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Yesterday morning 10/26 my sister, my best friend, and my soul mate.. passed from an overdose. My entire family is in mourning. This is the hardest thing we have ever gone through. She was only 24 years old. She had an amazing music taste and could make you laugh like crazy. She was the coolest person I’ve had the honor to spend most of my life with.

The funeral expenses are going to be up to $16,000 dollars. We already have trouble paying the bills each month and we want to have a relaxing Christmas. So… I have made an amazon wishlist filled with gift cards to help my family. I have Carter’s gift cards to help pay for any clothing my 4 month old niece needs, as well as PetSmart gift cards to give my therapy cat flea medicine and food. I also placed some gift cards just for going to the movies and such around the holidays..as well as some little goodies just for fun.

Even if you can’t help, please, please reblog this. Message your mutuals and tell them to reblog this. Kind words are appreciated as well.

for a long time i loved only the rose of beaches, purely thorned stems that were almost impossible to pick; defiant and glowing –  for what use have i  of red roses and their cliches i match no rose, not in lips or palms  or the color of my sighing

but i have thought about the nature of roses and what many men have promised me in  the curling of their petals; and i have realized

what better flower for a survivor than one that builds delicate walls around a dark center

one that promises no answer, barely balanced, overflowing, oh yes, i come with love, but there are barbs in me that won’t stop growing, oh yes i’ve learned how to protect myself when i have had nothing –

i have thought about roses and their spined leaves curling as my shaky hands,  evolving sharpness as a way to live

My dash is ALWAYS dead, lately, so please reblog or like this post if you blog about any of the following so I can check out your blog:

👻 Witchcraft

👻 Witchy aesthetic

👻 Autumn

Show me bad guys that think it’s too late to turn their life around, and then turn it around. Show me bad guys that think they’ll never be loved because of the things they’ve done and then give them love and support that makes them feel like it’s worth it to change. Show me bad guys who are bitter, hold grudges, lash out at people, and then make them realize that this Isn’t Working and want more out of their life. Show me bad guys that ask the good guys for help!!

The “villain gets what’s coming to him and is never seen or heard from again” trope is old and played. I want to hear from them again. I want them to ask the good guys to drive them to their first therapy appointment. I want them to struggle through apologies, not because they’re too proud to say “I’m sorry” bc tbh that trope can die too, but because they can’t find the words to make things better and it makes it feel pointless to try.

Make it hard! Make it hurt! Make them question who they are and if change is possible and make them find out that they can be more than the destructive thoughts and behavior they’ve adapted! Make them learn that having bad thoughts doesn’t make you a bad person, and you can choose which thoughts and desires you entertain and act upon. Let the choice to ignore bad thoughts and focus on positive ones become easier over time. And let them feel proud of themselves for it!

Real people struggle with these issues every day and right now the social message is that if you fuck up, you’re scum and you deserve to suffer and you’ll never be more than scum. Real people need to know that you can’t undo the damage of things you’ve done, but you can be better in the future. Real people need to know that you’re not pigeonholed into being a Bad Guy for the rest of your life because you’re a Bad Guy right now.