RhiannaRage

What do you do when you see history repeating itself? What do you do when you see it repeat the side that people my age fought so hard to defend against?

After WW1, Germany lost a lot of it’s territory and their people were struggling with the little resources they had. Of course, when someone rose up with a powerful voice and was showing results of better days with a blossoming society by enlisting it’s people to join they were going to support the cause. The people had jobs and were empowered. It didn’t matter if the support was going toward a hatred of people for a religion or color or sexual orientation. Did you know people with disabilities and LGBTQ were also taken to camps during WW2? 

America is taking away health care for those who need it. We are having people killed because of their gender identities and their love for someone who might not be considered the norm. We are letting people drink poison water and kill each other in Chicago. We are locking up everyone we possibly can instead of getting them help. We are going after people because of their race or religious beliefs. We are not supporting women. We are not supporting our work force. We are not support our future generation of kids. We are not supporting our Earth. We are so beyond in education. We are behind on technology and medical breakthroughs. We are seriously still using gas and oil. We have companies trying to hurt the solar industry. We have people addicted to prescription drugs. We don’t have enough mental health support. We are constantly put in a state of fear.

I have family members of color. I am afraid for them. I have kids in my family that I’m afraid have to live in this world. I am afraid they are not going to get the education they deserve. I am afraid they are going to be left a planet that will be turning into an oven. I’m afraid I won’t have a job one day because of my gender. I am afraid I won’t be able to afford insurance or a house. 

I didn’t vote for the man I now have to call my President. I look at these amazing leaders in Germany and Canada and wish so desperately for them to be running my country. I voted. I encouraged my friends to vote. I encouraged people to watch debates and educate themselves. I tried. Now I have a President who wants to put up a wall. Germany started putting up walls too pre-WW2. I ask myself sometimes if the wall is really to keep people from coming in or if it will be there to keep us from getting out. 

Our minds look for patterns. It’s what our brains are designed to do. I hear students who complain about history class. I was always taught to learn about history. I craved to learn more about not just US history but, world history. “If you do not learn history, it is bound to repeat itself.”

I’ve decided to not be afraid anymore. I’m not going to live in fear of a world that is full of people who live for the hate and fear. It sounds like that bullshit Love and Fear crap from Donnie Darko. Well I’m not subscribing to that anymore. I’ve decided to live in a world of Love and Respect. But to get that love and respect that humans, animals, and the fucking Earth deserves, I have to get angry. “I mad as hell and i just can't take it anymore.” (Network, 1978).

First step to solving any problem is recognizing that there is one. We might not be able to solve all of them overnight but, we have to start supporting one another and standing up for what is right. We shouldn’t be waging wars on our neighbors. People use to be able to go to the news and be informed without agendas. We now look towards comedians and the internet which has both helped and hurt us. We have people who say these strong voices that are meant to inform are fake. Well, if you honestly believe someone who has poured their time and energy into this research in a world where likes on social media mean more than their story they took the time to tell you is an issue that needs to be looked at then you are the problem. 

I am done with the bullshit. I am done with the “fake news” cry. DO YOUR RESEARCH. Do not let some stupid click-bait be your news source. Look at the story. Look at the writer. Look at the source. We live in a world with real news and a world with twisted words and a world with fake information and conspiracies. I have decided I want to take on this world. I might not have the greatest moral compass and I don’t claim to have one but, I see a problem and I want to fix it. I might not be able to fix it overnight but, hopefully I can fix it overtime. 

So, I’ve decided to document me going back to college full-time after going full-time then getting a decent paying job, moving out, going to 1 or 2 classes a semester, figuring out “fuck, these jobs do not pay nearly enough and I’m bored at of my mind”. 

WHAT I’VE LEARNED SO FAR...

First off, paying for college sucks ass (unless you’re an only child with a mommy and/or daddy that’s loaded). You are going to need a student loan or to quit your job so you can work on writing at least 10, 1,000 work essays for scholarships and hoping you get them. Seriously, that will be your new job. Right now, I’ve enrolled in 17 credit hours (about 5 classes). Most are going to be pretty fun classes (ie. actually something to do with my degree). The rest... well they are online so those won’t be that bad. Online classes in my experience are awesome. You can go ahead and don’t have to wait on the class or get lost while doodling during a lecture and miss important shit that will be on the exam next class. Oh, you also don’t need to buy those stupid scantrons... damn scantrons. You will end up buying these for your tests and some teachers will require you to have the BLUE scantrons while the others will require the RED scantrons. Seriously, it’s a real dick, conspiracy if you ask me. Trying to make the bookstore more money since you can get your books cheaper by renting them online... bullshit. And if your college/university class requires you to have a damn clicker, I am so sorry.