left alone. Ittoki had seemed like a genuinely nice person, but she always thought looks were deceiving, she couldn’t handle someone who was honest. He didn’t deserve the burden of her defenses, convincing herself she was doing him a favor as she kicked shut the dorm door behind her.

Did Suzuko just say… she didn’t have any friends? Ittoki felt his heart crush a little. Ittoki honestly thought otherwise. She was sure that she did have friends! In fact, she had one right here in the room with her! Ittoki frowned towards Suzuko, biting his lip slightly. Did she not consider him a friend?

Ittoki wouldn’t let that slip away so easily, oh no. He grabbed hold of her hands gently in his and gripped them tightly.

Eyes widening when he grabbed her hands, the motion practically forcing her to move closer, looking up at him with an irritated expression. Usually when she told people to leave her alone they listened, knowing she was not worth the effort. But now      now she had Ittoki to deal with. 

       “Why are you being so persistent? I have nothing to offer you. Why        the hell would you even feel like that? You know nothing about me,        and all i’ve done is push you away. There’s nothing to let slip away.” 

Huffing, face red from both embarrassment and anger, wriggling out of his grasp and rushing to grab her things, packing away her guitar and shoving her belongings into her bag. Bag slung over shoulder, guitar case in hand, skittering to the door as if her life depended on it.

       “It’s better for the both of us if you leave me alone. I won’t get hurt        and you won’t be disappointed. End of.” 

Ittoki was a little taken aback by Suzuko’s attitude. He really didn’t mean any harm from what he was saying or anything, so why was she so frantic towards it? Ittoki blinked at the female, a slight frown curling at his lips.

He listened to her as she mentioned about wanting things for one’s self, not knowing a thing about her and how he wanted her to be his motivation. Was that so wrong?

       "Friends?”

The word sounded foreign, strained, lips thinning into a straight line, gaze locked upon the other as if she had seen a ghost. Since when had any of this sparked a friendship? The brunette had been nothing but cold, made it very clear it was best to leave her alone, and yet he still pushed, still seemed to actually want to know her. Maybe he hadn’t heard her story yet, maybe the whispers had been blocked out by the sweet melodies his world appeared to be full of. Even if it was needed, she could not burden him with such a thing.

       “I don’t have any friends.”

Ittoki softly smiled and looked down at his feet, closing his eyes as he did so. He remembered, when he had first met Nanami. When they had worked very hard on his first song, ‘Brand new Melody’. He had trialed through the hardest, working very hard through those lyrics, Nanami with her composing and of course the heart that was put into it.

Ittoki looked up at Suzuko once more and shone a light yet inspiring smile towards her, one that could lighten up even the darkest of times.

         "What?!"

Staring at him in disbelief, expression swiftly changing from bewilderment to one of irritation. No, she didn't ask for this, she didn't want someone to be motivated by her. Suzuko was motivated by all of the she had felt and he made it sound so...easy. As if looking up to her was going to do anything at all. As an idol people were more than welcome to look up to her, seeing her stage presence and that Hollywood smile, but as an ordinary person? She wasn't worth it.

         "No. If you want to do something you have to want it for yourself. You don't          know anything about me and you want me to motivate you? No one helped          me when I needed it, why should I help you?" 

"Wooooooah! That was amazing Suzuko! You’re bound to get an amazing score from that!!"

Gaze locked upon the redhead as he applauded, a brow quirking at his reaction and the compliments. Never had she seen anyone react with such excitement, and she wasn't entirely sure what to make of it. A silence fell between them as she processed his words, finally turning her head away and acting as though it did not get to her.

         "I would hope so, I worked hard on that." 

Ittoki listened to her amazing vocal talents and playing skills, his eyes lighting up in amazement and his mouth gaping open in amazement. She was really good, it was so amazing! As much as Suzuko really didn’t want him to listen, he was really happy to have asked her to listen in!

By the time she was finished she had almost forgotten she had been in a music room with someone else; she had briefly escaped, but now she was back in reality and almost staring at the redhead as if waiting for his reaction. Not that she cared too much what he thought, or at least that was what she was telling herself.

"Do you honestly believe that I won’t still want to become your friend after finding out about your past?" he inquired finally, trying to keep their eyes locked as much as possible at this point. "A person shouldn’t base friendships off of pasts alone, Suzu-chan. That’s something I wouldn’t do either."

However if the brunette believe such, he’d just have to look up her last name. He knew it well; he heard it a lot of time during roll calls and such during classes. (Whenever he attended class, anyway.) Ren felt like it was an invasion of privacy, however, but she did give him the permission to do it, didn’t she? He wouldn’t read too much over it, though; just enough to see why she thought that way.

Once Suzuko moved away from him, and starting to walk away, Ren stood straight up, though refused to walk on after her. He needed to do research after all, so why not leave her be whilst he did that? He’d find her again, no problem, and tell her what he thought. 

He doubted what he would find would be good, though no matter how terrible it was, he’d still find a way to befriend Suzuko, and make that smile he saw before less sad.

"Suzuko," Ren started, hoping she would stop for a moment. "no matter what I read, I still wish to become your friend. It doesn’t matter to me what you’re past was like. I’d want to comfort you if you have terrible thoughts about it, and also get to better understand you."

Taking in a breath before continuing.

The brunette had hoped Ren would remain silent, let her go without another word, but he chose to speak, causing her to stop with a pain in her heart. He was so determined, and deep down she wanted to thank him because it was truly what she needed. But it scared her. The thought of someone seeing her vulnerable and someone giving up their time to actually care about her seemed so foreign. It scared her because how long until he gave up and moved on? How long until he got sick of her defenses and walked away? That was inevitable, right? 

"I'll see you later, Ren..." 

Her voice cracked and he would no doubt pick up on that, but she didn't want to stick around any more and walked off at a fast pace before he could say any more upon the matter. Now she just needed to lock herself away somewhere and get on with an assignment. Or let herself be drowned by music in one of the practice rooms. 

Fingers curled tightly around the handle of her bag, keeping her head down as she hurried through the halls and as far as she could walk before she ran out of energy. At least she would make it to the other side of the school, in a practice room where she could shut herself away for a while.

SCANDAL; “Rainy” (Full ver.)

Well that was a disappointment… She didn’t have to say it like that! He felt like she was being a little bit mean from the way she had spoken to poor Ittoki! She only had to say no thank you! She seemed a little over-confident too…

Ittoki gulped and sat quietly in his chair, watching her set up.

"Fine..."

Maybe she was feeling nervous about performing it. She hadn't practiced much yet and she didn't feel ready for anyone to hear it. But he wasn't going to just leave so she felt obligated to play her piece. So, Suzuko picked up her guitar and slung it over her shoulder, making sure the settings were correct on the amp before starting to play and sing. 

"Shimekitta heya de hitorikiri Ame wa yousha naku mado wo tataiteru Soko de itsumade furueteru ki? Fumidasu koto kowagatte~♫"