you're cold & i burn

she nodded along as jordan spoke. at this point, the only thing she could hope for was for this awkward period in their friendship to be over as quickly as possible. “yeah,” she quietly agreed but couldn’t help but perk up at the brunette’s last comments. “— i’m… what?” she managed, confused but quickly reminded herself that jordan didn’t have romantic feelings for her. that’s the kind of behavior that landed her in this situation in the first place. reaching for her friend’s knee, she smiled. “thanks.”

‘ i can’t help it ! ’  rose insisted, a little pout forming on her lips. ‘ well then, hannah’s ghost, is there any way i’ll get alive hannah back ? ’

“i know, i know. i really should have kept my big mouth shut but i don’t know. it was just getting too much to bear. i kept it in for like ages and it felt like i was going to EXPLODE if i didn’t tell you how i felt but now i’ve just made everything super awkward because, hello. obviously, you’re not into me.”

her arms wrapped around her tightly as she placed little kisses to the top of her head. tyler would leave them alone if he saw those papers, and if he still wanted to take them to court, then she knew no judge would side with him. everything was going to be legal, and she knew that this was best for mia. she needed genevieve in her life, she was her mother so if this was what she had to do, then she could help her fill out some forms. a happy sigh slipped her lips as she gave her another soft kiss to her forehead. “so, how was work, beside tyler being a dick and showing up.” hopefully other then tyler she had a pretty good day at work. gently she rubbed her back and pulled their covers up a bit more. “mia went to bed pretty easily tonight, but i wouldn’t be surprised if she woke up in a couple of hours.” 

❝ agreed, besides, it didn’t help that the lead singer was a little too cute for words. but hey, i’d be more than happy to write a song about you.. i’ll write it, but you have to sing it. ❞ a sly smile manages to creep up on both ends of her lips, eventually extending from ear to ear as her glances from the ground to look at her new roommate. she had figured her eye contact after some time would become too.. overwhelming, & the last thing she wanted was to scare away another roommate. for now, she’d just go with the motions in order to see what her new friend was all about, there seemed to be no shame in that, whatsoever.  ❝ well that’s good to know, at least i don’t have to walk in without barging in on you doing something extremely crazy. i mean, i’m not usually one to nark on anyone, i’m always focused on their health before their drug addiction. ❞ delilah rolls her eyes with this, seeing that some people use their money to harm themselves rather than what they came to the school for. it was a school, no matter what way that you wished to twist it, so an education would be the key to getting delilah through the summer. once it came to her knowledge that boarding school would be her next destination, it was obvious that delilah knew what her upcoming tasks would be. focusing on the classes, over studying for tests, breaking night for projects, all while exploring her newly crowned sexuality were all going to be hard to maintain. but, drooling over kailani seemed much more important that any of that stuff right about now. ❝ wow.. i’m complaining about not having any brothers or sisters of my own, i can’t imagine what that must be like. of course, with you basically watching over them, makes you mature & responsible in your own way. ❞ delilah tried her best to be sympathetic, she knew how massive it felt to have to grow up before your age. sighing, she continues to fiddle with her thumbs while moving the unwanted strands of hair away from her face before clearing her throat, knowing that this wasn’t going to be easy. ❝ more like parent, my mom passed away recently, but, uh.. yeah. combined, they’re really strict & don’t seem to understand that concept, so.. ❞ a moment of silence fills the air, before she gets ready to ask her next question. ❝ how do you do it ? you know, be.. out ? like, doesn’t it get hard dealing with all the negativity ? ❞

‘ but i can’t ! ’ she even pouts, because it seems like such a hard task.

“please don’t say things like that. of course it’s enough. i just got a little greedy and that’s not your fault. like at all. this is all on me.”

that had to put tyler in his spot. sure there was going to be so much paperwork and it was going to be a long process, but she knew that it was going to be worth it in the end. at the end of the day, she knew that everything would be fine and that mia would legally have her two mommies. her smile widened as she kissed her cheek once again. “exactly. i mean i want to make it all legal and everything. fight fire with fire and everything.” she said with a little nod and feeling her smile widen a bit more. “it’s going to be great, i can’t wait. we have all of this happening, it’s so exciting isn’t it?” 

“i think i just might need you to. just for a little while.”

‘ well, we can’t have that !  i’d never be able to live with myself. ’

❝ oh my god, you’re right… honestly, i remember just yelling the lyrics whenever it played on mtv or something, those were much simpler times. they’re beautiful, yeah, but they aren’t anything compared to roses. seems to me that they’re always second place to something. ❞ she was never the one to talk about her feelings, so for delilah to sort of beat around the bush when it comes to telling the truth really opened her eyes, now she felt as if she could accomplish ANYTHING. but the first thing on her list was being happy, and she could only do that by fully acceptable who she really was. ❝ i would’t want to be questioned by authority if anything happened to you, i hope you know that. if you’re going to do it, then do it when i’m not around.. or sleeping. ❞ she watched the other sit there so perfectly, almost angel like, just wanting to tell her more about her but she’d have to think for an answer to this sin she was about to commit. ❝ you can say that again, especially since it’s the truth. ❞it was like the devil was trying to CORRUPT her in this situation, lord only knows she was more than ready to give into temptation. she could feel her plump cheeks get ( hot & red ) as she continued to give the other her undivided attention, the same thing she did in every conversation she’d share. ❝ there’s nothing wrong with that, though. you know, having people rely on you, it really helps keep you grounded in a way, if you keep in mind that they NEED you. ❞it was always complicated for delilah to express her true feelings for anyone, let alone her own family, but it was a new year & she was trying to become a better person for her own sake.❝ there’ a slight possibility that i might be.. uh, into girls. ❞ at this point, it feels like a weight has been lifted off of her shoulders as she has finally confessed her darkest secret. ❝━━ can i ask you something ? ❞

“you know what? forget it. don’t worry about it. i’m just being selfish. obviously, i can’t stop being around you. you’re my best friend. i’m just going to have to get over myself.”

a little chuckle slipped his lips as she looked over at her and shrugged her shoulders a little bit. as much as she did want to tell her what was on her mind, she just wanted her to be up for all of this. of course she should be, mia was her daughter after all. “what if…” she muttered as she gently cupped her face. “you adopted mia.” she muttered as she shrugged her shoulders. “i mean, i know i look at you as her mother but i want it to be official you know?” she said with a little nod before kissing her nose gently. “what do you think? i want everyone and anyone to know that you’re her mom too.” 

❝ delilah isn’t as glorious as people seem to make it out to be, i’ll tell you that much. my mom just REALLY like dahlias & decided to change the spelling, the rest was history.❞ her words were strong & raspy like usual, a tone that could differentiate her from any crowd of wannabees. the blush returned to her now rosy textured cheeks, a smile creeping up on the corners of her lips, a hand running swiflty through her black curls once more. it was debatable whether her new roommate had a thing for the same sex, delilah wasn’t completely oblivious to that, she figured she’d just become friends with her & take almost everything as a compliment, which she would do regardless. but honestly, there was a small part of her that wondered what time spent next to kailani would be like, although her beliefs basically don’t approve of that, she was obviously conflicted. ❝ oh, that doesn’t sound so.. safe, ❞ she started, a look of concern finds it’s way to her cherubic features now. ❝ but you’re right. you would think that it’s almost expected for the topic of money to show up around here. ❞ a little sigh finds it’s way between her plump & cherry red colored lips as she fumbles around the bed, looking for a comfortable position. ❝ it’s not all ( peaches & cream ) where i come from, my parents are SUPER strict & sent me here to i can stop thinking about wome           you know what ? let’s just focus on       uh, being roomies !❞

❝  that’s way cuter than lil’ ol’ delilah.. that’s for sure, ❞ she cleared her throat before sending another smile in the other girl’s direction. she speaks relatively slow & polite like she usually did around new people, her fingers running themselves through her dark black locks as she continues to analyze her new pal. there was just something so different about the other that delilah couldn’t quite figure out, but of course it was too early for her to have a slight prejudgment. her parents had always taught her to respect other as she would want others to treat her, making her such a responsible & very friendly person with time & church, being happy was basically something she excelled at more than life itself. reality soon backed over her mind, her ears trying their best to process her words after the sudden daydream she had just experienced. ❝  she probably did, not that i would know, of course. but what would she do? like, to get kicked out of here, i mean?  ❞a patch of goosebumps gracefully sweep across her arm as she continues to get into more contact with the other, her brown orbs don’t leave kailani’s for a second.❝  anyway, ━━ i’m here to, well, find myself. it’s a boarding school, so that should definitely help sort out my.. um, problems.  ❞