D A M N E D S M I L E *

❝ you’re right. you’re screwed. ❞

“God can’t hear you”

“Didn’t go as well as planned.”

❛ And this time, absolutely no requests. ❜ ❛ No return engagements. No encore. ❜ ❛ I hope you’re ready, because I’m about to tell you the story of my life.  ❜ ❛ And if you’re listening to these tapes, you’re one of the reasons why. ❜ ❛ I’ve heard so many stories I don’t know which one is the most popular.  ❜ ❛ Betrayal. It’s one of the worst feelings.  ❜ ❛ Where’s my bike? ❜ ❛ This was in front of the library? ❜ ❛ What about the student honor board? ❜ ❛ There’s some justice and some closure. ❜ ❛ I couldn’t watch. ❜ ❛ People can be fucking assholes. ❜ ❛ I thought we had like another week for that. ❜ ❛ Listen, I could, if you wanted to, I could help you finish the paper. ❜ ❛ We only have like twenty minutes before the first bell rings. ❜ ❛ I Googled everything. ❜ ❛ Well the founding father’s did grow and use hemp, but it wasn’t weed exactly. ❜ ❛ Sometimes books are more reliable for this kind of stuff. ❜ ❛ Everything I publish is personal to people. ❜ ❛ Still, it feels wrong. I’m just being honest. ❜ ❛ What are you working on? ❜ ❛ This is so cool. I’ve always wanted to set you up with someone. ❜ ❛ Maybe I was stupid to keep hoping. ❜ ❛ That is shocking. I’m shocked. ❜ ❛ Wait a second, how do I know you’re telling the truth. ❜ ❛ Come on, what do you say? ❜ ❛ Then again, they almost always do. ❜ ❛ Did you want to see if the rumors were true? ❜ ❛ Why did you do it? ❜ ❛ Thanks for helping me, that was really nice. ❜ ❛ I’m just saying if you’re getting fat shamed then don’t be fat. ❜ ❛ It’s always best to give compliments face to face. ❜ ❛ Sometimes the silly things can mean more than anybody knows. ❜ ❛ It’s kind of soul crushing, you know? ❜ ❛ We all need it. Human contact. ❜ ❛ You’re going to have to wait, just like I did. ❜ ❛ Let me know if you need to talk, anytime. ❜ ❛ I’m going to play mind games with you, just like you did with me. ❜ ❛ That’s a whole new level of lonely. ❜ ❛ You were kind that night. You just sat there. ❜ ❛ I’m sorry about _____. He’s/she’s just a dick. ❜ ❛ Want to see a trick? ❜ ❛ You got to get the positioning just right. ❜ ❛ After the way you played in Saturday, it’s on me. ❜ ❛ Take it easy, okay? You’ll feel better tomorrow. ❜ ❛ I wonder if you ever felt what it’s like to be lonely. ❜ ❛ Have you ever noticed us? ❜ ❛ How many of these did daddy make you? ❜ ❛ It’s okay. I’m over it. ❜ ❛ I never got the chance to say something. ❜ ❛ The thing is you were the Valentine I was hoping for. ❜ ❛ I don’t know if you’re doing this on a dare or whatever… ❜ ❛ I like you for so much more than that. ❜ ❛ The fact that you don’t even know. ❜ ❛ This shit that happens to you, I think some of it you bring on yourself. ❜ ❛ Thanks for the insight genius. ❜ ❛ You said something stupid and I yelled at you. Big deal. ❜ ❛ You didn’t like that someone told you no. ❜ ❛ You should of just let it go but you didn’t. ❜ ❛ I just needed to be alone. ❜ ❛ You’ll do anything to keep up your perfect reputation. ❜ ❛ I’m a fucking weak, pathetic loser. ❜ ❛ They’ll just laugh at you like they always do. ❜ ❛ Come out, come out, little girl/boy. ❜ ❛ We’re protecting ourselves. ❜ ❛ I’ve got no plans. I’m good to tell the truth. ❜ ❛ It’s only a matter of time before we’re all screwed. ❜ ❛ Nothing we did compares to what he/she did. ❜ ❛ You’ve been doing it for weeks now. ❜ ❛ My God, _______, you should fucking listen to yourself sometimes. ❜ ❛ You want to know what’s worse then being a rapist? Hiding behind one. ❜ ❛ You want to get the story straight? We all know the story. ❜ ❛ The honor board, because you are all so honorable. ❜ ❛ This happened off campus so the only alternative is the police. ❜ ❛ It was no ones fault. It just happened. ❜ ❛ I mean, maybe I was driving a little too fast. ❜ ❛ I’m taking some fucking responsibility. ❜ ❛ Maybe it’s all your faults, has that ever occurred to any of you? ❜ ❛ Who’s going to believe a dead girl/boy? ❜ ❛ You know my motto, no cheerleader left behind. ❜ ❛ I’m always looking for the wrong person. ❜ ❛ I thought you said you didn’t do it? ❜ ❛ I’m telling you, the worst is yet to come. ❜ ❛ You’re calling me a pussy, after what you did or didn’t do. ❜ ❛ Oh, so, if I kill myself then I kill you guys too? ❜ ❛ Why are you asking me about this? ❜ ❛ I don’t know what your truth is. ❜ ❛ Get your dirty ass feet off my notebook man. ❜ ❛ Do you want to talk in there? ❜ ❛ Maybe there’s even a message from beyond. ❜ ❛ At that moment, everything was perfect. ❜ ❛ I know you felt it too. ❜ ❛ I wanted you to do everything you were doing. ❜ ❛ What happened? I thought it was okay. ❜ ❛ Just leave me alone, you should just go. ❜ ❛ Part of me never wanted to see you again. ❜ ❛ You walked out the door like I told you too, why’d you have to leave? ❜ ❛ Your name does not belong on the list. But you need to be here. ❜ ❛ I didn’t deserve to be with someone like you. ❜ ❛ I would ruin you. It wasn’t you, it was me. ❜ ❛ There’s that word again. ❜ ❛ The kind of lonely feeling I’m talking about is when you feel like you’ve got nothing left. ❜

❛  sentiment is a chemical defect found in the losing side.  ❜ ❛  everything i said — it’s not real. i was just playing the game.  ❜ ❛  punch me in the face.  ❜ ❛  i always hear “punch me in the face” when you’re speaking, but it’s usually sub-text.  ❜ ❛  do you just carry on talking when i’m away?  ❜ ❛  brainy’s the new sexy.  ❜ ❛  [ name ], put your trousers on!  ❜ ❛  i would have you right here, on this desk, until you begged for mercy twice.  ❜ ❛  i’ve never begged for mercy in my life.  ❜ ❛  stop boring me & think. it’s the new sexy.  ❜ ❛  [ name ], if it was the end of the world, if this was the very last night, would you have dinner with me?  ❜ ❛  you wearing any pants?  ❜ ❛  i am seriously fighting an impulse to steal an ashtray.  ❜ ❛  people don’t really go to heaven when they die. they’re taken to a special room & burned.  ❜ ❛  look at them. they all care so much. do you ever wonder if there’s something wrong with us?  ❜ ❛  all lives end… all hearts are broken… caring is not an advantage… [ name ].  ❜ ❛  oh, you’re rather good.  ❜ ❛  you’re not so bad.  ❜ ❛  sex doesn’t alarm me.  ❜ ❛  [ name ] always replies, to everything. he’s mr. punchline. he will outlive god trying to have the last word.  ❜ ❛  i’m restoring balance to the universe.  ❜ ❛  i dislike being outnumbered. it makes for too much stupid in the room.  ❜ ❛  you got a photograph of me wearing that hat!  ❜ ❛  smoking indoors. isn’t there one of those… one of those law things?  ❜ ❛  we’re in a morgue. there’s only so much damage you can do.  ❜ ❛  i’ve missed something, haven’t i?  ❜ ❛  when i say run, run.  ❜ ❛  vatican cameos!  ❜ ❛  but, for the record, if anyone out there still cares, i’m not actually gay.  ❜ ❛  oh, look at those cheekbones. i could cut myself slapping that face.   ❜ ❛  well, we all do silly things.  ❜ ❛  yes, if i wanted poetry, i’d read [ name ]’s emails to his girlfriends. much funnier.  ❜ ❛  get out. i need to go to my mind palace.  ❜ ❛  well, that was tedious!  ❜ ❛  you’ve never been the most luminous of people, but as a conductor of light, you are unbeatable.  ❜ ❛  i don’t have friends. i’ve just got one.  ❜ ❛  did we just break into a military base to investigate a rabbit?  ❜ ❛  every fairy tale needs a good old-fashioned villain.  ❜ ❛  we’re just alike, you and i. except you’re boring. you’re on the side of the angels.  ❜ ❛  how hard do you find it, having to say “i don’t know?”  ❜ ❛  you’re insane.  ❜ ❛  take my hand.  ❜ ❛  how do you stalk a deer with a hat? what are you going to do, throw it?  ❜ ❛  is it like some sort of death frisbee?  ❜ ❛  oh, i may be on the side of the angels, but don’t think for one second that i am one of them.  ❜ ❛  [ name ], please don’t feel the need to make conversation. it’s really not your area.  ❜ ❛  nobody can fake being such an annoying dick all the time.  ❜ ❛  this is my cab. you get the next one.  ❜ ❛  [ name ] isn’t a man at all. he’s a spider. a spider at the center of a web.  ❜ ❛  well, don’t let it get to you, i always feel like screaming when you walk into a room. in fact, so do most people.  ❜ ❛  most people knock. but then, you’re not most people, i suppose.  ❜ ❛  falling’s just like flying except there’s a more permanent destination.  ❜

to say it with certainty is too hard || O.L. (via poetbitesback)

“When were you going to tell me about this?” “Why me? Of all people, why me?” “You planned this all from the beginning?” “I wanted so badly to think you were different.” “How could you lead me along like that?” “None of what we had was ever real, was it?” “So, our friendship didn’t mean anything to you?” “I would have done anything for you, but you’ve ruined all of that.” “All of the things I sacrificed for you didn’t mean a thing?” “I wish I had known when we met that you were such a vile person.” “If I could go back, I would just walk away.” “I forgive you, but I’m not going to forget what you did.” “No. I don’t accept your apology.” “After all your lies, how do I know you mean it when you say you’re sorry?” “I hope you realized what you did was cruel.” “I still care about you.” “Just tell me that your feelings towards me were genuine.” “What on earth is worth betraying someone who loves you?” “If you want to regain my trust, you have to earn it.” “Don’t just say you’re sorry. Show me that you’re sorry.”

“What is/are he/she/they doing here?”