ManLine Junction

Not hot blooded. Cold as ice. The bad man or woman doing something clinical without remorse. The premeditated murder at the extreme. 

But we all can be bad. Even premeditated bad.

Somehow revenge is not seen as negatively as "cold as ice". In the movies it has often portrayed as something glorious. Personally I think it is highly negative for society and the individual. Anyway we can all be bad. Showing a colleague at work in bad light for personal gain. Cheating on a partner. Telling something that you were entrusted to keep secret. Many examples.

We all can be bad. After the "bad moment". Time to reflect. Maybe wonder why you did it. Scared because the consequences were greater than you expected. The world is more complicated. The intertwining of future events more complex.

Sometimes we reflect. We contemplate. We cannot quite grasp what is really going on. We are missing something, a piece of the jigsaw. No matter how hard we think and think we do not understand why the path is blocked. Many reasons enter the brain. But which one ? Is there something that we have not considered? It hurts. We want to know. We want to get on with our lives. No book to look into, no person to ask. We are blocked. 

Since time immemorial we have clung to the concept of the broken heart. Usually it is the callous man discarding the loving woman. Men are rarely portrayed as broken hearted. In the stereotype the woman suffers significantly more than the male. 

But men have feelings. Men are emotional. Sometimes separating is the best thing, despite the heartbreak, so life can move on. How many people do not leave a relationship, well past its sell by date, because they do not want their partner of many years to suffer so. Yet the relationship must suffer because of such thoughts. And would it not be better to be honest, so that the other person can, after anguish, put their life together and maybe find more love somewhere else.

The glance that captures all. Love at first sight. ...shows the true inner feelings. How much are these just myths, not bearing much scrutiny. Can any of us be captured in one photograph. Can we make any judgement about anybody on meeting briefly just once ? To a greater or lesser extent I believe none of us want to reveal too much. We have private thoughts and feelings. Which can lead to what other people view as actions out of character. One goes to a portrait gallery and view all those representations of people which are usually deemed to reflect them. We can be easily fooled in real life. What not there as well. To a certain extent it is down to trust in the artist. On what basis can we trust. I often wonder. I just read the biography of someone who recently died who conveniently omitted large aspects of his life. The biographer must have wittingly done this. That is sad.

For many of us, we are drawn to it. One step nearer but still be able to exit. Still be in control. We want to see what is beyond the red plastic netting. We want to talk to the man marked dangerous. We want the thrill of the off piste run. To go to the churchyard at night. But the boundary is not always clear. We cross it inadvertently and too late to go back to the same point. We know this happens but people time and time again repeat mistakes. Must be in our DNA.