back when midnight sun was officially announced, i wrote a post talking about my experience as a white fan of the series, back when i was younger and as i’ve grown and educated myself and interacted with the fandom more and more. now that tumblr lets you pin a post, i wanted to make a new post for resources, because the original post is a lot to scroll through and i wanted the links to be more accessible + easier to find.
under the cut is links to learn about racism (both in general and specifically anti- indigenous, as that is the largest issue present in the twilight books), ways to help, and links to check out various indigenous creators that deserve your support. always open to suggestions of links to add, in any of the categories. if i have linked your post/blog/website/etc. and you do not want it linked, please let me know and i will remove it asap. updated often.
most important: the quileute tribe is currently working on their move to higher ground project. many of their lands are currently in flooding danger zones, and this project is (as the name suggests) working to move to safer areas so they can continue to thrive. if you are able, please consider donating to that project here.
great news! the quileute tribe has begun construction on the new school.(x) there are still many phases to this project however, so please continue donating to them if you are able!
please let me know if a link is incorrect, if i made any type of error, or if there is a way this can be easier to navigate!
as of november 22nd, 2020, most links have been moved to a carrd! please go there for many, many resources that aren’t below.
twilight-specific education links:
the quileute tribe’s website: (x)
the truth vs. twilight, from the burke museum: (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x)
for more on fandom racism, check out fandomshatepeopleofcolor on tumblr. they have a tag for twilight which is a great resource to learn more details about the racism in twilight. this post is also quite helpful.
this post from kissingcullens which lists more resources and ways to help.
further information on anti- indigenous racism in media on doesthendnlive, again on tumblr. they have a tag on twilight, and specific posts on jacob, emily, and leah.
here’s an article on anti- indigenous racism and misogyny in twilight. (this website as a whole features a lot of articles on racism in media, i believe with a focus on anti-black media.)
the “twilight” renaissance, racism, and white feminism - a video essay on the racism in twilight and its fanbase. trigger warnings included at the beginning of the video. it is captioned, if needed.
RACE THROUGH BELLA’S EYES: CONTENDING RACIAL DEPICTIONS IN NEW MOON AND ECLIPSE
an article from the nyt on the affects the series has on the tribe
post by carlislesscarf about everything that’s wrong with the books
more organizations* to donate to:
australian indigenous education foundation
black rainbow
bridging the gap
california indian legal services
changetherecord
covid19 relief fund for navajo and hopi vamilies
first nations development institute
friends of pine ridge reservation
heyday berkely roundhouse
lakota people’s law project (thanks to @leahclearwaterdefensesquad for providing this link!)
meskwaki food sovereignty initiative
national indian child welfare association
the national indigenous women’s resource center
native american food sovereignty alliance
native americans in philanthropy
native american rights fund
navajo water project
news from native california magazine
soveriegn bodies institute
wôpanâak language reclamation project
big google doc of places
*these organizations are either directed to all indigenous people in a variety of ways, or for a different specific tribe. links to help the quileute are above the cut, with the higher ground project. if you know of more, PLEASE let me know!
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On the one hand, Edward and Bella’s reunion is sweet and cathartic (Edward being sure he’s dead and somehow in heaven because she’s there!!) and has juuuust enough angst with Bella worrying if Edward’s going to disappear anyway again but enjoying his presence while she has him. And the “blackest kind of blasphemy” speech? *chef’s kiss*
On the other hand it is SO LAME that Edward suddenly doesn’t have to worry about his bloodlust anymore around Bella. Like I get it it’s so perfectly Edward to be ~fixed~ by knowing true heartbreak but like. The guy essentially starved himself for months and then had his singer literally slam into him.
How about he gets her back only to immediately have her in peril again because they’re reunited— an echo of the inciting incident for him leaving in the first place. Bloodlust-wise, it’s like that first day in Biology all over again but so much worse because 1. this time and there’d be witnesses right the fuck in Volterra the worst place on Earth for a vampire to attack a human with witnesses, 2. He doesn’t have to just hold on for an hour and then run off to some remote place with lots of animals to hunt this time; he’s got to face the freakin Volturi with Bella right next to him and 3. (most importantly) Bella’s not a stranger this time.
So he’s euphoric over Bella being alive and with him, but it’s drowned in the lake of fire in the pits of this hell of his own making. When the ordeal with Aro is done he can’t run off, he has to ride in a car and planes (enclosed spaces!! Boy is NOT breathing) without killing Bella…
And when they’re finally home, what does he do? Again, leaving even to hunt is unbearable, but if he doesn’t hunt he can’t hardly breathe around her, which means no talking, which means no explaining that he’ll just be gone for a couple of hours, and hopefully when he returns he’ll be in control enough to beg for her to take him back. He was gone for months, and in a horrible headspace; desensitizing won’t take as long as the first go-around but it won’t be instantaneous either. He’s got to show Bella how much he really cares about her while barely talking to or touching her. Maybe he chances taking her hand at some point on the ride home, but that’s all he has to give
From Bella’s perspective, it doesn’t change much; just amplifies the doubt. Even with Edward obviously being happy to be with her again in canon, she’s convinced he’s going to leave again at first chance. In this divergence he’s speaking through clenched teeth to answer Aro’s questions (I doubt Aro is going to help explain things to Bella after reading Edward), not saying a word to her the whole way home. His eyes might show a hint of his pleading, but mostly Bella misinterprets his hunger as him being pissed off. Even if Alice tries to help Edward communicate, there’s way too much room for Bella to catastrophize
So even if Bella fully forgives and trusts him as quickly as she does in canon (which… nah), this gives Edward some more concrete consequences
I would like to add to this a headcanon that when a vampire is really, really hungry, the entirety of their eyes go black. Sclera and all. Like so:
I’m not throwing this into the mix just because it looks cool (though it does, of course)… part of the reason this looks so creepy is it cancels out an avenue of nonverbal communication. The evolutionary advantage to white sclera is more accurate gaze following: humans infer where other humans are looking based on which way their head is facing + the amount of white visible (and on which side it’s visible). Having limited/no contrast between sclera/iris/pupil means that Bella is missing yet another cue from Edward. In this AU/rewrite he can’t speak once he gets a whiff of Bella, and with his eyes like this she can’t even properly place his attention. To cap it all off, she’s finally with him but she can’t properly look him in the eye.
So Bella slams into Edward in the plaza, and the smell of his singer to his starved mind makes his eyes go from black irises to fully blacked out. He’s already pale and gaunt, and now his eyes look empty.
He grits his teeth and goes statue-still to keep from attacking her. He can’t speak. He’s never looked less human. He’s never looked so despondent. So unhinged. He’s never looked so scary.
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