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I imagine Illario would consider this necessary and normal just like Lucanis did, but deep down he still hates Caterina. Combined with being the non-favorite Crow, he never had a good relationship with her. He considered the training normal because he never received love or a normal childhood. He doesn't really have anything to compare his experiences to. He was surrounded by other Crows. So this is why to me it feels like his hatred towards Caterina comes from her liking Lucanis more. Maybe because of this he thinks all the things he went through when he was younger were for nothing. I always felt like Caterina succeeded making Illario into the "Crowy Crow" and when started acting like that, she didn't want it.

Here are some questions and suggestions for the Day 4 prompt Hunger/Sustenance.

What was it like when Caterina withheld food from him? How did he cope?

What does Illario crave the most in life?

I feel like saying "he craves love <3" and "he wants POWAH and be a big bad First Talon" are both kind of....shallow and oversimplified? Because everything is the consequence of something. Caterina didn't favor him at all, he was never a first choice. So Illario always wanted to feel accepted, acknowledged and the best way to do that is if he becomes First Talon, that's like the final prize. But I also headcanon that behind him being this extrovert, social and flirty person he knew that the people who wanted to sleep with him wanted to sleep with the Crow, or the Dellamorte, not Illario. No one really wanted to get to know him. He didn't want to get to know anyone either. This was his routine. He accepted that this is the furthest he will go as the first choice in his private life. I do feel like Illario likes being a Crow, and him wanting to become First Talon is a natural process, but it's rooted in him being the ignored grandson. In my worldstates he becomes First Talon and that's something that he wanted and was good at it. But he didn't know how much he needed to find someone that really loves him, and for whom he is the first choice. The only choice.

Meanwhile Illario with the kids:

Illario Week: Day 4 - Sustenance

Illario enjoying a plate of cacio e pepe at the Villa. I think he'd be so happy to be home after a contract gone awry and experiencing what passes for pasta in Tevinter.

Just thought I'd do something cute for today and for @paxvoik2 since this is something she wanted to see. :D This uses the Loumon base.

Thank you for the game @illarioappreciation and @lustaniasaxon 💜🫂

Day 5 Prompt

Week Prompt List

Chaos/Conformity

"Dellamorte the Lesser", "listens only to himself", "that idiot". Say what you want but Illario is cunning, proud, ambitions and capable of anything to achieve his goal, never afraid to make his hands bloody. For the sake of the coveted title, he is even ready to sacrifice his family.

Just as current First Talon herself.

It looks like you managed to raise true Crow of him, Caterina.

Day 1 ✦ Day 2 ✦ Day 3 ✦ Day 4 ✦ Day 5 ✦ Day 6 ✦ Day 7

"Chaos/Conformity" for Day 5 of @illarioappreciation

Bound to love chaos in a world of forced conformity. A Dellamorte never kneels. A Dellamorte never bends. Stand straight, show composure. Repeat it like a mantra. Prove your worth. One for silence. Two for surprise. Three for good measure. Four's exercise. Five for a slaughter. Six for the thrill Seven means more sovereigns. Eight marks the final kill.

Illario: Is that what you think? Maybe we should get Varric's opinion, which corner is he standing at?

Marcus: Oh fuck off!

I mean, look at him:

THAT'S HIM!!!! Or I'm going crazy.

Am I going crazy?