It's been a long time since I have experienced hope. Changing lines always have put my mind in a decisive phase, constantly thinking about what I have missed in the time that i have crossed. It's been a long time, that I have forgot to talk and open up about myself to others. I haven't met anyone new since the last 3 years and it's been almost a decade that I never crossed the barriers and let go of myself like a Vagabond and get lost in the wilderness of life. I think I have missed a lot and never shared my untold stories to anyone. In my past I have been vulnerable, I have injured myself without thinking about the future and have faced all the losses with a smile on my face; sometimes I thank I have forgot to shed tear. Maybe it's been quite a long time that I have indulged myself amidst substance abuse and intoxicated lifestyle that somehow deleted the emotions within me. It happens and it's true. Sometimes the toughest situations have just made me stand still and observe like an emotionless bark which just got uprooted from the nearest tree part, and has everything to loose but couldn't react to the situation happening so abruptly and it later made me think what I have actually lost. I have lost the me in myself and have become a lifeless witness whom one can never ask as to what has happened because there will never be the same emotion within the words that narrated a story of the past. I have been broken but now I am thinking of healing myself. Even that needs a little help that I hope of getting into. But from whom? From the very phase that landed me in the zeroes will somehow guide me into the numbers so that I can dream again. Kolkata 2023 https://www.instagram.com/p/CqAX075yk63/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
