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    elli was taken aback by her words --    he knew she was having struggles,    but to actually hear such a despair-    rooted comment...it was hard.

    “you...wh- why? what..where are you    going?”                   he tried to look her in the eye,    but he couldn’t; he felt his chest tighten    and his breath struggle to get out. 

    immediately, elli leaned down, letting her    wrap an arm across his shoulders.

“Ow…I think I broke something.”

“Can I lean on you for a second? My ankle’s bothering me.”

“Do you have any bandages?”

“Oh god, that hurts so much.”

“Everything hurts. Seriously, I think I broke myself.”

“I can’t walk.”

“Sorry about the blood trail. I might have gotten a bad gash.”

“Is is bad that I can’t feel my legs?”

“I’ve never felt this much pain in my life.”

“Are you okay? Are you bleeding?"

“Here, let me help, I took a course on this a few years ago.”

“Does anyone know first-aid?”

“That’s a pretty bad bruise, man.”

“You definitely need to go to the hospital.”

“Where’d you get all these cuts?”

“Lie down. Sit somewhere, you need to rest.”

“I’ll get the ice.”

“I can’t believe you got yourself beaten up again.”

1: "I, I just can't..."

2: "You choose to leave!"

3: "Stop- just stop!"

4: "I didn't ask for this."

5: "I'm so sorry. Please believe me."

6: "I'm not okay. I'll never be okay."

7: "I can't even look at you!"

8: "I'm never going to forgive you for what you did."

9: "I just... I can't get over what happened."

10: "I'm sorry I'm not perfect!"

11: "I just don't want to see you again."

12: "I can't even be in the same room as you."

13: "I know you don't want to see me, but I just can't give up on you!"

14: "It's all my fault... all of it."

15: "What happened wasn't your fault!"

16: "You couldn't have known what would happen!"

17: "I knew if I did it I would mess everything up, but I did it anyway."

18: "I can't forgive myself for what I did."

19: "Some people don't deserve forgiveness."

bold what applies to your muse: angst edition.

i) when reacting to extreme pain or trauma (inflicted on THEM) your muse feels; helpless | angry | afraid | shocked | defeated | detached | unreal | nothing | cathartic

ii) when reacting to extreme pain or trauma (inflicted on OTHERS) your muse feels; helpless | angry | afraid | shocked | defeated | detached | unreal | nothing | cathartic

iii) in a life-and-death situation, your muse would; save themselves first | risk their life for someone else | risk their life only for someone they care about

iv) has your muse done any of the things mentioned in the third question (above) and regretted it? yes | no

v) has your muse ever; lost a loved one | lost a family member | personally seen someone close to them die | personally seen someone close to them commit suicide | attempted to / successfully commit an act of suicide | been in a war

you love hoodies. you love shorts. dogs are better than cats. it’s hilarious when people get hurt. shopping is torture. sad movies suck. you own(ed) a car racing game. you played with hot wheels cars as a kid. at some point in time you wanted to be a fire fighter. you owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega. you used to be obsessed with power rangers. you have watched sports on tv. gory movies are cool. you go to your dad for advice. you own like a trillion baseball caps. you used to collect hockey or baseball cards. baggy sweats are cool to wear. it’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. you love to go crazy and not care what people think. sports are fun. you talk with food in your mouth. you sleep with your socks on at night. you have fished at least once.

YOUR STEREOTYPICALLY FEMININE SIDE

you love to shop. you wear eyeliner. you wear the color pink. you go to your mom to talk. you consider cheerleading a sport. you hate wearing the color black. you like going to the mall. you like getting manicures and/or pedicures. you like wearing jewelry ribbons. you cried watching the notebook. dresses are a big part of your wardrobe. shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. you don’t like the movie star wars. you are/were in gymnastics. it takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up. you smile a lot more than you should. you have more than 10 pairs of shoes. you care about what you look like. you like wearing dresses when you can. you like wearing high heel shoes. you used to play with dolls as little kid. you like putting make-up on others. you like being the star of everything.

APPEARANCE

i am shorter than 5’5”. i have many scars. i tan easily. i wish my hair was a different color. i have friends who have never seen my natural hair color i have a tattoo. i am self-conscious about my appearance. i’ve had/have braces. i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger. i have more than two piercings. i have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

EXPERIENCES

i’ve gotten lost in my city. i’ve seen a shooting star. i’ve wished on a shooting star. i’ve seen a meteor shower. i’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. i’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. i’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. i’ve been to a casino. i’ve been skydiving. i’ve gone skinny-dipping. i’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. i’ve crashed a car. i’ve been skiing. i’ve been in a musical. i’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. i’ve seen the northern lights. i’ve sat on a rooftop at night. i’ve played a prank on someone. i’ve ridden in a taxi. i’ve seen the rocky horror picture show. i’ve eaten sushi. i’ve been snowboarding.

HONESTY/CRIME

i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t. i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t. i’ve snuck out. i’ve lied to my parents about where i am. i’ve cheated while playing a game. i’ve ran a red light. i’ve witnessed a crime. i’ve been in a fist fight. i’ve been arrested.

DEATH AND SUICIDE

i’m afraid of dying. i hate funerals. i’ve seen someone/something dying. someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide. i’ve written a eulogy for myself.

RANDOM

     she couldn’t deny her heart flutters ever so slightly at the sound of the now-somewhat-familiar voice of her new friend. she couldn’t deny that he was half of the reason why she had come to visit the hospital again so soon.

       she turned around, a small smile on her face as she offered the male a short hug. “elli!! it’s nice to see you again- i’m glad to see you up and about-”

  it made her feel hopeful to see him walking around. sure, he was still in the hospital, but if he was strong enough to be walking around, that meant he must have been feeling fairly decent today, right?

    without hesitation, he wrapped his arms around her.      he hoped she didn’t mind a little extra affection. he      was just glad to see her again...even if they’d only      just met. he’d never been close to anyone before.      he hardly made it past the acquaintance stage!

     “it’s nice to see you, too!” he smiled as he pulled      away, deeming that a long enough hug. 

    graciously, the doctors had deemed him healthy     enough to walk around the campus again -- thanks     to meeting yuuki and hanging out with her that day,     the doctors felt a lot more comfortable with his     condition.  

    while he was out, he saw that familiar figure again;     he had to thank her, not only because he wasn’t     trapped in bed all day, but because he hadn’t...had     people who seemed like they liked him.

    “yuuki-” elli called out nervously, afraid to be to loud,     “you’re yuuki, right?”

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

[DRAFT] last night, i heard your mom speak to me.

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[SENT FRIDAY] im nto even allowed tjo drink[SENT FRIDAY] ixm a bad boy[SENT FRIDAY] your btad  boey (;

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[SENT MONDAY] i shouldn’t even be up right now[SENT MONDAY] i just ... really wanted to see you ...[SENT MONDAY] sorry... good night.

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text. I CAN’T DO IT IM S  ORRY 

Send “&” for a LOVING text.[SENT WEDNESDAY] thanks for sticking around, you’ve really made me happy![SENT WEDNESDAY] i want you to be happy, too.♥

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[SENT SATURDAY] sTOP TEASING ME MOM YUUKI AND I AREN’T A THING[SENT SATURDAY] oh no

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.