When you and Sojung first started dating, everything was perfect.

'I just need someone in my life to give it structure, to handle all the selfish ways you spend your time without her.' you thought.

She gives you butterflies and makes you whole. You felt, complete.

Time flew by, and she started to get home late, and get addicted to her phone. She's been smiling and texting someone. You accidentally saw a text when she was in the shower and the text was rather flirty.

'Oh, so there's someone else.'

She's everything you wanted, but you just can't deal with all her lovers.

"You're the one." She said.

She always tells you that. You wanted to believe her but her actions always speak louder.

She came home later than usual today and there was an unfamiliar perfume coming from her hair. But you decided not to say anything about it.

You went back to whatever you were doing while she went to take a shower.

A while later, she came back hugging you from behind, kissing your cheeks.

"Tough day?"

"Mhm." She nodded while she pressed kisses on your neck.

She's only giving you love when she's down and needs another.

You wanted to enjoy it but your head says otherwise.

'I've gotta get away and let you go, I've gotta get over.'

"But I love you so." You said out loud.

"Hm?" She stopped and looked at you.

"I love you so." You turned to her.

You were in the pre-debut team in JYPE. Yet you left with Somi, leaving your now ex-lover and friends behind.

Today, Ryujin is spending her birthday without you for the 4th year.

Ryujin received many happy birthdays from fans and friends, but the only happy birthday she wanted to hear was from you.

You decided not to debut and became a producer at Blacklabel. It was such a hard decision, but you enjoyed what you're doing now and are very good at it.

However, the songs you write about are always about her. You miss the days when life was so simple. Training with your friends, wanting to debut together as a team. Life was so good it felt like the glass was always half-full.

Where did that go?

There were times you and Ryujin stayed late to keep training for duet dances.

"Y/N-ah, this is not it."

She taught you step-by-step, holding you close. From practising to slow dancing to cringy love songs. She loved holding you close.

'And every second with you was so special.'

That was a mutual feeling.

She confessed to you on your birthday, and the two of you shared your first kiss on her birthday.

It was sweet, and it felt like that's what the two of you had been craving forever.

'Back when we didn't fear the unknowns'

You were fearless, sneaking together to have late-night dates and going to the park, pretending to run away together.

'But that was long ago.'

Right now, you are in your studio, trying not to think about her and work. But she's always your midnight thoughts. She's always in your head.

You missed her, you wonder if she feels the same.

And she does. But the both of you ended things in a not so mature way.

'Who can say where the path will go?'

She became one of the most famous idols and you write and produce songs for many famous idols.

'Philosophers guess but they just don't know

Maybe that's why it was different than expected. It was no surprise that you produce great songs. You thought you would be like your seniors, Stray Kids. Producing songs for you and your friends. Being together for at least 7 years. Have the best of your lives

Maybe that's why you had your head in the clouds.

Both of you didn't see it coming, even you. Until you waited too long. All of you even joked about walking out of the company together. But your oldest unnie had a deep thought, which you started to feel the same.

Somi looked for companies with you together, she takes care of you a lot as you were the foreigner in the group.

You never thought you would leave your girlfriend's side.

'Thought you had it all figured out.'

"We can still see each other."

You said.

"Let's run away."

Ryujin looked so serious.

'Planning to fly away, to escape everything on the ground'

"And to where, baby?"

Ryujin was trying so hard to hold her tears. She knew your new company suits your style more, and maybe she can move with you.

She just wanted to be with you.

You kept in contact for the first few months, but since the company found out about your production skills, they offered you your own studio and you stayed there for three days straight for the first three days.

It was too overwhelming, you even forgot to tell your girlfriend about it.

'But like a plane up in space. We slowly drifted away.'

Both of you became very busy. You with your production and her getting ready for her debut.

You were still rooting for each other though.

But then the both of you realised.

'And every plan that we made. And dream that we chased. Are just memories now'

Everything has changed. You wish you could go back, but you are happy with where you're now.

It's a typical Tuesday night, you chilling in your room, listening to Taylor Swift.

Looking out of the window, you see your childhood best friend aka your long time crush, Roseanna Park.

There she is, looking as beautiful as ever. The blonde is on her phone, calling her girlfriend again. Yeah, your perfect crush has a girlfriend. Even the way she frowned and grabbed her hair frustratingly is so attractive.

It is no surprise to you that your crush and her cheerleader girlfriend fight all the time. She even talked to you about it sometimes, but what can you do to help? Tell her to break it off? You have no idea what Roseanna sees in her. The cheerleader doesn't even laugh at her jokes or appreciates her as you do. But you got her humour. You always do.

Her girlfriend, Lisa, is the captain of the cheerleader. She wears short skirts that show her perfect legs, which got all the boys and girls' attentions. And you, on the bleachers and only wear T-shirts. The music you are blasting right now is something that she doesn't like. One thing you know for sure is that she'll never know your best friend's story like you do. No one knows Roseanna more than you do, even herself.

She saw you and gave you a weak smile.

You wrote in your drawing book.

'You ok?'

She laughed and wrote back.

'TiRED of DRAMA'

'Sorry :('

She shrugged.

'I love you'

When you looked up, she already closed her curtains.

Overthinking will only lead to another sleepless night, so you decided to push everything away for now and try to get at least a few hours of sleep.

You miss the days when Rosie comes to your house or when you go to hers to have sleepovers. You miss the way she caresses your hair and cuddles you at night, how she hums softly to you, how she giggles at your jokes. Maybe those are just here being friendly. Yet, you can't lie and say you don't feel anything.

Everything changed when she and Lisa started dating. She doesn't stop by as much, the two of you talks less, you miss her.

Sometimes you dream about the day when she wakes up and finds that what she's been looking for has been here the whole time. Why can't she see that she belongs with you?

Tears slowly flow out of your eyes, depressions had taken over you. You just want to hold her hand, kiss her, and tell her you love her. Is that too much to ask?

Waking up, the stain you made on your pillow was still fresh.

"Today is gonna be a great day." You said to yourself.

You put on your favourite T-shirt which makes you most comfortable. Walking out of your house, you sat down on the bench, waiting for the school bus to come.

"Hey, stranger."

That voice, even with her raspy voice, you know it's her.

"Morning, Rosie." You looked up from your phone.

There she is, standing next to the bench. Even though she's just in a simple T-shirt and her worn-out jeans, she still looks so pretty. She had a sandwich in her hand, munching on it.

"Want some?"

She said with her mouth full.

You laughed, and she followed you.

"You sure, Rosie?"

She nodded before putting the sandwich in front of you and you took a bite. Smiling as approve. Some of your hair was blocking your face and she moved them behind your ear.

These are one of the simple things you missed. So simple, yet means so much to you.

Laughing on the bench, you think to yourself. 'Hey, isn't this easy?'

Rosie looks at you with the smile that can light up this whole town, which you haven't seen it in a while. Since her girlfriend brought her down. The two of you still talk from time to time, she said she's fine, but you know her better than that. Sometimes you just wanted to ask her, "Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?"

"Get in, Chaeyoung!"

'Oh, she is here.'

Rosie's girlfriend drove in front of the two of you. Lisa with her Ferrari is just... So loud.

Rosie looks at you, pouting.

"You coming, Y/N?"

You shook your head, swallowing the bite of the sandwich.

"You guys go, my friends are waiting for me on the bus."

You put on a smile and waved her goodbye. Sure, maybe Jisoo and Jennie are on the bus as well, but they would've scolded you for not getting into the car with Rosie.

Rosie got into the car and was about to say something to you. Lisa pulled Rosie into a passionate kiss which you just can't watch anymore.

It hurts so much. Almost like she pulled your heart out and put it right back in.

"Pabo-yah?" Jisoo said while hitting your head. You hissed as Jennie shook her head.

"Y/N-ah... You should've at least tell her how you feel..."

The worries in Jennie's eyes, you know she is right. But when will she sees? When will your best friends realise that she belongs with you?

Arriving at school, you got out of the bus with your best friends. And there she is, with her girlfriend and the cheerleaders. The Cheer Captain wears high heels, and you wear sneakers. You feel so incomparable.

During science, you dream about being with her. What if, she is with you but not Lisa? You didn't realise your science teacher was calling your name until Rosie pulled you out of the lab.

"Earth to Y/N!!"

"Wha- What are you doing?"

"Mr Park was asking you to answer the question and you totally spaced out!! I told him you weren't feeling well and had to go to the restroom. I saved your ass, and I'm not even getting a 'thank you'."

She said as she pouted so cutely that you just wanted to kiss her pout away- No, Y/N. Get yourself together!

"We haven't hung out for so long..."

Your best friend said as she leans against the wall.

"Wanna sneak out?"

Are you shocked to see this side of her? Yes. But are you going to say no? Definitely not.

You ran before she realises.

"THE FIRST ONE TO GET TO THE DOOR WINS!!"

"Y/N!"

Rosie began chasing you and you were trying your best to run. This feels like the old day when you two would play hide and seek, and everything was just so... Perfect.

You miss this, and she misses this as well.

The two of you ran away and went to the nearest mall. You got some snacks and went to the park near your house.

Hanging out by the swings like the old time, the memories flashback and you just smile to yourself.

"What are you smiling about?"

"Just thinking about the good old days."

The good old days. This hits Rosie. It was still like this before she dated Lisa. The two of you stopped hanging out like before and you have been more distanced. She wonders why, she misses hanging out, chatting, having sleepovers, and... Holding your hands. She misses you. Holding your hands is not the same as holding her girlfriend's. It was different, the way your hand fits so perfectly into hers and how this simple act just sends her butterflies... She wonders if this still feels the same.

"Let's go."

She got up and pulled you up by your hand. You didn't ask her where, you just followed her. You missed how she randomly pulls you to places. Spending time with her is always the best time.

The two of you had the greatest evening together, so much to talk about, so much to do, so less time.

Here you are, standing by and waiting at her backdoor. You are not sure what for but she asked you to wait for her, like old times.

You remember that time she drove up to your house in the middle of the night. You were the one to makes her laugh when she was about to cry. You know everything about her. You know her favourite song and she tells you 'bout her dreams.

You know where she belongs, and you know it's with you.

Has she thought about maybe she belongs with you?

You have to ask her. But when?

It's prom night. Rosie is wearing a very neat suit.

'You going tonight?'

'no, studying'

'WISH YOU WERE HERE!'

She showed you as she let out a sigh.

What she didn't know was that you got the perfect dress to show up with.

You looked back at the paper you tore off, 'I love you'. Maybe it's time.

You showed up with the perfect white dress. Walking in there, you saw her talking to some of her friends.

When she saw you, it was like the world had stopped. You look so beautiful, so stunning, so perfect.

What you didn't know is, she saw your late-night jamming sessions, she loves how you dance like it's your last, she loves you.

You walked to her slowly and you have got her fully attentions.

Lisa saw the two of you walking towards each other and she tried to stop Rosie but she got pushed away.

The two of you stopped in front of each other.

You slowly took out the paper you wanted to show her, she smiled reading it. She took hers out as well. It says 'I love you' as well.

Slowly, she pulled you into a kiss that the two of you had been wanting for so long. It is better than both of you imagined.

You knew it was a bad idea to go out without an umbrella when your members told you to bring one. Your girlfriend insisted on kissing in the rain because she wanted to recreate that scene from the recent movie she watched with you.

And here you are, sick in bed.

"I'm sorry, baby." Sana pouted as she kissed your hand.

You gave her a weak smile, "It's fine, baby. At least we got hot choco."

"And the kiss!"

Right, the kiss. You coughed.

"Oh, god, baby. Are you okay?"

You nodded.

Sana looked worried.

"Imma get some food, baby. Let's watch movies later?"

You nodded again and smiled as she kissed your cheeks.

"Rest for a while, baby."

She said as she left the room as you slowly fell asleep.

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You woke up to the smell of your favourite comfort food. Opening your eyes, you see your girlfriend smiling at you, with your favourite dish in her hands.

"Hey, baby. Good sleep?"

You nodded as you slowly got up. Sana put the dish next to your shared bed and sat next to you. You got comfortable slowly and turned on the tv, put on the latest series you two are binging.

Your girlfriend insisted on feeding you while the two of you watch the series.

"I can do it myself, Sana-ah."

"No, say ahh."

Deep down, Sana is still very guilty that she got you sick. The worries are in her eyes and you can feel it too.

Not long after, you finished your meal and got comfortable in your girlfriend's arms. She played with your hair while humming the theme song of the series.

Pressing soft kisses on your forehead, she signed softly.

"I'm so sorry, baby..."

You looked up at her, eyes soften seeing her like this.

"Baby..."

She looked down at you, pouting.

"At least we got Jihyo unni to take that picture for you."

You said as the both of you smiled widely.

"That's true."

Your girlfriend said as she looked at the picture.

"I'm so in love with you."

"I'm so in love with you too... Thank you for taking care of me, baby."

You smiled softly at your girlfriend. Sana slowly leaned in but got stopped by you. She was confused.

"I'm sick, baby."

She leaned in anyway. The familiar taste softens you as the two of you moved in sync.

Everyone has a guilty pleasure, it can be anything, and yours is liking Justin Bieber.

Yet, you found her, your company, your fellow Believer, Son Chaeyoung. She just does not give a fuck about what others think about her. She's just her, and no one else.

She may seem like a bad girl with her tattoos and styles of clothing, but to you, she's just this sweet best friend of yours. Sure, She seemed so cool when you first met, she is just so chill, so laid back. You were taken aback when she first talked to you asking you if you liked Justin Bieber.

You were listening to his songs on your phone and when you were about to deny it, she was like "Hey, I like him too!"

You two soon became close friends. You like how you two jam to Bieber, how you two stayed together at school, after school, at JYPE. Yes, you were a trainee as well. Even though you didn't debut together and went to another company, you two still keep in touch. You two were like Bonnie and Clyde, but like no Clyde, just Bonnie and Bonnie.

It is always fun to think about the old days. Like that time when you sneaked ramen in the company. You two were hiding in the bathroom, but soon your manager caught you two. You two got scolded a lot but those were some great memories to look back at.

And there is this one time, you were sick but still had to go on sixteen, you guys were at camp and you did your best to pretend you were fine. You were having a serious fever that you passed out when you got on the bed. You hate how you get sick so easily, you don't want others to worry which is why you always say that you are fine and take care of others. But back to that day, your fever was so high that you weren't even able to move.

Chaeyoung got very worried and immediately asked the older girls for help. She got Jihyo and some staff to help you wind down a little. She cared about you so much that she would take a bullet for you.

Before debuting, every trainee worked their asses off just to be in the debut team, you two were no different. After a long day of working, everyone would just go to sleep and rest. Yet, you two chose to watch movies together. Maybe not every night, but movie nights happened at least once a week.

Whenever you two are watching Twilight, the two of you wouldn't stop arguing about who's better. She would say, Kristen Stewart and you would say, Anna Kendrick. (I'm a big Pitch Perfect fan, who's surprised)

You always loved movie nights even they make you look dead the day after. Spending time with Chaeyoung and doing what you love is just what you need. The two of you still meet up sometimes and support each others' comebacks. The fans ship you two a lot. The both of you secretly ship yourselves as well. Sometimes you wonder what would it be like. You've never dated because of the contract. Sure, you've got some admirers. But when things get out of control, Chaeyoung was always there to help you. You wonder what it would be like, to date your best friend. Will playing with her hair means something else? And the way you draw patterns on her skin with your fingers. Will everything change?

You hate to admit it but every time you see her, your stomach aches. The butterflies she gave you, grew more and more.

"You should tell her." Your members advised.

Should you? She's your best friend after all, even if she doesn't feel the same.

She won't leave you... Right?

You've been avoiding her for a while now, saying you're busy and tired with the schedule. Did those ever stop you from meeting up?

Your members agreed that you stayed at the dorm for way too long and it is starting to be unhealthy. They somehow got Chaeyoung showing up at your door with your favourite flowers because she misses you.

"Y/N-ah."

"Hm?"

Your eyes not leaving your phone when she walked in.

"Did I do something wrong?"

You heard the crack in her voice, she was hurt, by you. No, what have you done? Chaeyoung is not the usual person to cry, and if she is showing this side, it must be a lot for her...

You slowly looked up at her, seeing her standing next to your bed.

"I..."

You need to get your shits together. Like, now. Seeing her being so confused and vulnerable makes you feel like the worst.

"Chae-ah... I'm sorry I've been ignoring you... It's just... I have this new thought... Of us."

Her eyes lit up when you said "us", part of her is frightened that you found out her having the biggest crush on you and feel disgusted, part of her is very excited that you might be returning her love for you. Whatever it is, she's not sure how to react.

"I think... I want us to be more than just best friends."

You waited for her reaction, you have finally told her how you feel.

"Me too, pabo-yah."

She showed her biggest smile while leaning in to hug you. The two of you just simply enjoying each others' company. After it felt like a couple of good minutes, the both of you pull out.

She looks at you and smile, one hand holding yours, the other on your cheek.

"There's gonna be two less lonely girls."

These are all too unreal. Being in the same room with you was not something that Miyeon was expecting.

Miyeon was told that she will be attending Running Man without her members, but seeing you there just made her so... Nervous.

She always admired you and she may or may not have a tiny little crush on you. It was such a relief that her members aren't here. If Yuqi and Shuhua were here, they would embarrass her.

She never thought that she would be so close to you. It was not usual to be so close to another idol. At least for now.

You noticed how nervous and quiet she was, so you decided to break the silence.

"Hey."

She looked up at you, shocked that you were talking to her.

"Hi...Hi!"

You smiled at how she stuttered.

"You're cute... Let's be friends."

"Oh... Okay."

"This is my first time coming to Running Man alone, I'm so nervous. I usually have my members with me." You said with a little pout and moved a little to give her space to sit next to you.

Miyeon had been having solo events so she thought she can comfort you with her experiments.

"I know how that feels... I was so nervous when I had my first show as an MC..."

As the two of you got more comfortable, you two had laughs and sat closer. Miyeon told you how she admired you... and your group. You blushed a little as she complimented you and she thought you were so cute.

It all started with Miyeon yawning. It was quite early as female idols had to get to set earlier for makeup.

"Put your head on my shoulder, I'll wake you up when it's time."

She hesitated and just closed her eyes, saying it's fine.

After a while, seeing her leaning uncomfortably to the wall, you slowly put her head on your shoulder and speak softly, "I've told you to put your head on my shoulder, pabo."