Iâm Ren :3 and I make art of whatever as my hobby. My fixations have been jumping around as of late but I hope you enjoy what you see!
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It's been just over a year since Deltarune chapters 3 & 4 released! I did the 3D work, which mostly means Tenna đş I figured it's been long enough to share some "behind the scenes" stuff, starting with a look at the Maya file for his static poses...
I'd individually render the poses to get that early 3D shine ⨠Here's some of them at their original resolutions! I would work from text descriptions from Toby, and sometimes there'd be a Paint sketch to help out. Gigi drew the concept that I modeled from and some poses too!
I had a lot of fun pushing myself to match the dynamic poses Toby had in mind for Tenna - making him so crazy and expressive was something I couldn't have done without his prompts. He'd draw the faces on afterward too, which really brought Tenna to life!
(lots more after the Read More cut...!)
Here are some of the Paint sketches Toby drew to help me with specific Tenna poses! I love seeing his drawings LOL, genuinely really good and evocative đ
There was a time when I was struggling to capture what he wanted for these specific Tenna poses⌠Until Toby acted them out himself, and I thought, "Ah, it's like that. I understand." and then I was able to make them just how he pictured them.
When looking through the renders and choosing what to share, I laughed at these two⌠Remember when Tenna had a gun? Remember when he bent over in a very specific way that might remind you of another, different image? No? Maybe you don't� Well. Don't worry about it.
These ones are cute⌠Tenna is pretty cute sometimes! Has anyone ever thought this? Actually, before people knew he was going to be a strange 3D sprite the Whole Time, I was worried people wouldn't like the style and it'd sour people's views on him. I'm glad that didn't happen.
Toby thought it would be funny to have Tenna do some really smooth, mocapped animations sometimes - specifically free to use ones that often pop up in other things. An extra funny part to me is how many frames these take up in the game, and how his tails are stuck to his legsâŚ
Speaking of mocap, Toby wanted Tenna to use custom mocap animations as far back as 2016 - Ten(na) years ago! I got an Xbox Kinect at the time and learnt how to set this up, but then never used it. Here's a look at messing with mocaped stuff again in 2022. So Normal.
Don't bother trying to help him here, he's just being dramatic đ
I particularly like these poses - I think I improvised most of these just based off the context they get used in⌠I always liked posing his tie and coat tails as if they were also parts of his body he could move. Which I guess they are?
After I rendered out the individual poses in high quality, I'd force the color palette to be limited to just a few shades and then I'd shrink the result down to pixel sized sprites. Like these! I'd tidy them up a little, but they'd really get improved on at the pixel scale by Clairvoire.
As well as Tenna's sprites, I also worked on his intro "movie"âŚ! Seeing people be completely overloaded by this on first playthroughs would always make me laugh. In game, there's a ton of extra editing done by Everdraed, but my unedited cut looks like this âŹď¸
This was the entire storyboard I had to work from, and I'm realizing now that there's the note "put him in car etc" that I never did and actually don't know what it would mean exactly. Working on this had me listen to the accompanying audio many times, but it's good so it's okay.
Here are a bunch of random clips of the Maya project for Tenna's intro movie. This is how movies get made, I think!! Yeah⌠Just like this.
Say it with him, folks!!
For the 3D Ralsei clip from the intro, Toby really wanted it to look a certain way, and drew more sketches for guiding me with this part than any other. They genuinely helped.
Remember how Toby's original storyboard has the note "covered in slime and shrinks"? That meant I had to learn how to make 3D slime. You can see my tech advancing here.
I'm really happy with how the final Tenna animation at the end of the intro movie turned out! It wouldn't look as good if it wasn't for some 2D animation to reference from SmallBuStudio, so thank you to them for the help! Tenna is cute⌠Huh, I already said that�
Phew!! That's a lot of Tenna. I hope it was fun to look through my posts! Oh, one more thing - the Fangamer Mr. Tenna Figurine just straight up uses the 3D model I made, which I think is really funny and cool and nice. Check it out if you want! Thanks for reading!
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Tempted to start discussing my BB Tomcat Blues AU hereâŚ. I still have some more plan and prep to do but I think itâll be fun to talk about đđ
How well each BlushBlush guy would handle injections in their Manimal form đđŚ
NOTE: This is in a universe where typical procedure takes into account the dignity of animal-shaped people, so physical restraint isnât immediately required even for larger âwildâ Manimals, unless deemed necessary
CW: discussion of hypodermic needles, anxious behavior in medical environments, sedation (suggested, but not applied to any guy), IâM NOT A FULLY TRAINED VETERINARY/MEDICAL PROFESSIONALâTHIS IS JUST FOR FUN
đ Takes it like a champ (average nervousness with injections and not much different from behavior when human, braces/flinches slightly when poked)âŚ
Logan, Kelby, Ace, Xianyun, Aki, Cole, Stirling, Dmitri, Reece, Mac
đ Would rather not be here (evident discomfort and/or anxiety, any preexisting fear of needles worsened by change in relative size as a Manimal, minimal physical restraint despite human sapience MAY be necessary for liability reasons)âŚ
đ Literally not bothered (normal Tuesday for them, used to pain/medical procedure/needles)âŚ
William, Seth, Haru, Poe
đ Bordering on needing chemical restraint (PHYSICAL RESTRAINT NECESSARY, usually due to sheer size and/or amount of stress displayed but can be reasonably distracted by food/physical comfort/talking through it)âŚ.
I was really torn with Scale between Rather Not Be Here and Almost Chemical Restraint but I donât think heâd let himself get hysterical like Ichiban wouldâŚ
Ichiban kinda makes sense but I know Sven is a bit of an odd choice. The way I saw it is that heâs a very large hedgehog. I assume heâs just like any other hedgehog past the art stylization, so he still has tiny little veins and that full back of quills. I also think heâs a massive baby about needles (headcanon) so that doesnât help qojewkke
Itâs less that the clinic would be worried that Sven would hurt people on accident like Ichiban, but more that he could seriously harm himself if he moves around too much without Any restraint. I also just think the environment would stress Sven out because not only is it shots and the doctors office, but everything around him is like 5 times bigger. Definitely not gonna be fun, so itâs better to just make sure it can get done as quickly and easily as possibleâŚ
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âwhat are you doing this weekendâ i am going to fantasy land. i am hiding under the covers in bed. i am making things up. i am contemplating events that didnt happen. i am talking to fake people. i am listening to my tunes. i am envisioning scenarios
So I remember reading about this study in grad school where they have a bunch of clinically depressed people and a bunch of non-clinically-depressed people a game that was partially chance and partially skill, and asked them to estimate how much control they had over the outcome.
The depressed people were far more accurate in estimating how much influence their actions had on the outcome of the game compared to their nondepressed counterparts, who consistently overestimated the effects of their own choices on their chances of winning.
Then I remember this other study (CW animal testing) where they put rats in a bucket of water that they couldnât get out of, so theyâd have to swim. There was a fairly consistent point at which the swimming rat would falter, and stop swimming, fated to drown.
Except that thatâs when the researchers would pull the rat out of the bucket, give it a nice rest warmth and a meal.
When those SAME rats who had been rescued before were put in the same situation again, they swam much LONGER than they had before.
Why? The risk was the same either way- drowning. Youâd have thought that the fear of drowning would keep them swimming to their maximum length no matter what.
The researchers conclusion was that the rescued rats had something they hadnât had the first time- they had more hope. A miraculous rescue could come, and that let them swim for longer, just in case.
I think we do microdose delusion because sometimes that little overestimation of our chances, of our luck, keeps us swimming that little bit longer, just in case something good happens. And sometimes, that little margin really does make the difference.Â
âAll right," said Susan. "I'm not stupid. You're saying humans need... fantasies to make life bearable."
REALLY? AS IF IT WAS SOME KIND OF PINK PILL? NO. HUMANS NEED FANTASY TO BE HUMAN. TO BE THE PLACE WHERE THE FALLING ANGEL MEETS THE RISING APE.
"Tooth fairies? Hogfathers? Littleâ"
YES. AS PRACTICE. YOU HAVE TO START OUT LEARNING TO BELIEVE THE LITTLE LIES.
"So we can believe the big ones?"
YES. JUSTICE. MERCY. DUTY. THAT SORT OF THING.
"They're not the same at all!"
YOU THINK SO? THEN TAKE THE UNIVERSE AND GRIND IT DOWN TO THE FINEST POWDER AND SIEVE IT THROUGH THE FINEST SIEVE AND THEN SHOW ME ONE ATOM OF JUSTICE, ONE MOLECULE OF MERCY. AND YETâDeath waved a hand. AND YET YOU ACT AS IF THERE IS SOME IDEAL ORDER IN THE WORLD, AS IF THERE IS SOME...SOME RIGHTNESS IN THE UNIVERSE BY WHICH IT MAY BE JUDGED.
"Yes, but people have got to believe that, or what's the pointâ"
i love the "grace somehow lives as long as an eridian" interpretations of the movie ending cuz i honestly think something like that could happen in cannon and it wouldn't feel out of place.
like they all are solomely accepting the fact that grace is going to die in like a scary amount of eridian years, and then as he gets to like 90 everyone is bracing for it, but he just...keeps aging. he keeps his mobility- if anything his back is getting worse cuz of the slightly increased gravity, and his health seems to be steady. on the day of graces 122nd birthday (the oldest a human has ever lived) the eridian scientists that study grace are like. hey. what the fuck. and grace is like â(´ď˝ď˝Ë)â
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I think one of the gentlest things in the world is when a friend just gets your weird little brain. like you say half a sentence and they finish it. you reference something incredibly niche from seven years ago and theyâre already nodding. they understand your strange vocabulary for emotions that donât have real words yet. itâs being seen and known and still loved. maybe especially because youâre known. god. what a gift.
SPS Hunger Games AU: 50th Hunger Games -- the Tributes' costumes
Sooo the past Victors are returning for this upcoming Games!! Which means new costumes in the Chariot Parade -- their stylists are gonna have to get SERIOUS.
Note that the outfits for the Chariot Parade and the following interviews are different!! The Chariot Parade is about first impressions, whilst the Interviews are a little more chill. Like you can literally just put a character in a simple blue suit or something and call it a night!!
Dorian Reed
Dorian opened up the Chariot Parade (sigh) -- he wore a flamboyant, glittery outfit resembling that of an aristocrat's from the Stuart Period, with gold accents, jewellery, and face paint.
His interview outfit consisted of a white-and-gold suit with a reflective shimmer and similar gold face paint. This was meant to give off a very "pure" and "righteous" vibe.
Shibuki
Esper put Shibuki in a tactical coal-black bodysuit fitted with armoured padding, unpolished diamond studs, and black ribbons in her hair. Coal dust was brushed under her eyes to mimic face paint.
For Shibuki's Interviews, she was given a sleeveless pink/black dress with a silver halterneck collar going all around her neck, fanning out and serrated to look like a circular saw -- a reference to her nickname "Headless Shibuki" given by her fanbase.
Bonnibel Valentine & Babybelle Valentine
For the chariot parade, the sisters were dressed in frilly short dresses with extra padding in the chest area, abundant with lace and frills, and complete with matching aprons and bonnets. They carried baskets of (fake) fruits and vegetables and wore (fake) flower crowns.
Unfortunately, the angle that their Stylist went for, was "hot." Because Bonnibel is already considered "desirable," and Babybelle is still "somewhat attractive" even if her reputation got soured over the years because of her alcoholism. So for their interviews, they were put in sparkling short dresses, with Bonnibel in blue and Babybelle in green. Both their dresses faded translucent and became fully see-through towards the bottom of the skirts with a very "teasing" intention.
Nina
Nina was dressed in a very techy, sci-fi style bodysuit, with a reflective cloak reminiscent of a disco ball, and matching metallic makeup. Her hair was decorated with artistically-arranged shards of CD's.
For her interviews, she wore a "simple dress" created from woven copper wires, as a nod to her Games where she saved her own life (and nearly destroyed the whole Arena) using a spool of wire that she received from a Sponsor. Her makeup, accessories, and jewellery were a shade of purple to add a pop of colour to the look.
Volks & Sawyer
Their uninspired Stylist was genuinely on the verge of dressing them as trees again -- but they had to think a liiiittle ways outside of the box this year since the Quarter Quell was a HUGE event. So, Volks and Sawyer were outfitted respectively in an all-white suit and an all-white dress, and decorated with various styles of paper origami attached to their clothes in such a way that you couldn't tell where the clothes ended and the paper began.
For the interviews, their Stylist went back to giving them the tree treatment (the treetment hehehe) -- to "compliment" Volks' metal claws, (which he had done after losing most his fingers to frostbite) he was given a very barbarian-esque outfit wherein he straight up emerged shirtless (he has pants AND boots though dw) with a heavy cloak resembling sheets of pine needles and topped with a layer of artificial snow. For Sawyer, she wore a long dress (sleeveless, to show off the shredded scars on her arms from slipping off a tree) made with layered, stiff sheets of something resembling tree bark, harshly torn and splintered at the ends to reflect her accident. Leaf-green face paint stretched across her eyes like a blindfold to give off a naĂŻve impression.
Kelby & Iro Kawase
I feel like. While Fabian IS a part of the secret Rebel faction working against the Capitol, he's still not the most. Sensitive. Person out there. As such, he'll dress Kelby in the same Greek-style chiton with jewels stitched into the fabric in patterns that look like bright explosions, as a nod to his grim "victory." Chunks of his arms, legs, and face are painted in bronze to match his prosthetic leg and make it look as if Kelby is made of metal underneath his skin. Iro wears a long iridescent dress resembling the sea serpent that terrorised her Games, and to match her multicoloured hair.
For their interviews, the both of them are respectively dressed in a shimmering blue suit and a dress, with multicoloured rhinestones dotting their faces like freckles.
Scale & Luna
"Gem dragons" was the angle which their Stylist, Darya, took this year, with Scale in green and Luna in purple, but with matching gold accents. Again, they were dressed reminiscent of Roman Legionnaires, but with reptilian scale patterns on their armour and helmets with dragonesque gem spines, and cloaks that looked like wings. Luna was given a sword and Scale carried a dagger.
Similarly for their interviews, Luna came out in a backless, deep purple dress with armoured shoulder guards and a prop sword. Scale wore an iridescent green/black suit with matching shoulder guards and thin streaks of scaly face paint around his eyes.
Cole
Xianyun, went all-out this year: Cole was given a tall crown of animal paw/claw bones and a black tailcoat, with white bloodlike splatters across the fabric outlined in red, and faces of farm animals embroidered in a silvery thread towards the hems of his trousers. He wore bone jewellery to match the crown.
For his interviews, Cole emerged in a simple black waistcoat and trousers. Red jewels dangle off his cuffs from beaded threads. On the back of his waistcoat, the words "What a hell of a way to die," were embroidered in a similar shimmering red thread. This outfit got Xianyun blacklisted by President Thelima.