nondescript

I feel like such a trying hard. So maybe I would rather just write it here than share it. I know they would probably appreciate it, but what if I become insufferable??

28-07-2026

24.07.2026

This is my 4th time joining.

I also think I have improved since the first time. Yey 💜

I still feel out of place, which is completely understandable I guess? They were all in this long before I got invited to join. Maybe it takes some getting used to.

But today it seemed so hard to even make an eye contact like I was there but they couldn’t really see me? I got teamed up with a girl I’ve met twice now, and I kept trying to talk to her during the game but she just wouldn’t talk nor make an eye contact with me. She would respond to other players, tho. Idk, idc. Let’s see in the coming days.

The girly stuff I ordered online arrived today.

I know it’s kinda late but I’ve decided to embrace my womanhood by paying attention to my skin-care. Let’s how this works. Applying make-up will still be occasional, though.

But so excited to try them! I hope they are okay on my skin. 🤞🏽

🌷 Jung sae mool - Essential skin nuder long wear cushion #21

🌷 Beauty of Joseon - Relief sun: rice + probiotics

🌷 Beauty of Joseon - Red bean refreshing pore mask

🌷 Etude - Lovely cookie blusher (sweet coral candy)

🌷 Focallure - Color correcting concealer palette

Today I volunteered to cook Pork Nilaga. I mean, it’s just Nilaga, what could go wrong, right?

Everything went wrong. Lol.

No Knorr pork cubes available so I used beef cubes from a different brand. After stewing, I tasted it and it was so bland. I followed the instructions from a youtube video, water was just the right amount, even added 1 tbsp. patis, but still not tasty enough? 🥲 From then on, it was a series of alternating between salt and pepper. 😂

I apologize to my housemates for putting them through the whole ordeal of eating that. ✌🏽 I feel squeamish thinking about it haha. Added to the fact that the quality of pork here is not that good and tastes a little weird. I managed to make it tender, tho.

Today I met Ate Lorna. A stranger who allowed me to share her umbrella.

I didn’t anticipate the rain. Only when I was outside did I notice the gloomy sky. When I arrived at the Church’s metro station, the rain was already pouring. From the metro station, it was an approx. 5-min walk to the Church. Almost everyone had an umbrella.

I don’t want to chastise myself for failing to anticipate the weather cuz I’m not often outside, and so bringing an umbrella was not instinctive.

But I have confidence. Lol. So I asked a random woman who I hoped would be kind enough to share her umbrella. And kind she was!

We even attended the church together. We were ushered to the babies room! I thought it impossible for my single childless self to ever set foot in the babies room, but apparently God had made the impossible possible? 😆 And because our home stations were on the same line, we rode the metro together. She even waited for me while I topped up my card at the station. 🩵

It’s not because I couldn’t say ‘not today’ to the attendant. He wouldn’t have minded me. If he did, it probably would be for like 10mins or so then he would forget about me and go about the rest of his shift.

I bought it because it looked good and I feel guilty cuz I should have bought something for my mama and papa instead of for myself.

I don’t regret it, tho. I could use it in the beach and somewhere else. I bought a pair 3 or 4 years ago and I still have it so it’s proven to be durable and til now still in style.

I admit that there were words or confessions in that Talk that when I remember, I still get hurt.

More activities or new activities to try

Still contemplating whether to move to another country or stay here in Dubai, but I’m envisioning that early this year I will be able to have a decision.

Less screen time

Healthier lifestyle or more active

Non-fiction books/autobiography

Finish the Bible (1st read)

The right person who will become my boyfriend

MORE PATIENCE (less rage)

More intentional in what I do.

If possible plan ahead the activities