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synopsis: Your Neighbors Socks go missing one by one. The prime suspect? Your hell spawn of a furr ball.
Miya Atsumu is in a Rush. Granted, as he had continuously pressed the Snoozebutton of his alarmclock, basking in the false allure of his cotton sheets in hopes of sleeping in.
His feigned ignorance and poor time management have come to bite him in his bum, stumbling out of bed in a hurry to collect the scattered contents of his gymbag he had oh so carelessly discarded in search of his earbuds last night.
His toothbrush dangles out of his mouth in the wierdest angle known to mankind as he prances onto his balcony like a complete madman.
His day couldn't have started off worse, the Setter figures, in frantic search for the pair of socks he had hung up to dry the previous eve.
He schouldn't have jinxed it in the morning he had stepped out of bed with the wrong foot. His socks are missing.
The furry menace nextdoor has beat him to collecting his laundry yet again.
When the blonde Setter first caught wind of the rumored laundry thief that's been plaguing the third floor of his apartment complex in downtown Osaka, he snickered in disbelief.
His lips quivered in an attempt to clamp them shut in order to refrain from bursting into a pig like wheeze as Miss Matsuda frantically rambles about her missing nightgown. Or when, not a week later, Mister Fujiwara grumbled to him about the absence of his favorite pair of trousers.
The prime suspect? The new resident of Apartment 308, his Nextdoor Neighbor: You.
However, the way they describe his new neighbor as a hairy little menace doesnât seem to align with his vision of you in the slightest.
Because in all honesty youâre sweet, a Country Bumpkin turned College student in the bustling metropolis of Osaka.
Thereâs no way youâd taint your recently gained good reputation by climbing over the balconies of your neighborhood in order to steal laundry.
And, as far as he can remember from the numerous times heâs seen you entering and leaving your apartment, youâre not hairy.
He canât help but chortle at the absurdity.
When his first pair of socks, the black nike ones he reserves for official matches, dissapears into thin air over night one saturday morning, he blames it on the morning fatigue.
By the time his next match comes around he thinks he might've lost it - both the the socks and his sanity-, a thought he can't seem to bear as his summer earth orbs rake the clothing rack on his balcony for any signs of the socks -the ones he claims to be his lucky charm- for the nth time that week.
Atsumu is four and a half pairs of socks and two shirts shorter when he decides to humor the old lady down the hallway by knocking at your door.
He still deems the whole "laundry thief" ordeal as a mere myth, a trifling fiction to excuse Miss Matsudas poor memory and Mister Fujiwaras temper.
The hallway is quiet. Too quiet, if you asked him. The only sounds that accompany his shuffling steps are the soft slap of his bare feet against the tiled floor and the faint jingle of the house key looped around his finger. Heâs still half in disbelief heâs actually doing this: Knocking on his neighborâs door. Over socks.
âMan,â he mutters under his breath, brushing the messy blond strands out of his face, âthis better not be as stupid as it feels.â
Atsumu clears his throat once. Twice. Then raises his hand to knock.
And thatâs when he hears it-Â
A small, muffled mew, followed by the scratch of tiny claws against the door.
His brows shoot up.
ââŚNo way.â
Another meow, louder this time. Then silence. Then the sound of feet - presumably yours-, approaching from the other side.
The door opens a fraction, and he catches a glimpse of you: hair tousled from sleep, wearing a too-large T-shirt that could double as a dress, blinking up at him like heâs just interrupted something sacred.
âOh. Miya-san,â you mumble, rubbing your eye. âMorning.â
âUh.. yeah. Morninâ.â
He tries not to look awkward standing there in his hastily thrown-on hoodie and shorts. He fails miserably.
Thereâs a pause, the kind that stretches too long for comfort.
Then something brushes against his ankle.
A small, brown blur shoots out from behind your legs - a cat, the so-called hairy menace - dragging a black piece of fabric in its mouth like a hunter returning from war.
Atsumu stares, and so do you.Â
The cat drops the fabric right between you.
And there they are.
His socks.
The lucky ones.
âOh my god,â you whisper, mortified. âMochi- no! Bad boy!â
You scoop up the cat, apologizing a mile a minute, but heâs too busy processing the fact that his entire buildingâs urban legend just strutted into the hallway on four legs.
âI⌠uh,â he manages, lips twitching into a smirk. âGuess the culprit ainât that much of a rumor after all.â
You bite your lip, cheeks heating. âI was going to return them I swear! I didnât know he hoards things. I found a whole pile under my bed just three weeks ago. Seems like he keeps doing so regardless of what I do.â
He canât help it. He laughs. Loud, bright, and boyish.
You blink, startled.
âYa were gonna, huh?â he grins, scratching the back of his neck. âWell, guess I caught ya red-handed anyway.â
You groan, hiding your face behind your free hand. âThis is so embarrassingâŚâ
âDonât be,â he says easily, leaning against the doorframe now like he owns the place. ââS kinda cute, actually.â
The words hang between you for a heartbeat too long before he clears his throat again.
âSo⌠you, uh, got a collection of my stuff somewhere then? Should I come get it?â
And thatâs how he ended up in your living room for the first time, surrounded by a mountain of laundry that most definitely did not belong to you.
Atsumu stares at the empty railing, mouth hanging open in disbelief, the toothbrush still dangling from his lips like an afterthought. For a long second, all he can do is squint at the vacant clothesline as if the socks might magically reappear out of thin air.
They donât. Of course they donât.
âYer kiddinâ meâŚâ he mutters around a mouthful of mint foam.
With quick strides he makes his way to the bathroom, spits the toothpaste into the sink, wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, and groans. Heâs running late, his gym bag is still half-unpacked, and his lucky socks have once again been abducted by that brown menace next door.
This is fine. Totally fine.
He tells himself that as he hastily throws on his bathrobe, because apparently, todayâs the kind of day you go to confront your neighbor about stolen laundry looking like you just escaped a hotel spa.
Somewhere between yanking the knot in his robe tighter and grabbing the house key, he decides this was the last straw.
He storms through his living room, muttering something about feral beasts and cursed apartments, and slides the front door open.
Before he can talk himself out of it, heâs already at your door, hair tousled, bathrobe half-tied, knocking like a possessed man.
He knocks once. Twice.
When you open, youâre already there, basket in hand, filled with the oddest assortment of things heâs been missing all month. Socks. A wristband. Even one of his jerseys, folded neatly on top.
And sitting proudly inside the basket, like a monarch amongst his spoils, is Mochi.
The brown cat meows once, tail flicking.
You smile sheepishly. âHe⌠wanted to say sorry.â
Atsumu sighs, but the corners of his mouth tug upward. âYeah? Tell him I accept his apology. But next time, maybe he can steal somethinâ useful, like my opponentâs playbook.â
You laugh, soft and genuine, the kind that makes the early hour feel less ungodly.
He scratches the back of his neck again, then looks at you, really looks at you.
âHey,â he starts, voice lower now, hesitant. âSince weâre already neighbors⌠and technically partners in crime thanks to this little thief,â his chin tips toward the cat, âmaybe we could, I dunno.. grab coffee sometime?â
You blink. âCoffee?â
âYeah. Or tea. Or somethinâ. My treat.â
He shrugs, trying for casual but failing miserably, a pink flush creeping up the back of his neck. âJust figured⌠ya could tell me more about Mochiâs laundry heists in person.â
You bite your lip, fighting a smile. âYouâre asking me out, arenât you?â
âDepends,â he says, grin widening. âYou sayinâ yes?â
Your answer comes with a small laugh and a nod. âYeah. Iâm saying yes.â
Mochi meows again, as if this had been his plan all along, tail swishing smugly against the basketâs rim.
And as Atsumu watches you laugh, sunlight spilling through the hallway window, painting your face in warm gold, he thinks, maybe being robbed half his closet wasnât the worst thing that could have happened after all.
note: after an one-year delay I have finally found the time to finish this project. Thank you for your patience, as well as reading my first work on this blog<3 feedback and reposts are greatly appreciated.
Š tsumiyas 2025. plagiarism, translation and distribution of my works out- and inside of tumblr is not permitted.
hi lovelies, itâs been a while since i last posted something like this. I have decided to quit writing for blue lock and jujutsu kaisen, as well as move blogs again. I have learned from my previous mistakes of deactivating my accounts, which leads to this blog simply being archived. I have made great memories on here and i just cannot bear to throw them all away, and i just know that i will regret loosing all my works on here haha. The reason why i decided to switch fandoms is because I recently fell out of love with the guy that inspired all of my works for the blue lock fandom. With that I also lost my Ideas and Passion to write for the bllk boys.
Something most people probably donât know is that I started out writing for the haikyuu fandom. Recently I regained my interest for the series and with that I have found my new inspiration. So you could say Iâm âreturning to my rootsâ (?). I will continue the event I started during Christmas so everyone who requested something still receives their matchup, as well as post on here once in a while.
From now on, I will mainly post on my new blog @tsumiyas and I hope you will accompany me on this new journey.
hi lovelies, itâs been a while since i last posted something like this. I have decided to quit writing for blue lock and jujutsu kaisen, as well as move blogs again. I have learned from my previous mistakes of deactivating my accounts, which leads to this blog simply being archived. I have made great memories on here and i just cannot bear to throw them all away, and i just know that i will regret loosing all my works on here haha. The reason why i decided to switch fandoms is because I recently fell out of love with the guy that inspired all of my works for the blue lock fandom. With that I also lost my Ideas and Passion to write for the bllk boys.
Something most people probably donât know is that I started out writing for the haikyuu fandom. Recently I regained my interest for the series and with that I have found my new inspiration. So you could say Iâm âreturning to my rootsâ (?). I will continue the event I started during Christmas so everyone who requested something still receives their matchup, as well as post on here once in a while.
From now on, I will mainly post on my new blog @tsumiyas and I hope you will accompany me on this new journey.
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hi lovelies, itâs been a while since i last posted something like this. I have decided to quit writing for blue lock and jujutsu kaisen, as well as move blogs again. I have learned from my previous mistakes of deactivating my accounts, which leads to this blog simply being archived. I have made great memories on here and i just cannot bear to throw them all away, and i just know that i will regret loosing all my works on here haha. The reason why i decided to switch fandoms is because I recently fell out of love with the guy that inspired all of my works for the blue lock fandom. With that I also lost my Ideas and Passion to write for the bllk boys.
Something most people probably donât know is that I started out writing for the haikyuu fandom. Recently I regained my interest for the series and with that I have found my new inspiration. So you could say Iâm âreturning to my rootsâ (?). I will continue the event I started during Christmas so everyone who requested something still receives their matchup, as well as post on here once in a while.
From now on, I will mainly post on my new blog @tsumiyas and I hope you will accompany me on this new journey.
hi lovelies, itâs been a while since i last posted something like this. I have decided to quit writing for blue lock and jujutsu kaisen, as well as move blogs again. I have learned from my previous mistakes of deactivating my accounts, which leads to this blog simply being archived. I have made great memories on here and i just cannot bear to throw them all away, and i just know that i will regret loosing all my works on here haha. The reason why i decided to switch fandoms is because I recently fell out of love with the guy that inspired all of my works for the blue lock fandom. With that I also lost my Ideas and Passion to write for the bllk boys.
Something most people probably donât know is that I started out writing for the haikyuu fandom. Recently I regained my interest for the series and with that I have found my new inspiration. So you could say Iâm âreturning to my rootsâ (?). I will continue the event I started during Christmas so everyone who requested something still receives their matchup, as well as post on here once in a while.
From now on, I will mainly post on my new blog @tsumiyas and I hope you will accompany me on this new journey.
hi lovelies, itâs been a while since i last posted something like this. I have decided to quit writing for blue lock and jujutsu kaisen, as well as move blogs again. I have learned from my previous mistakes of deactivating my accounts, which leads to this blog simply being archived. I have made great memories on here and i just cannot bear to throw them all away, and i just know that i will regret loosing all my works on here haha. The reason why i decided to switch fandoms is because I recently fell out of love with the guy that inspired all of my works for the blue lock fandom. With that I also lost my Ideas and Passion to write for the bllk boys.
Something most people probably donât know is that I started out writing for the haikyuu fandom. Recently I regained my interest for the series and with that I have found my new inspiration. So you could say Iâm âreturning to my rootsâ (?). I will continue the event I started during Christmas so everyone who requested something still receives their matchup, as well as post on here once in a while.
From now on, I will mainly post on my new blog @tsumiyas and I hope you will accompany me on this new journey.
hihi leni, just saw ur christmas event and omg i would love to join <3 so here is my submission for it đ˝:
my name is saki, and my favourite character in blue lock is mikage reo (âáľá´áľâ) !!
genres of music that i like include pop, kpop, r&b and sometimes classical. i don't rly like rap, rock, country and heavy metalâanything that is like loud and messy
my favourite artists include taylor swift, cigarettes after sex, wave to earth, beabadoobee, niki, ive and enhypen !
hehe i hope that's everything i need to include <3 thanks for holding this cute event đ¤đŤ
the sound of our love .á - request no. 3 @yoisami
message from len! hi pookie <3 itâs been,, a while since I last updated this event but here you go. I hope youâre doing well sweets and that the long wait was worth itđ¤
now playing..
Beautiful Stranger by Laufey!
why did I choose this song? I picked this song, because when I listened to it, I immediately had a vision in mind haha.
It was a chance encounter, really. You met Reo Mikage on the Subway Train home after an exhausting day at school. Thatâs when you saw him: eye catching lavender mop of hair, radiant smile and gorgeous eyes. You didnât recognize his uniform and when you had build up the courage to approach him, you heard the doors open, realizing you had come to your stop. You thought youâd never see him again, that beautiful stranger from the subway train. Well jokes on you, for when Reo Mikage takes a liking to something, or rather someone, heâd do anything to hold it in his grasp. And so, he goes out of his way to take the train home a whole hour later just to see you again.
your playlist!
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the incorrect arrangement or position of something in relation to something else.
"in which, mikage reo finds himself both asphyxiated and confined within the unfortunate circumstances of his first love."
contents. mikage reo x gn!reader, unrequited feelings, no happy ending, right person wrong time (i think), reader and reo borderline drunk / wasted, unproofread misery, tiny implication at gaslighting but nothing like that happens, never written unrequited love nor experienced it (can't get rejected if i never confess !!)
Despite the intelligence and academic prowess he had maintained throughout his entire lifetime, Mikage Reo is fundamentally a fool; one who unwisely but desperately deludes himself as a means to remain blind to the truth.
The 'wanna hang out tonight?' text was the flame to his moth, effortlessly attracting him whilst having the full capability to incinerate his very existence, to destroy every part of him.
If years of friendship accompanied by unreciprocated feelings could teach him anything, it was that, to spend time with you, lining up was a prerequisite for Reo.
Free time for you was defined by work's leniency (which seldom seems to happen, but at least you enjoyed it), and the occasional period where you weren't obsessing over a drama or book series.
After that section of the queue, was quite literally everyone else. An invitation from you meant that Yukimiya was too preoccupied with modelling, Rin's overseas, Nagi was too lazy to respond and left you on read, Isagi's busy training, Kunigami's at the gym, and Hiori didn't have the time to travel that far.
Finally there was Reo, back up plan Reo, the friend that you could go to when no one was available; the friend you liked enough to spend time with but not enough to prioritise.
He steals a glance at you as you keenly sip from your glass. Self-hatred chews at his conscience, but the livid, and tired part of him shoos it away.
It's not a very nice thing to accuse one of thinking of another so lowly, especially a close friend, however the explicit signs of him holding little significance in comparison to others seemed to validate it.
You and he have been drinking for a while now, without much word other than the 'hello's and quiet greetings when you first saw each other.
It's normal, the silence. It's just how things worked between you and Reo. Neither of you were particularly social, words weren't necessary to enjoy time together, that was one of Reo's favourite things about you.
He's always tired of speaking, having to maintain flawless image, that included appearing as someone sociable and eager to speak with others.
But with you, that expectation was nowhere to be seen.
You're now adults, but this is nothing different from the quiet walks to the bus stop back in high school. The ones where he'd do his best to steal a glance of how you look, soaked within the sunlight while smiling.
Chatter permeates the bar's atmosphere gently a few clinks of glasses can be heard which followed hearty laughter and the occasional cheer.
You're first to talk. "How's university been?"
"Good." Was the workload horrendous? Yes, and so was adulthood in general. Reo knows he has it easy; he can afford it easily and could still live comfortably without working a day in his life. But he still yearns for the same feeling high school had. "Hakuho was fun though."
You place your drink down, swallowing. "I know right? Never thought I'd say this, but I miss high school. It sucked most of the time. But you and the others made it so much better.â
Reo nods, as he gulps down more alcohol. âI miss it too. How has studying been for you?â
You huff. âItâs a lot. I feel like I spend more time studying than doing anything else. But itâs good. I donât mind since Iâm actually studying something Iâm passionate about, you know?â
âIâm glad, then.â Reo stares at his whisky, swirling the amber in his glass. âProud of you. I really am. Youâve come so far, and I just know youâre going to do well.â
Growing from a clueless high schooler to a driven, impassioned, medical student. A lot has changed, years pass yet he remains unloved by you.
God there he goes again, lamenting on his paltriness. It must be a relative of masochism; he could be safe and secure at home with a good book and cup of tea, yet heâs here drinking with the source of his pain, while tethering on the border of being intoxicated with alcohol instead of heartbreak.
With each drink, a wave of euphoria swallows him up, licking up his misery as if it were sand on the shore. Rationality and emotion bicker like seagulls quarrelling over food.
You laugh at his sweet words. âYou drunk? Thanks though.â
âDrunk or not, I mean it. Seriously.â Reo knows his limits, but doesnât bother correcting you. His face feels hot, not because of the soju, but because of you.
Youâve always been pretty, to a ridiculous extent. But absurd how a few years changes you so much. Reo canât even identify the changes, he just knows youâve gotten prettier; that his heart races faster whenever he sees you.
âSeriously.â You echo, and nod, and smile. âI miss seeing you every day. School was so much fun with you around.â
Another hasty gulp of soju. Reo canât stand hearing those words.
I hate you.
Is it directed to you, or himself? Not even Reoâs quite sure. He does his best to ignore your kindness, if it were true then he wouldâve been addressed you with a smile in the same way youâd speak to anyone else; he would know how his name sounds off your tongue. He would mean more than a last option, and all those texts wouldnât be left on read, viewed out of genuine care rather than basic manners.
Even though he can go on about unfair this feels, itâs ultimately his fault for still spending so much time with you. Youâre supposed to cut off the people who donât value you. Youâre supposed to only care for the ones whoâd do the same for you. Reo shouldâve cut ties with you long ago, yet he clings onto your relationship as if it meant more than anything else.
I miss seeing you at school everyday. Your words echo, and he does his best not to choke on his drink.
Formalities, not affection. It's not love, it's your way of manners. If you truly did care you'd be spewing those sorts of words out constantly, like when you're with Chigiri, or Anri.
"Reo? You good?"
"Yeah. 'm fine." It's a reflex, he barely had time to register the words leaving his mouth. "Are you?"
"Yah. I'm not the drunk one here am I?" You chuckle to yourself, bringing the glass back to your lips, averting your gaze elsewhere. "Were you always a lightweight? Your face is so red."
"And yours is so pretty."
There he goes, ruining your night with something stupid.
"Yup. Definitely drunk. You're saying weird things now."
And with that, Reo commands, requests, pleads himself not to cry.
"You know." Another shot of soju is swallowed down by you, punctuated with a refreshed gasp. "The me a couple of years ago would've been overjoyed to hear that."
It feels as though every interaction with you accentuates his one-sided love and it stings; time with you is mere salt to the wound.
Neither of you say anything for a bit.
Reo can recall your confession, an awkward text sent after a couple of months the two of you actually spoke. There's an unspoken boundary between you two, to not being up the topic of each other's crushes or of your confession.
A fair rule, but it's harboured questions. Reo hasn't got a clue on your love life and crushes. He knows of your obsession with romantic dramas, always binging whatever's trending, screaming on social media about having to wait a full seven days for the next episode.
If only the two of you were a part of one. But even fiction would probably destine him for solitude woven of heartbreak.
"I think you're the drunk one. Why bring that up now?"
You've finally halted on drinking. "Dunno. That was my first confession."
And you're my first loveâhe wants to say it, it's at the tip of his tongue yet he can't muster it to say it aloud to himself or even to Nagi; let alone you.
"Well, it was an honour."
It wasn't. Because the thought always intrudes into his mind. What if you had confessed a couple of years later, or even at least two?
Or what if Reo hadn't taken his sweet time to fall in love with you, if he had told you he wanted to get to know you first instead of a simple rejection, would you be in his arms?
"Shut up. I was a stupid kid back then. I promise you, I have absolutely no feelings for you. Not anymore."
Reo scoffs, he can't even fantasise of the potential between you two. You liked Mikage you'd see in the hallways; rich and top of the school; not clingy old Reo who feels ever so slightly too much for everyone he cares for.
Whereas Reo couldn't care less about l/n that just transferred to his class, but would die for the y/n he discovered throughout the years.
"Yeah yeah, I know. Never thought you did." He knew you didn't.
It wouldn't've saved him from his doom of unrequited love, but the timing was terrible. The heavens should've made your infatuation and his adoration align, at the very least. Even if it meant Reo remaining unloved.
A hiccup follows a breathless giggle. "Who did you like in highschool? There had to be someone. Why didn't you ever tell me though? You had so many fans, you must've liked one of them."
Because it's you. "Because you never asked." Reo shrugs, almost impressed at his own feigned composure.
"Now I ammm." Now your words are beginning to slur. "Whooo?"
It's you. And still you. Reo could say it right here and now. You're essentially wasted and probably won't remember it. And if you did, he wouldn't mind crossing an ethical line and fibbing if it meant concealing his pathetic vulnerabilities.
Perhaps one day he'll tell you, if the uninterrupted storm ends, and the skies clear, if Mikage Reo's heart will one day stop aching for you.
"I'll tell ya some day. When I feel like it."
"What?! You're not allowed to add that much suspenseâand not tell me in the end."
And perhaps in another universe, he and you can be of the same constellation, instead of being galaxies apart.
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your doting boyfriend thinks itâs time for a coffee date.. at midnight.
You can't exactly recall when the chestnut wooden tiles of your bedroom floor turned into wet cement, yellowish streetlights reflecting on the pavement in a subtle, glossy glimmer.
Or when the reverberating ticks and tocks of the great grandfather-clock on the wall by your desk transitioned into the soft pitter-patter of early morning april-sereine, the intoxicating sandalwood scent and flickering brilliance of the candle by your bedside replaced by the petrichor smell of midnight deluge, the lingering redolence of caffeine and the milky gleam of tonights crescent.
There's a catch to it tough. For no matter how many scenery changes your environment must endure, it won't take away that unsettling feeling rooted deeply within your gut. It's discomposing, the absence of your ball pen weighing down upon your palm, soar Fingers twitching around the coffee cup clutched in your hand, like they're itching to grasp it's cool, shimmering metal texture instead of the paper grain of your partially emptied mug.
The need to repeat certain steps of variating formulas until flawless magnificence gnaws at your very core as you take shaky steps through the deserted streets of your hometown.
You feel the brush of Isagi's shoulder against your own, followed by a shallow breath before he gently grasps your palm, softly interlacing your fingers with his own.
"Look up. ", he mutters, and you do, catching the radiance of the moons luminosity in his azure orbs as he grins your way. "Not at me. At the sky", he chuckles.
You comply, absentmindedly glimpsing into the inky night sky as the stars twinkle like dousens of tiny pin drops spilled into the midnight sea.
"See the stars? Tonight's constellations might as well look a little different from yesterdayâs, but they're the same stars nonetheless.â, he chuckles before he continues.
âWhat I mean is, failing that exam won't ruin your life. And to be honest, you flocking in that class is nearly impossible now.â
âMy point is, that you've definitely did everything you could, but don't let your fear to fail get the best of you. Gosh you're so smart as is, so stop worrying about something so trivial like the midterm exams, which, by the way, are still two weeks away. You'll do great."
You smile at him, before turning your gaze down towards your feet, busying yourself by counting the crossovers of your shoelaces in order to dismiss your gradually increasing heartbeat.
âThanks Yoichi. I guess I really needed this right now. "you chuckle, gesturing to him as you raise the cup to take another sip.
"But you got something wrong just now." you continue, snickering to yourself as you add, "it's not the constellations that change, but the earths position within the Milky Way, hence why our night sky changes with every passing day.â
His ears flush ever so slightly as you comment on his lacking diligence during Mr. Parks Astronomie class.
You smile at him, appreciating the subtle warmth provided by his cheesy words and frivolous comparisons.
It's silly, how easily his mere presence shuns all your worries away, his hand replacing the weight of your long forgotten ball pen as his carefree chuckles echoe through the streets.
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You watched the rain lash out its fury against the window. At an extent, it felt almost like looking at a mirror â from how an inner turmoil brewed inside of you reflected a rhythmic counterpoint to the storm outside.Â
Nature sure does have impeccable timing, and the worst sense of humor â or could it be a cruel, mocking sympathy? You donât know anymore, you have never been good at knowing intentions, after all.
But you had it coming, you admit.
You knew this day would come. Yet, the thing about anticipating the worst before it knocks on your door, is that it will never truly prepare you for what's waiting on the other side of that door. It never eases the dread, nor does it make fear felt less at the expense of gradual awareness. If anything, it made you restlessly on edge.
Thoughts of anguish and gloom halt at a key rattling in the lock. The door creaked open, and even with your back turned away, you knew there was only one living soul who had the rights to your home and, dare you say, your heart.
And there he wasâ Itoshi Rin stood there, like a ghost in his own town. He looked like a stranger in a familiar place. How could someone who lived in this place feel so foreign and appear so out of place?
You didnât turn to greet him like you always do. The silence stretched, thick and suffocating, making you clench your jaw. You heard him call you, but his words drifted across the roomâ lost at the deafening simmer of your anger.
He called your name once more. This time, you turned your rigid back to the kitchen, ignoring his calls. You busied yourself at the abandoned dinner at the table, poking at the now-cold food with a detached air. Physically, the clinking of silverware was the only sound besides the belligerent drumming of rain. Internally, your shattering heart was louder than the two combined.Â
The clinking grew frantic as Rin approached you, each chime a hammer blow to your heart.
He stopped beside the table you aimlessly fiddled. He was so close you had a whiff of his perfumeâ the warm scent of wood and spices serving you a bittersweet reminder of happier evenings.
âY/N,â he snapped, his voice sharp. Marching forward, he reached for your wrist. His grip tight, halting your movement.
The clinking stopped. Slowly, you turned to look at him by the eye. Rin almost lost his facade of indifference at the sight. Your face was a mask of controlled anger, but the storm in your eyes mirrored the one outside.
âLet go of me,â you commanded, your voice low yet firm.Â
Immediately, he paid heed to your request. The hand formerly holding your wrist found its place in his hair, aggressively combing it out of frustration.
âLook,â he starts, âI said Iâm sorry. What more do you want from me?â
âFor you to fucking care!â
A beat of silence follows your outburst. You felt your throat burning at the whirlwind of suppressed emotions that revealed itself. You were tremblingâ may it be from hurt or anger, you didnât care. At that moment, you were immersed in his insolent audacity.
More? How dare he say more?Â
âYouâre sorry? Thatâs it? We havenât had a decent conversation in weeks, Rin. And this,â you gestured at the table with a bitter laugh, âI spent all afternoon making it. Because today wasâŚâ you choked on the word, your voice cracking and rogue tears finally falling.
âOur anniversary,â he whispered in response, finishing your sentence.
More tears welled in your eyes, blurring the image of the colorful icing of the cake you ceased to dispose of.Â
He knew what day it was. He remembered. He damn remembered.Â
And yet⌠Oh, dear god, how could your love be so cruelly disregarded?
He had no excuse, had no shame. The abandoned dinner, the cake, it was all for him. And heâd trampled all over it.Â
âI donât want another sorry, Rin. I donât want anything more,â you hung your head low, âAll I want is my Rin. Give him back to me, please.â
Breathing heavily, you closed the distance between you two. You reached for his cheek, carefully and slowly, letting your longing take its final time. Your gaze wandered across his face â from his forehead, down to his nose, to his lips, and back to his teal orbs â you tried to search for the man who once loved you as warm and golden as the sun.
But the spark you were searching for, the warmth that once ignited in his eyes, remained absent.
You knew it then. You really had it coming. But denial was just as comfortable as your well-worn sweater. Itâs warm and familiar, even if itâs riddled with holes.
But that sweaterâ it was time to throw it out.
And it was already time to go.
Because when you pulled him tighter, he kept drifting away; and when you whispered confessions of love, all you heard was a hollow silence.
And thatâs enough to know that the love you once hadâ the laughter and shared dreams, were now ashes in the grave of a cold frozen wasteland.
âI love you, Rin. I love you so so much,â you whispered between his lips, a tear trailing down your cheek, âItâs ruining my life.â
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