Why????
If I can see the change
And I can see the numbers drop
And I can feel my pants fall down
And I can feel my energy fade away
Why do I still go bavck to eating?
Why do I always go and eat?????
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Why????
If I can see the change
And I can see the numbers drop
And I can feel my pants fall down
And I can feel my energy fade away
Why do I still go bavck to eating?
Why do I always go and eat?????

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New Way to Quickly recover! /jk
TW - health anxiety triggers, read with caution
Develope severe health anxiety that follows you around 24/7! The newest feature - fear of cancer! What is one of the most common symptoms of any form of cancer? You guessed it, weight loss! So get sick on a vacation, lose 5 kg of wait in a week due to loss of apetite, be happy about it, and a week later have daily mental breakdowns about your quick weigh loss, thinking it might be cancer!
Package includes:
relapsing into different kinds of eating disorders
severe anxiety
fear of loosing weight (if your fear of gaining weight was not enough)
Try it today, and you'll be as miserable as I am!
At the end of the day I did drop 5kg so a win is a win.
Let me tell ya'll a story My boyfriend - I love him, he is the sweetest man alive. He knows I have an unhealthy habit with food (he doesn't know how bad it gets sometimes, but he has picked up that something is wrong) and he does great things.
He made me eat multiple meals a day when I was sick so that I can get better faster. He made me extremely small portions, and he indivisually patted the fat off ot potatoes and bacon so I feel better about eating it. He is a gem.
So I've been eating actual meals and I didn't gain any weight, so i was like maybe I can do this? Maybe I can eat food and excercise and lose some weight like that?
So I started making some meals for myself and it's difficult, and I get the guilt but I've been dpign good for a week or so.
And today we went out to eat some fried chicken, and they give you 3, and I ate 1 and a half, and most of the fries on my plate. He was like wow, you've eaten much more than I thought you would!
Oh no. I ate too much he even think I ate too much.
"Oh wow, you ate a LOT of fries! Look at the amount I have left"
okay I'm done for
I know he doesn't know how bad it is for me, and he doesn't know the effects of this but I guess we are cutting back food again guys :,)))
I gave my leftovers to him.
This was a sad day.
*Crying ab having 4n0r3xia cus I love food so much* Two seconds later
*Oh I'm fine now I was just hungry*
TW_ ed triggering content
I just started crying over boiled eggs they are like my safest food
and I have nothing else at home, just some tomatoes, rice cakes, no sugar yoghurt and eggs
that's all I own
3 eggs
and I tried boiling two and they cracked so they are ruined and I can still eat them but they are ruined and this was my only meal for the day and now it's not perfect and I just wanted to eat I'm so hungry I'm so so so hungry
I hate myself I hate my ed I hate fuckign boiked eggs

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*starving for days, strictly hating food*
Me, hungry: you know what? This whole ed thing kinda bullshit imma just go eat normally
*goes and eats normally*
Me: "see? that was pretty cool, I can eat without guilt!"
*cries and has a mental breakdown 4 hours later*
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Let us thank the people who have inverted smartbands that track calories burnt and steps taken, amen🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Why is this literally the most accurate shit ever? Like yes. I love baking for my boyfriend, but when I have to eat some of it... I will do it I just will have a mental breakdown after. nononononono <333
Having ana for attention, and faking ana for attention is two very different thing. The one that people always talk about, is when you don't actually have disordered thoughts about eating, but you act like to do in order to gain attention, which so many times makes it so that people with actual problems don't get recognised, and are unable to get help.
But starving *for* attention is oh so different.
When you starve so that your parents yell at you to eat, and for your friends to be impressed by how little you eat. For your partner to worry, for your loved ones to beg you to eat. To be fragile, and people be worried about you.
That's a different type of attention seeking, and it is not invalid ED.
And it's very sad.
Food log - 2023.02.08. Wednesday
Lunch - scrambled eggs (150) on butter (22) and onions (14), with ham (12), tomatoes (16), and crispbread (33). Coffee with oatmilk (50) and a bit of sugar (16) - 313
Energy drink - 115 (holy shit, accidentally bought the one with sugar in it, jesus)
coffee with soy milk - 66
Dinner- protein puding - 152
Snakkkkk: Apple - 48
Total: 694 - the energy drink made it go over my limit >:((( Burned: (smartwatch told me so) - 278
Net total: 416
Stay safe <33

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Food log - 2023.02.07.
Okay, I'm getting back to this.
Breakfast: apple (48), low cal yoghurt (53), coffee with oatmilk (50) and a tintsy bit of sugar (16) - 167kcal
Coffee with sugar (24) and oatmilk (50) - 74kcal
Lunch: tomatoes (21), ham (23.4), crispbreads (92), boiled eggs (155) - 291 kcal
This was a total of 532, and I would have stopped there but my boyfriend decided to go drinking, and after that we ate, and it's so suspicious to turn down food after a whole day of not eating AND drinking so I had to eat some. I don't know exactly, but approx. there was 475 cals in the food and 180 in the beer I had. Extra 650 kcals :,)
Total: 1182 Burned (smartband told me so): 114, but I didn't wear it the whole day NET total: 1068
Sad, sad day
Based on a true story
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Do you guys have any app recomendations for ed in general? I'm interested in intermittent fasting (like timers, reminders ect), low cal recipes, calorie tracking, workouts that I can do fairly silently (I live in a shared house), literally anything that you think helps.
Stay safe! <33
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Minors do not interact, this is for my 18+ people
Hey guys, a quick question to sexually active 4n4 mates.
I'm afraid to to very low cal restriction because of my period going away and me not knowing if I'm pregnant or not. So my question is, does any of you take birth control? If yes, do yo ustill get your period the same with very heavy restriction? And is the weight gain from the birthcontrol significant?
Thank you!
Does anyone else have these weird "healthy" episodes? Like I had a mental breakdown about gaining weight, and then woke up the next day and decided "I don't want to have an ed any more!"
So for a week I ate like a normal person. I ate white bread with jam for breakfast, I cooked curry for lunch, I ate a bowl of ramen for dinner, and I had some snacks, I didn't smoke. For a whole week, without feeling guilty at all.
And then I stepped on the scale, my weight obviously didn't change because I kept up a healthy amount of food, I started feeling fat again, every skinny girl on tiktok triggered something in me and here I am again. Resrticting.
How does this work????????

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Someone give me tips, or tag me on useful posts or idk.
A couple months ago, when I started this whole restricted business, it was so fine. I didn't struggle that much, I lost 5-6 kilogramms.
And then those months passed, i moved away, I started having porblems, restricting is harder, I binge all the time. I'm a university student so we drink a lot, calories everywhere. I gained 7 kg back, that puts me 1-2 kg above what I started with before the whole thing.
Someone help :,))) I want to go back at least 5 kg, but If I could drop 7-10 I'd be the happiest girl on tumblr.
i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over
today is the day
reblog the cherry pie to be ok