raf

something diabolical about being a system is that it seemingly just never ends. yes im in therapy, yes I am actively trying to attempt healing (what that end goal is, I dont know), but anything can be a setback. I get new trauma, another set back and another split, I get into an intense argument with my parents, another split and more amnesia, I have issues in my relationship, more dissociation, another split. theres just more. its another piece of us that just decides to be tucked away from us. I love my system, I love all of our parts and how much they do for us but its just so stressful. I hate having to juggle both my internal struggle with the outside as well. I dont have enough time in a day to care for all of it and it just leads to me not.