you should call your mom back,
and apologize,
even if youâre not sure whyÂ
youâre sorry, just that you
have been, for awhile now,Â
just sorryÂ
tell her that your stove caught on fire the first time
you actually used it, laugh, tell her
âactually, you were right, i have no ideaÂ
how to cook,â
text your best friend back,
i know she and you are growing apartÂ
but itâs okay, not all gaps areÂ
impossible to tread across
tell her that last night you ate so much
you felt like you were going to explodeÂ
sixteen cups of spinach becauseÂ
it was all that was left in the fridge andÂ
calories donât count if theyâre vegetables
say, âi have no idea why i bought it,
i hate that shit,â invite her over
to eat ice cream next time instead.
make the bed. take a shower. shave your legs
or your head, whichever makes you feel
less burdened.
donât message your ex. i know youâre lonely
in a way that is icing your blood so yourÂ
heart is stuttering in your chest
instead write a letter to your grandmother
you know she loves them and besides
she gets lonely, too,
maybe sheâll explain how to survive
to you, say, âhey, itâs been a whileÂ
iâm on my own now,
but grandma,
i think iâm kinda
getting the hang of this,
so thanks for watching out for us kids.â
go to sleep, my love. everything seems better
in the morning sun.
