Riri

But I’m lowk upset. To sum it up, this girl-who we’ll call Natalie-I befriended in October of 2023 ended up backstabbing me and talked shit about me and another friend to the rest of the friend group. The rest of the friend group that she liked, at least. Three other people didn’t know about this because I was closer to them.

You know, in situations like this, I’d expect my childhood friend to speak up and tell me about it. After all, we’ve known each other for several years. Basically a decade at this point. Years before we met any of these guys. But no. I ended up hearing it from a close friend I met almost 5 years ago.

I communicated with my childhood friend and told her I couldn’t trust her the same way I did before. I tried saying it nicely because she’s been through a lot. She’s sensitive too. But then I thought about it. SHE’S the one being all quiet and sad, and I’M the one comforting HER?

I mean it when I say she’s been through actual shit. She’s experienced loss early in the year of 2025 and I completely sympathize with that. It’s horrible. I try to be gentle but UGH sometimes it’s so difficult. Sometimes I think “I sympathize but that doesn’t give you a pass to treat me this way”

As for the girl I stopped being friends with, Natalie. The one who backstabbed me. I cut her off for a very good reason. She was always jealous of me and another friend of ours. She said so herself MULTIPLE times. We tried our best to adjust and make her comfortable. When she’d complain about being left out, we did our best to include her. We did EVERYTHING to accommodate to her jealousy and insecurities. But it was just NEVER enough. It got to a point where we had to stop talking about certain things. Like Christmas presents we got. Or a good grade. Or an ACCEPTANCE to a UNIVERSITY or COLLEGE we wanted. Because heaven forbid we talk about our ACHIEVEMENTS and ACCOMPLISHMENTS that we’re proud of. All because she was JEALOUS and INSECURE.

I already communicated with my childhood friend about how uncomfortable I am with her still being in contact with Natalie- and she would reassure me, saying things like “ we don’t talk that much”. At first, that was okay, but then it just seemed like she was trying to avoid talking about the fact that she still talks to her regardless. She’s a very nice person. I understand that. But I don’t understand why it’s so hard creating boundaries between you and the person who hurt your childhood best friend. An important family members death anniversary had passed some days ago. An anniversary that was important to my childhood best friend. And Natalie, for some reason, thinks it’s okay to just go to her house and give her a candle and flowers and hang out with her. I’m not trying to control who my best friend hangs around with. But IT IS weird how it’s with someone who did me so wrong. I don’t know. I just don’t feel as close to her anymore. Every time Natalie is mentioned it pisses me off so much.

Sorry. I think that’s all. Maybe I’ll come back and yap some more. I’m just pissed off. Infuriated.