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HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE.

- I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream [1967]

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"According to Sirei, this blog can receive transmissions from citizens of the artificial satellite. I'm still not sure why anyone thought it was a good idea to give me access to something like this, but I get certain privileges for answering questions. I don't know if this is supposed to be 'rehabilitation,' enrichment, or just humiliation. I think it was supposed to be some sort of PR campaign, at first. 'Look, the human-hating freak isn't sabotaging our mission! He's literally nice!' Heheh... I'm sure you're here for a reason, whether I like that reason or not. So go ahead, query me your heart's content. I can't bite you from here."

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affiliated with: @disgustingginzaki @gakuthegoat

"Redundant? No, that's one of the more interesting questions I've gotten, actually. I don't think I'd necessarily be a bad parent. That being said, I don't know if it's possible for anyone to be a good parent. Most people grow so preoccupied with avoiding the mistakes their parents made, that they invent brand new ones.

"Maybe I wouldn't mind taking responsibility for a child's life. I wouldn't raise it alone, by any means. Not only would I need a break sometimes, but... no matter how much I grow to love them, I'll always see them as a monster. A child doesn't deserve their only parental figure seeing them as a monster, do they?

"...is loving someone just worrying that you'll never be enough for them? Maybe that's all it is. I don't think any good parent would be willing to refer to themselves as such. There would always a layer of striving to do better.

"In short, I don't think anyone would be able to say whether or not I'd be a good adoptive parent except my hypothetical child. I don't think I could ever feel like one, though."

"Shouma doesn't scream 'I hate myself' at me dozens of times in a row, does he? He gives me far more to work with. Did you expect sympathy from me over something like that? Besides, I'd like to think I'm teaching Shouma to manage his hatred in more productive ways. I basically give him the same guidance I gave to that anon."

"Yes, I heard you the first time. Wallowing in your self-hatred is a waste of time, you know. Hatred should accomplish something. If you're going to spend that much energy despising anything, direct it toward something useful instead. Doing... whatever this is, is the perfect way to stagnate."

"It's very sandy."

"I- I don't need to hear that from you."

"Depends on what you mean by that. If you're asking if I'd be possessive of someone I love, probably more than I'd like to admit. If I ever let someone close enough to matter, I don't want to even imagine what losing them would feel like. Sometimes I wonder if I'd even know what love feels like until it's already slipping through my fingers... I'd most likely become rather desperate to keep someone from leaving. As for whether that makes me a 'yandere,' though, I think flattening someone to an anime archetype is a poor attempt at understanding them. You're not really learning about them, just sticking oversimplified labels on them instead."

"Um... no. I only have plushies of Takumi and myself. And I think if I did that to Takumi's, the stench of it might rival his real one."

"Vocal synthesizers are far less grating than actual voices, but I still find music with lyrics distracting, and I'm not one to listen to music without doing something else at the same time. So I'm not that well-acquainted with the genre. The only producer I can name off the top of my head is MARETU. I appreciate how little his songs attempt to obscure the ugliness of human nature and life itself."

"No...? Why would I do that? Don't get me wrong, if I ever found someone truly worth my time, I would go to great lengths to stop them from abandoning me. But... that? Propagating the human race? Dragging another person into the world just to force someone else to stay? It's a sickening thought."

"I'd say Psychic. They're quite relatable in how they tend to be burdened by their own perception and unbearable powers. Take Espurr, who constantly has to repress its power that could easily demolish something thousands of times its body weight. Or Psyduck, who lives in perpetual pain resulting from its abilities, and Hatenna, who can't stand being around the strong emotions of others and flees from areas with too many people. I find something comforting in them. Creatures whose greatest affliction is perceiving too much."

"I wouldn't even say she's a mutual contact, really. I've never had anything to do with her, but I know Shouma seems to like her. Gaku sure feels something about her. I think that 'something' is abject hatred, though -- jealousy, at best. She's quite wretched, isn't she? Even with her face obscured, her hideousness still emanates from beneath, rivaled only by her repugnant personality... I'll never know what Shouma sees in her. Like a moth drawn to the dimmest of flames, content to burn to a crisp for barely any light at all."

"No. I'm straight. The straightest man you've ever seen in your life.

"...would that upset you to hear? I'm sure you're already convinced of the response you want, regardless of whether or not I confirm it."

...I'm sorry! If I'm a bother, let me know. I know it's hard for you to approve of the letters on here.

"You're no more of a nuisance than anyone else. Though, that's not a particularly high bar, is it? It's interesting to hear that I'm still perceived as pleasant even when I've been... a little more candid than I'm typically able. But I'm quite accustomed to criticism. I don't let it bother me."

"Are you capable of asking an original question? Why does my orientation matter so much? It's not like I'd ever give any of you a chance, regardless of my preferences."

"It seemed negative, or at least ignorant. 'Obese' has a clear medical connotation that doesn't apply to me. I don't think a literal bundle of sticks can fit that label either, if that's what they were aiming for somehow. And even if it was just because of my clothes, it still doesn't make sense. You all really spend more time explaining bad jokes than making good ones."