I’m Ren :3 and I make art of whatever as my hobby. My fixations have been jumping around as of late but I hope you enjoy what you see!
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I’m a dissociative system so I won’t always “be” here (though I usually am), even if I’m online!
I have a non-sharing selfship/yumeship with Cole from BlushBlush! All I ask is you don’t derail my posts about Cole (especially selfship art) with stuff about your/someone else’s relationship to him ^^
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So blush blush lore question. Haru claims in one of his dialogs that his participation in the clan wars was "more of a formality", and that he mourned the Summer Clan when they fell. He says he " didn't deserve" the curse placed on him, but the other two kitsune say the same as well so that isn't saying much. But if he truly didn't deserve it then he wouldn't have gotten cursed. So my question is, do you think Haru has more bad things on his record of his time during the war? Or do you think he was just cursed for being too promiscuous and might have gotten someone killed because of it? I mean I always interpreted each getting cursed because of their individual flaws which might have led to others being hurt. Like fuyu is being too much of a hypocrite and lecturing others on their flaws yet not seeing his own as anything to change, Aki being too mischievous and not caring for consequences, and Haru for fooling around for his own benefit and not truly caring for real connections. What do you think? 🤔
OOOOOOOH don’t even get me started on “more of a formality” >:D
You have no idea how abnormal I’ve been about that line… It’s part of why Haru is my “favorite” of the three, because like he’s the one that gets the biggest rise out of me. I’ve posted about it before, although it was pretty early in my time of joining the fandom so I sound a bit overzealous about it aojdks
I ended up yapping for a while so more under the cut 👍
I do think, separated from lore, cursing them as a means of trying to get them to acknowledge their flaws is a good idea! I’m unfortunately kinda biased on my headcanoned reasonings for the curse due to the fact I’m one of those guys that developed their own Kitsune lore with a Summer Clan leader/Natsu….
I personally like to think that the curse was a very pointed move from one of their gods in response to their poor/lacking behavior during the Kitsune Wars specifically. For Haru in particular, I lean VERY hard into that “formality” line. I kind of took it at face value and decided that Haru was only superficially in the wars because of his close relation to another clan, but his people barely participated while he ended up turning a blind eye to the imminent destruction of the Summer Clan. In all fairness, he was doing that to make sure that the people in his clan wouldn’t also have to suffer the wrath of enraged Winter Clan soldiers, so it’s a bit morally gray (<- all of the reasonings I came up with are)
I don’t wanna make this post too long by covering the other guys (but I save a bunch of that kinda stuff in the savetag #kitsune lore, if you wanna kill some time reading)
But really the big overarching idea for the curse I tend to reference is that being forced into one form removes freedom and control from the leaders. With all the power and free will they held, it only led to the reckless harm of others and they all seemed to have issues with acknowledging this for themselves and self reflecting. It’s the most obvious in Haru and Fuyu, and it’s why I think Aki got un-cursed first because he was the most self aware of the things he needed to work on, even if he didn’t admit it right away. (Also I kinda see Aki’s share of the curse as being more of a slap on a wrist rather than having as deep implications of the other two, considering his incredibly young age at the time)
I think the curse was the gods’ way of poetically stripping the leaders of their agency to teach them a lesson about being ignorant to the ways their power over others have been misused. Being cursed but not actively suffering—just knowing that you’re experiencing punishment—I think was an attempt to get the leaders to acknowledge (like you said, anon) the things they were ignoring about themselves and served as direct consequences for their actions. A consequence they couldn’t just ignore in the comfort of their positions of power. It’s kinda thrown off by Mallow existing but whatever KAJDKSNSMS
Throwing in my own lore-specific reason though—the other important thing is that my Natsu, Natsume, had been convinced to flee from battle in his fox form. Due to the PTSD and immense regret he suffered from knowing how badly he fucked up as a leader, his body/mind wouldn’t let him change form—effectively forcing him into a sort of regression. The gods, seeing how the rest of the leaders refused to acknowledge their mistakes and suffered far less mental consequences from the wars, thought it’d be fitting to make the rest of the Clan leaders also be stuck as foxes.
still caring about internet friends you lost touch with years ago is so embarrassing. yeah i had a deam we met up irl recently. the last time we spoke was maybe 7-8 years ago. i still wear the laces we randomly decided was a sign of our friendship. i dont know what any of your socials are or if youre even active on any. sometimes i see someones art resemble yours and i wonder for hours. do you still go by that name you chose? whenever i see it i wonder if its you. we couldve passed each other in this vastness a thousand times and not have a clue.
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"Maybe it's just stress/anxiety" is so crazy as a Dismissive Statement because even when it *is* anxiety it's such an understatement to be like "how about you just chill out idk" when your body is poisoning itself with its own stress hormones. Like okay sometimes it is anxiety. This is still physically happening to me
I think that the financial dependence/benefit he receives would make him feel insecure, maybe a bit ashamed or sheepish. It really depends on the reason for the relationship but I want to imagine ColeRen sugar relationship where Cole is like yearning to be more for Ren than just this guy they can financially support and dote on
ColeRen sugar relationship w/ age gap????!! It wouldn’t be a huge age gap probably, maybe just 10 years max… Ren starting to regret ever wanting to start a transactional relationship like this now that Cole wants to get more serious and they think they fucked him up somehow and maybe they did by even offering it to begin with. Yes, they cared about Cole but really he shouldn’t be getting attached to them like this
(CW for blatant emotional manipulation/guilt-tripping + implied threats of harm)
Maybe they try to gently break it off due to the guilt of the power dynamic developing and Cole starts guilt tripping them about it. Using desperation tactics basically. Like he knew the whole time that Ren had this guilt the whole time and he obviously didn’t want them to feel guilty over something he reciprocated but them trying to leave makes him upset and he starts saying some shit to make them feel Terrible.
Like yes he was insecure about being the one taken cared of in the beginning but he’s been with Ren long enough to know what they got out of the relationship and one thing was a peace of mind. The feeling that they were helping someone directly and not just passively through charities or other funding support, even if they personally benefited in the process. He could absolutely start pulling at that thread.
Like don’t you get it? He needs Ren now. Ren made him too comfortable in this lifestyle they provided for him—at least give him some time before they cut him off completely so he can transition back to his lifestyle from before. Ren made him THEIR responsibility. So they can’t just leave. Leave him like that. How cruel would they be to do something like that?
In this AU, Cole probably does his most to provide for a lot of other needs Ren has to make up for the emasculating discomfort he gets sometimes from their dynamic. He will never have nor make more money than Ren in his lifetime, but he’s a quick learner for all sorts of things. He’ll find ways of taking care of them
If he can’t find any reasons Ren would need to be cared for (though he highly doubts that there are none), perhaps he’ll.. create some, himself
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