I Am A Disater

I found out a little over a month ago that it was a maybe after and ER visit

After being admitted twice and multiple tests because they weren’t fully sure what it was causing pain and other problems.

They found a 10cm tumor on my cervix, and 5cm tumor on each ovary.

It’s stage 4 and they’re hopeful about treatment and if it shrinks by my third round of chemo they’ll be a full hysterectomy, which I’m fine with.

I’m just in shock about it all to an extent but honestly it’s causing my anxiety/ocd to be stupid. Like I just feel like I did something wrong to deserve this but I know I didn’t. I’ve increased my therapy sessions.

What sucks the most is I’m almost always dehydrated and hungry but it hurts once I swallow and it’s annoying as hell.

I’m just tired of it all already physically speaking, and I want to be done with pain and be able to eat/drink.

Just needed to rant/vent.

Don't forget about them now.

Don't forget about them tomorrow.

Don't forget about them in a week from now.

Don't forget about them in a month.

Don't forget them next year.

Don't forget them in 5 years.

When the history books start to update, don't let them put lies in there.

When documentaries come out, boycott the ones who call this a victory for Israel.

When books release talking about soldier's personal experiences with Palestine, remember the victims. Remember the truth.

Don't forget about what we've seen.

Don't forget about what we've heard.

Don't let them tell lies about Palestine.

Tell me why people were trying to compare it to Czechoslovakia and Yugoslavia etc.

My whole ass family was born in Czechoslovakia. Guess what. They now have a passport in Czechia/Slovakia, depending on where they lived. They have a country to call their own. They have some of the strongest passports in the world.

He held leftist and anarchist ideals. He belong to the ACAB subreddit. He recognized the evil of the US Military even though he himself was a part of it. He hated TERFS and called out fatphobia. He understood the dangers of white supremecy and the evils of capitalism.

He had a cat. He liked the show fleabag and played elden ring.

Apparently in his will he wants to leave any money in his name to palestinian relief funds. He was trying to find a new owner for his cat.

Rest in peace Aaron Bushnell. The world won't forget & we sure as fuck won't let the media paint you out to be some crazy conspiracy theorist who had no idea what he was doing.

I don't want to potentially miss Buddie's first kiss. I want to see their first date, first argument, maybe their first time. I want to see them adjust to the change and tell their friends and family.