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Ever since I was a child I hated growing up or hate the "change" because that means everything will not stay the way they are, and I hate that.

Sometimes I wish I can turn back clock, or even stop the time,or forward it, or control it like whenever I want, but I realized I really can't.

It's hard for me to accept and finally realized that these memories are just memories someday, something to tell, something to story about, and it's sad.

You might not feel it but it's there, everything is changing and you can't stop it.

Yet do people mean what they say?

Whether it’s people whispering it in your ear,

Or screaming it for everyone to hear.

You never truly know what’s going on,

In anyone’s life.

They could be just waiting to be stepped upon,

Until frankly, someone comes and takes the knife.

Mental health matters,

until it starts affecting your grades.

That’s when your whole life is shattered,

not when your struggling to not pick up the blades.

Mental health matters,

until it starts affecting your sports.

As suddenly your hearing all these chatters,

about if you actually wanna play on these fields and courts.

Mental health matters,

until the person looks okay.

little do you know, their heart actually shatters,

every time they hear it’s the start of a new day.

If you’re gonna stand by this saying,

don’t be judgmental when someone is suffering.

Strings in their heart may be fraying,

Or the words that need to come out,

are just slightly buffering.

Practice what you preach,

and learn to keep your word.

For someone may be in close reach,

but not be able to be heard.

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Scrolling through Facebook, looking through my old towns friends life's back in baguio is hard, I know my history in baguio and yes it might be hard, but the memories are unforgettable, I miss the "completing the 9 days of church" I miss the "not sleeping till morning" because now? It's boring and I'm not even being Ungreatfull, it's hard, it's sad I'm literally just in bed, it's lonely.

I feel so sad to the point that I feel kinda happy to just hear couples of children on the street before I realized "their having their Christmas dinner with their family" this is just lonely, I hear karaokes here and there but still no happiness.

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The creation is amazing, and we chose to ba racist, or even complain about the equality of a women and men, we compare the faces of people, "who is the prettiest? " whose this or that.

We are more then our looks, money and pride, people are dying just because of people's chooses, there's wars people can even fix so they kill each other.

Humans are created to be together and help each other, now race, money, gender, sexuality, religion and looks divided us.

Sometimes I just look at the wall and think, where is humanity? Where are the people that love each other?

Every time I see people making fun of another persons face, or how poor they are, or something they believe in, my heart just break into pieces.

The rich are taking over the world, they destroy lands, the animals are scared, we people throw trash everywhere, even in rivers, ocean, and the body of water.

The air pollution, light pollution, water pollution are slowly killing the earth, humans, animals and living things.

The earth can survive without us, but we cannot survive without the earth.

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‎All I ask was to be skinnier, be prettier, whenever I see a person wearing things that makes them comfortable makes me question why I have this stupid body instead of that petite one.

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‎I've always been the "bigger friend" the friend that everyone ask if they can get close to just for their other friends.

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‎I watched those girl play sports and how fast they are, how powerful their body is, makes me question why I don't have that?

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‎Everytime I eat I feel quilty, I always complain about having big body, but I don't do anything about it.

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‎I hate how I look in the mirror, in the camera, every time I take a picture of myself I covered my face.

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‎And I hate how my hair is always frizzy and wavy, I just wished I was the skinny, tall, straight haired girl.

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‎I've always dreamed of having a petite body, and long straight well behaved hair, to the point that I wished I would wake up like that.

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‎Ive always been the fat funny friend.