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Sometimes, when I think of you, I want to end myself.
I miss you.
Much more than I think you could imagine.
At most times, I do my best to put it all on mute.
But sometimes- I can't.
At this moment, I think of you.
I think of the sound of your laugh first.
And then I think of your smile.
I think of the way you would look at me before you would kiss me.
And then I think of the way you would say, "Love you."
I think of the way we would lay together.
And then I think of the way you would rub my back.
I think of you.
I think of me.
And I think of us.
And I feel sad.
I try to think of other things.
And at most times, these days anyway, I succeed.
Most times.
But in those not-so-most times, I struggle.
I ask myself when I won't.
And at the same time I wonder.
I ask myself why you did nothing.
I ask myself why you watched me go.
I ask myself why you didn't say anything after I left.
I ask myself why you did what you did.
I ask myself why?
And then I ask myself why am I asking why?
And then I wonder.
Do you ask why?
Do you ask why I did everything?
Do you ask why I left?
Do you ask yourself what you could have said?
Do you ask yourself what you could have done?
Do you ask yourself why?
..
I love you still.
And I don't know how else.
Moments like these, I want the hurt to leave.
But it stays as an unwelcomed guest.
Haunting and hurting and reminiscent with nostalgia.
I write these words.
And I make my attempt to exhale.
Because, in truth, I am in pain.
And you might like to hear that- I don't know.
But I am.
So, tell me.
How do I let go?
How do I let go of missing you?
How do I let go of loving you?
How?
Because that's all I know of you now.
So instead, I'll tell you.
I miss you.
I love you.
And I promise you that nothing could ever be more true.
My heart aches.
Why?
I ask myself.
This isn't the first time I've found myself in this place.
Is it something I do?
Is it something I attract?
What is it?
I don't enjoy it.
And now. Here. With you.
I feel it.
I don't want it. I want to throw it away and run.
I don't want this.
..
Why did you do all that you did?
Why did you say all you said?
I could only be myself. I have only tried to be myself.
Was that it?
I wish you would tell me.
I won't judge you. I won't hate you.
I may feel sad inside, but I'll be okay.
I'll tell you I'm okay. You don't have to know I'm sad.
I won't blame you or shame you for your feelings.
That's my problem to work out.
It's hard.
But I have to do my best.
This is life.
And sometimes.
Life sucks.
But I'll be okay. I have to be.
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