I Am You... You Are Me.

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Now I know you’re too smart of a man to take me at face value like that; especially when you barely know me. Which is fine, it’s what I strive for actually.

Not being interested is one thing, but y’all would be absolutely daft to think you’d become some stereotype. Sounds like you don’t know much about weed, and that’s fine…. But.

What’s so frightening about vunerability?

What-? What are you-

Talking about-?

HOW DARE YOU ASSUME I’M AFRAID OF ANYTHING, YOU HALFWITTED FOOL. YOU KNOW NOTHING OF ME NOR MY FEARS! WHICH ARE NONE! I HAVE NO FEARS! NONE AT ALL! NOTHING SCARES ME I AM THE EMBODIMENT OF TERROR I DO THE SCARING I DO NOT GET SCARED. I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND, WIPE THAT STUPID GRIN OFF YOUR FACE. 

Vulnerability is mankind’s weakness and I EXPLOIT IT! I know what happens to people who are vulnerable, I happen to people who are vulnerable! They are tortured and used and killed, chewed up and spit out by the world. I am too smart to have fear!! Too strong to have fear!!!

I DO NOT FEAR ANYTHING!!!

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You are. No doubtedly you are too large of a being for all of that.

No one wants to be held or controlled by fear, no one wants to be part of the shadows that forged them.. Trust me.

I get it.

It’s a weird feeling, being afraid of anything. Everything. 

It rears it’s ugly fucking head in when we think we’re doing okay, doing better, being on top of the entire God Forsaken World - just to tug you back down and smash your face into your own grave.

…In a way, though, it’s….. endearing. You need it, even if you pray every day to the stars in the sky that you wish you could have one day of peace. A quiet head. To feel power and actually mean it.

And it’s okay.

Because when you feel weak, and you get back up over and over and over and fucking over again after the months of fog and gray - you feel stronger. And it’s real. It’s as real as the pain you have to bury into the pit of your soul.

You feel stronger, and it’s absolutely worth it… Even it’s for a little while.

…What I’m saying is, that, I don’t believe you for a fucking second.

We’re all scared of something, even if it’s being scared in of itself. True power comes from turning it into a weapon. While I think you’re absolutely misguided at times, you’ve absolutely done that for sure.

Indeed I have learned to weaponize fear, but it is learning how to resist using it on yourself that’s the hard part. The truth is, I do fear.

I fear the fact that we can’t change the past, and can’t predict the future.

I cannot even sleep, for each fractal of dream is but a tease of the man I cannot be and the future I cannot have, before I am kicked down to a nightmare shoving the truth down my throat about the beast I’ve become and the past that shaped it.

I love myself, in every way, I’m a perfect specimen of anguish, but I am not perfect. I can be harmed..

*He looks down at Stone’s arms*

And harm done to oneself is far worse than anything I can do to others. Trust me, I know... there’s a reason I don’t take off my gloves.

So if this will ease the pain, silence the voices, and quell the flashbacks, even for a moment’s rest...

Previous Post –>

Now I know you’re too smart of a man to take me at face value like that; especially when you barely know me. Which is fine, it’s what I strive for actually.

Not being interested is one thing, but y’all would be absolutely daft to think you’d become some stereotype. Sounds like you don’t know much about weed, and that’s fine…. But.

What’s so frightening about vunerability?

What-? What are you-

Talking about-?

HOW DARE YOU ASSUME I’M AFRAID OF ANYTHING, YOU HALFWITTED FOOL. YOU KNOW NOTHING OF ME NOR MY FEARS! WHICH ARE NONE! I HAVE NO FEARS! NONE AT ALL! NOTHING SCARES ME I AM THE EMBODIMENT OF TERROR I DO THE SCARING I DO NOT GET SCARED. I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND, WIPE THAT STUPID GRIN OFF YOUR FACE. 

Vulnerability is mankind’s weakness and I EXPLOIT IT! I know what happens to people who are vulnerable, I happen to people who are vulnerable! They are tortured and used and killed, chewed up and spit out by the world. I am too smart to have fear!! Too strong to have fear!!!

I DO NOT FEAR ANYTHING!!!

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Jokes aside, I say again:

I am their master and they are my apprentices! And they are well aware of that!!!

My DNA does not make Damion a son to me, and his DNA does not make me a father to him!!

Anyway y’all ever smoke weed at all?