more than anyone in the fucking world.
rin itoshi x reader | masterlist
it was barely midday as you felt the full emotional weight of rins rejection. you had rehearsed this thousands of times in the mirror.
but rin barely glanced at your face, his voice dismissive, “im not interested.”
the words made you sick. around you, the courtyard was preparing for the spring festival, where rin was going to go with you. all you could see was rin turning away.
how could he. brush you off like you were nothing. like you were a random girl he could just throw away.
you had spent weeks building up courage, even using your most expensive perfume, and he had crushed your dreams with a careless sentence.
you turn around and speed walk away, keeping your head to the ground, fists clenched so tight that your nails made crescents in your palm.
the rest of the school day was a blur. you couldn’t think of anything but rin rejecting you.
you imagined him crawling to you, begging for forgiveness. you imagined him realizing what he had lost.
though, he probably wouldn’t even remember you by tomorrow.
you left the school, walking home alone. you decided to stop at a convenience store for some snacks to ease your heartache.
near the back, there was a small box with a red graphic.
the box read one wish willow.
you shove it in your pocket, you weren’t going to spend 6.99 on something probably fake.
you hand to the cashier with 2 points of ice cream and a dr pepper. they wished you a wonderful afternoon as you leave to head home.
you ripped the package open, the branch felt warm in your palm, almost alive.
you found a bench under a street light, you held the willow branch in both hands, closed your eyes.
“i wish itoshi rin would love me more than anyone in the fucking world. more than his stupid friends, more than his family, more than himself. i want him to think about me until he can’t breathe.”
the branch cracked in half in your hands.
you opened your eyes, half-expecting to see something miraculous, but everything was quiet.
“just as i thought, shits a scam.”
you stood up, continuing your walk home.
rin was in his room half-asleep, watching the shining in his dark room. the day had been uneventful. school, soccer practice, dinner, homework.
he already forgotten about the girl who asked him out. she was just another face in his life.
he laid covered in his comforter. and then, without any conscious thought, he found himself opening his yearbook.
he didn’t know why, he hadn’t touched the thing since the day it was handed out. but he sat back on his soft mattress with the book in his lap.
his fingers flipped through the pages, until he reached her class.
her face stared at him, her eyes were beautiful, her lips were parted as she smiled.
rin never realized how beautiful she was.
he stared at the photo, and stared, and stared.
he couldn’t look away, every time rin tried to blink, his eyes snapped back to the picture of you. the clock one the wall ticked, from 11:05, to 11:32, to 12:52.
all that existed was her face.
his hands reached out and traced her cheek, he whispered her name to himself. he didn’t understand why is his heart was racing, why is hands were all sweaty.
he has never felt this way about anyone.
he needed to see her again, to hear her voice, to smell her… to feel her skin against his.
a tear slipped from his eye. he didn’t understand why he was crying. this isn’t rin.
he knows this is unnatural. that part of him remembered the look in yns eyes when he had dismissed her.
but the other part of him overwhelmed him with devotion.
he gagged, bending over the edge of his bed and vomited, stomach acid and half-digested food hit his wood floor.
he retched again, and again. his body shook like he was trying to purge the unnatural part of him.
he stared at the mess on the floor, at the yearbook still in his lap.
what the fuck is happening to me.
he tried to stand, but his body wouldnt obey. instead, his hands reached for the year book again.
he pulled out his laptop, opening to the school website, finding all her disgusting teachers.
it was after midnight by now. rin smiled, “ynn..” he whispered. this time with a sigh of devotion, “im coming for you tomorrow, my love..”
the next morning, you got ready in the dawn sunlight coming from the window. you had gotten up earlier than usual as you couldn’t sleep, due to the emotional heart break you had gone through the previous day.
as you stepped outside, you spot a teal head peeking over the fence. rin, you would recognize him from anywhere.
you shut the door behind you, slowly walking over to him.
“um.. rin? what are you doing.” you ask. “waiting for you, obviously” he said with a slight smile.
you stare at him with a look of pure confusion, the guy that rejected you, is now at your femce, waiting for you?
you start your walk to school, hoping this was just some twisted prank he’s pulling on you.
though, he follows you, never more then an arms reach away.
“how long have you’ve been waiting here?” you ask, you notice that he has very obvious dark circles under his eyes.
“around 4, why?? do you want me to arrive earlier, yn?” he replied.
“n-no, just, rin, are you ok?”
“why wouldn’t i be.” he said, staring you dead in the eyes.
“if this is about yesterday, i’m so sorry, yn. i was an idiot, god. but i see you clearly now.” he grabs your hand and attempts to interlock fingers with you.
you pull away quickly, “rin, stop.. you’re freaking me out.”
“please don’t pull away from me.” he said, his voice cracking. “i can’t stand when you pull away.. i’ve been thinking about you all night. i couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep. i just kept looking at your photos all night, i wanted to die because i couldn’t touch you.”
“you’re sick.” you blurted out. “you need to see a nurse or something, im sorry.”
rins smile faded and was replaced by confusion. “im fine.” he said to you softly, “im better than fine, thats because im with you now, thats all i need.”
the morning bell rang, students walked passed them noisily.
you took this as an opportunity to flee from him, speed walking to school without looking back. he doesnt let you, though. he follows you the entire way.
you enter your homeroom, feeling someone behind you the entire time. you finally gain the courage to turn around and confront him. “rin, you dont even have first period with me!”
“i do, i transferred. anyone would if they were in my shoes” he said with no change in emotion.
“just stop following me!” you yell at him, silencing the few other conversations around you.
you sat in class as he stared at you.
the wish actually worked?
but it wasn’t the “love” i imagined
maybe just a little bit of begging
this is weird.. how do i get him to stop
at the end of the period, you gathered your books and blended in with the crowd, heading to the library. no matter what. it was impossible to lose him, it was like he had eyes just for you!
he came to your study table, shooing away one of your friends. he had a black coffee in his hands. “i didnt know how you like it,” he said, shoving it into your hands. “so i got black, i can add sugar if you want, or cream. whatever you like. just tell me, yn. tell me everything you like, i want to know everything about you.”
you stared at the cup, seeing your reflection in the coffee. “rin, this is insane. you dont even know me, literally yesterday you said you weren’t interested.”
“i was wrong” he said to you. “i was so wrong, and ill spend the rest of my life making it up to you. please, yn. let me make it up to you.”
his eyes were wet with tears. a part of you, the part crushed by his rejection, was thrilled by the sight. but the other part was disgusted.
“i have to go to class.” you said, standing up from the seat. “dont follow me.”
you walked away with your heart pounding in fear.
but obviously, you heard his footsteps behind you. you ducked into the girls rest room.
he waited outside, leaning against the wall. you could see his shadow against the wall.
“rin.” you yelled, your voice filled with frustration. “go to your own classes! leave me alone. please!”
“im in all the same classes as you, ive told you this. ive switched my schedule so were together all day now.”
the wish really doesn’t do half measures, huh.
you still stayed in the bathroom, attempting to skip to the next period. but rin grew increasingly worried after the warning bell rang. “yn, come out please.” he pleads.
you hide in the stall, putting your bag and feet up, invisible to the outside. you hear footsteps entering and put your hands over your mouth to cover your panicked breath.
“yn, you’re scaring me. where are you.” he says as he kicks on the stall next to you. you let a small peep out at the loud bang that drew his attention.
“ynnn..” he stared at you through the crack, “please come out, i don’t want to break the door down.”
you slowly unlock the door, your hands shaking. the second you step outside, rin grabs you by the hand, pulling you out.
you jerked away, but he didn’t take any offense. he smiled and said, “ill walk you to biology!”
in the classroom, you sat at your usual desk. while rin sat at the desk next to you, a desk that belonged to someone else.
eventually, a red head came up to him, “hey, you’re in my seat.”
rin didn’t even look at him, his sight was fixed on you, the way your hair blew in the wind, the way your neck curved to slow your pulse.
“find another one.” he said.
the red head blinked, “what? no, i always sit there.”
rin turned his head slowly, “i said. find another one.” rin repeated.
the redhead was visibly nervous at this point, instead of futilely arguing, he just shuffled to the empty seat the back.
you started to feel sick again.
later, at lunch, you sat with your friends, he forcefully squeezed inbetween the girl next to you, making everyone uncomfortable.
“so, uhm, rin,” your friend started. “when did you and yn get so close?..”
he ignored her question, his eyes never left you.
“baby, you’re not eating? are you not hungry? you can eat my lunch, please eat it” he pushes his lunch to you.
“just sit down, rin. and stop acting like this infront of my friends.” you whisper.
“acting like what?” he looked confused. “like someone who loves you more than anyone in the whole world?”
no one spoke as you looked away embarrassed.
“so.. uhh. did you guys like hook up?” your friend asks.
“no.” you snapped. “hes just.. acting weird..”
rin didn’t deny it, he laced his fingers with yours under the table. his thumb stroking your knuckles.
“im not leaving you.” he murmured. “not ever, i promise. i dont care what these pigs think.”
im sorry this is so buns.. i proof read it but it didnt save the first time so i hate tumlbr
@reverd-ck i forgot i need to read the thing u wrote
