I know I haven't messaged in a while. I've been working on a lot of things like goals, life and a lot of other things. but someone I cared about so much about has passed away. the guy that taught me to work out. The guy that taught me about diet/swim and The guy I owe everything too Died on sunday night. he pushed his training too far and in effect caused him to have a heart attack (as far as we know for now.) I have never been so lost in all my life. I only have 1 grand parent left, I've lost aunties, uncles, brothers and other family members but this has hit me more than anything because it was someone I trusted in and put all my faith into. he was there when I was loosing weight, to stop eating disorders and to keep me in my place and he is gone and from this i feel alone and empty. I'm not going to Lie. tonight I had a few drinks to remember him, and played a few of his favourite songs and now I'm ruined and it's my own fault. I guess this is my space to vent until I know what to do without him. If you have got this far thank you for reading. Never take that asshole you love for granted. because sometime they'll save your live without taking into account they're own.

Thomas Harris (beardytriguy) is the most selfless person you could have met. He care more about other people more than his own safety/life/well being. He was loving, caring but secretive. he wouldn't let you know he gave to charity or anything he did, and I will miss him more than any other person that has passed in my life. without him I wouldn't The man I am mentally and I wouldn't be half the man I am physically.

I love you bro. and I will miss you every second of every day until we meet again (I hope)

I know I haven't messaged in a while. I've been working on a lot of things like goals, life and a lot of other things. but someone I cared about so much about has passed away. the guy that taught me to work out. The guy that taught me about diet/swim and The guy I owe everything too Died on sunday night. he pushed his training too far and in effect caused him to have a heart attack (as far as we know for now.) I have never been so lost in all my life. I only have 1 grand parent left, I've lost aunties, uncles, brothers and other family members but this has hit me more than anything because it was someone I trusted in and put all my faith into. he was there when I was loosing weight, to stop eating disorders and to keep me in my place and he is gone and from this i feel alone and empty. I'm not going to Lie. tonight I had a few drinks to remember him, and played a few of his favourite songs and now I'm ruined and it's my own fault. I guess this is my space to vent until I know what to do without him. If you have got this far thank you for reading. Never take that asshole you love for granted. because sometime they'll save your live without taking into account they're own.

Thomas Harris (beardytriguy) is the most selfless person you could have met. He care more about other people more than his own safety/life/well being. He was loving, caring but secretive. he wouldn't let you know he gave to charity or anything he did, and I will miss him more than any other person that has passed in my life. without him I wouldn't The man I am mentally and I wouldn't be half the man I am physically.