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*ੈ✩ Name: Lady
*ੈ✩ Pronouns: She/Her
*ੈ✩ Age: 25 (March 13th)
*ੈ✩ Gender: Cis Female
*ੈ✩ Sexuality: Demisexual + romantic
*ੈ✩ MBTI: INFJ-T
*ੈ✩ Country: France
*ੈ✩ Job: 2D Animator & Illustrator
*ੈ✩ Hobbies: Singing, Cosplaying (Thrice awarded, 1st place twice)…
*ੈ✩ Main fandoms currently: Blush Blush, Honkai: Star Rail
*ੈ✩ Other fandoms: Tears of Themis, Okami, Pokemon, FNAF…
*ੈ✩ Important to know:
- I am autistic, possibly ADHD, I have C-PTSD, BPD and I am a P-DID System!
- I am a non-sharing yumeshipper! But I have a few casual selfships
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Actually fuck the haters i'm having my beach episode and planning my second convention for the rest of the summer
I'll be more annoying soon enough
Would you guys be mad if i touched on other things than BB? I am working on LadyFuyu chapter two as I am more sure of how it's gonna go, but if I do HSR stuff etc... would anyone be interested?
[Warning: Even though i'll try to make this as neutral/open as possible, this is still catering more to my ship/story and it can vary in terms of OOC to fit the AU vision! MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS]
For those who don't know Princess Debut:
It is a rhytmn otome game that came out in 2008/2009 on the DS. The "you" from an alternate universe bursts into your room and begs you to take her place in her world because she HATES dancing and a ball is coming up. You then enter a magical world where you'll be able to romance 5 (7... actually...) princes who will then become your partner at the Royal ball.
In the game you can unlock accessories as you progress and you'll obviously have to do dancing minigames! Your dialogue choices are also very important for each route! And you only have 30 days (*￣▽￣)b
Since the game takes place in an alternate universe, where counterparts of people you know live, each guy also have their own versions in your world!
I like to imagine that the "real world" counterparts are the guys from my Reverse AU!
This game was my CHILDHOOD and my very first Otome, I already dipped into making a PD and BB AU but I kinda forgot everything... so now I'm gonna do it again!
Yapping will be under the cut ♥ This will be VERY FUCKING LONG.
And if you want to feel the vibe while reading, I highly recommend listening to the OST [Here] or watch a playthrough!
Dividers credit: @strangergraphics
Protagonist
The player, obviously (also refer to as Sabrina by default). You play as a regular school girl who one day will meet your counterpart from another world so you can take her place!
- Even though the game gives you dialogue options, the MC is kind, enthusiastic and can have a bit of an attitude, but also deeply cares about those around her.
- Your counterpart on the other end, is a bit more whiny and selfish and doesn't really think things through. If you come back to your real world at the end, you discover she destroyed your good grade record! Not only is she bad at dancing, she's terrible at studying too...
It can either be your oc, Marshmallow, or- since I'm writing this- ME! I kinda of kin Sabrina but no surprises there, I'm sure...
Kip
The real princess' royal advisor who has no choice but to accept her "masterplan" despite trying to decipline her! They will then become your own advisor during your stay!
Obviously Kip has to be Q-bae, can you imagine them with a cute little wand and all??
Tony
Tony is your dance instructor who can magically turn from small bunny form to tall and majestic! If you are single/do not have a partner during dances, he will step up.
If you stay single throughout the entire game, Tony will also dance with you at the Royal Ball. You will then find out he was a cursed prince this entire time, and winning the competition is what broke it!
WHO BETTER TO BE THE BUNNY MAN OTHER THAN NIMH?
While the image of anthro Nimh can be a little cursed, I think it's definitely something I can get behind.
I'm pretty sure Nimh sees his heart condition as some kind of curse, so i'm going to use this as my link! What if that's the reason he got turned into a rabbit in the first place? What if a witch made fun of him for being a "scared little rabbit" and cursed him, so he would build confidence and body strength overtime through dancing?
We don't know much about Tony in general, so the ideas can be endless with Nimh!
As an instructor, he'd be able to do every kinds of dances, but to go easy on his heart, he'd appreciate the slower ones way more.
Vince
Prince Vince is one of the first choices in the game!
He is a prankster, stubborn and pretty childish. He too can have an attitude and buttheads with the MC, but he is just doesn't know how else to show his affection. He does confess his love pretty often to the MC once they get together. He is really sweet at heart and it's hard not to melt...
His little thing is that he wraps a small thread/ribbon around the MC's finger, like a promise ♥
I debated over this one between Scale and Aki, but ultimately, I think Aki fits the slot better. As a prankster who isn't shy from showing his love to you, his hand squeeze gesture also sells it to me!!
Prince Aki would definitely be into the fun kinds of dances!
Luciano
Prince Luciano is the introverted prince with a terrible sense of direction... and a tsundere. He is prone to lashing out if you call him out on his mistakes... He is a professional dancer from a young age, but makes it clear he despises it (he just lost the motivation and will...).
His route is one of the hardest to get, as he needs a few requirements in order for him to be your endgame. (Every choice you make MATTERS.)
-> Luciano has to leave at some point. If your requirements aren't met or you get another partner, he straight up DOESN'T come back.
-> However if he does, he will promise to never leave you again.
DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN MYSELF. DO I NEED TO?
Maybe I project a lot onto Volks' backstory in my own, so I may be refering to it here, so BEAR WITH ME.
Not only do they physically look similar, and act similar, but Luciano's japanese name is Hayato Inugami (this is my delulu speaking) but both have a strict aversion to something. While Volks doesn't have an aversion to his job as a model like Luciano does with dancing, but both don't exactly reciprocate affection until they warm up and get attached to the MC.
I'd like to think that Volks as a prince, would try to fight the royal orders (his dad's orders) to go home, but ends up obeying anyway. But then he'd fail the World cup, and his mother sees how much being with the MC means to him, so she allows him to quickly go back to her again. I don't think he'd get lost like Luciano, but he would be TERRIBLY distracted by everything (like a dog on a walk)
Prince Volks is used to pushing himself further and is most comfortable doing the complicated dances.
Cesar
Prince Cesar is "le joli coeur" amongst the visiting princes. He's flirty with all the pretty ladies (though I wouldn't be shocked if he flirted with men too... even if he denied it...), he's incredibly whiny, a bit full of himself because he KNOWS he's pretty, and an ABSOLUTE drama queen. He is the embodiment of a wet cat. He is obsessed with beauty, but it is due to him losing his sister, who collected pretty things and taught him how to dance.
And Cesar does deeply care about the MC, despite all his theatrics.
I had Haru and Stirling as candidates, but neither are as WHINY as Itharion is.
I don't think anything with Prince Itharion would change, but he would take the MC to go see the stars at night after dancing...
Prince Itharion would like the more graceful dances, the ones where he can dip you like the princess you are...
Liam
Liam is one of the sweetest princes around; he's not pushy, he's respectful and has an incredible knowledge of flowers. He deeply cares and worries about his sister, who is currently sick back in his kingdom. He talks... A LOT about his sister, but this is a detail I am going to rightfully ignore. None of that in my house...
Otherwise, I think Xianyun fits him best. Ren was gonna kill me for wanting to make it Cole but I prefer to live--
Xianyun is one of the softest BB guys so he does fit into Liam's place pretty well, but IDK about giving him a sister... maybe Xianyun could be the one sickly through most of his childhood and now feels incredibly lonely and is awkward making connections? Or how much he believes into fate and meeting the MC? And he'd never shut up about it?
Their knowledge in their respective fields also helps into putting Xianyun in this spot, but maybe we can mix these two? Flowers and antiques? That could link the lily flower to the two...
Prince Xianyun would also enjoy the slower dances more, as long as he can hold onto your hand and close to him...
Klaus
Klaus is the most popular prince of the bunch, with a fiancé, a fanclub following him around... He is the real princess' childhood friend, which is really important in order to get his route. He is THE hardest guy to get if you're not careful.
He's perfect; he's handsome, he is good at dancing... but is that all there is?
Klaus is a little dense and oblivious, he is the only guy who will never find out the MC is not the actual princess. He believes he and the MC are destined.
There are no good candidates in my opinion to match Klaus, but if someone had to look endgame, it would probably be Logan? Logan is also a perfect guy in appearance, the perfect caring boyfriend who loves what he does. Also... hunk prince, anyone?
Prince Logan would probably look perfect on the outside, but to me, it's because he only mastered one type of dance with his current fiancé/partner, because he might be a little clumsy. I'd imagine his fiancé lashes out one day and breaks things off because the perfect image she had of Logan shattered. But with the MC, he could stop blaming himself for making mistakes. Hence why he wouldn't have any preferences in terms of dances, he'd just be happy to learn more!
Kiefer
Kiefer is another special route you can unlock after starting a second playthrough!
He is quiet, analytical and prefers the company of books and trips to the museum to occupy his time. He can be quite cold, and tends to overthink most things, but he just doesn't understand the value of fun or how to experience it. He is also is considered pure of heart by the animals of the forest, and that's where you will train, away from prying eyes.
Fuyu could have fit, but to avoid clashing with Aki, I asked the council and we think Poe is the best fit! Cashew could be a good candidate as well, only if Cashew was cold in an awkward way, haha.
Literature, pure of heart, smart in their own way... While Kiefer is already good at dancing, Poe would be too but Cashew would fumble a little more. In the forest, birds would be the kind of animal to surround Poe while smaller critters become curious about Cashew.
Prince Poe or Prince Cashew wouldn't have a preference in dancing, maybe just something simple and straight to the point.
King Crown
The king doesn't show up much in the story, mostly towards the end. He ends up understanding his real daughter's goal in switching places, and allows the MC to stay anyway if she wishes to.
If I'm the MC, then William would be the king. Anyone else as the MC would get Mac.
Isabel
Isabel is one of the princesses you meet in the game. She is snobby, a liar and a troublemaker. One of your first meeting happens in a shop when you buy your first accessory, which she accuses you of taking from her. She even ends up stealing your crown at some point, but you eventually learn she is just terribly lonely and finds herself unable to make friends.
I thought Cassie would be an obvious choice for this one. As much as I do not exactly like Cassie as a character, I did warm up to her in Hush Hush, and their attitudes and actions are somewhat similar!
Lady and Cassie don't interact in my story at all, but it would be an interesting premise in this AU!
HOLY SHIT THAT WAS LONG.
Thank you for reading if you got to here!! I hope my picks made sense lmao...
AND PLAY PRINCESS DEBUT!! PLEASE!! I wanna do fanart of it now and this AU... Yes I solely build this AU for LadyVolks WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME.
If you want a better picture or understanding, don't hesitate to check the Princess debut wiki!
I've been replaying the game in hopes of doing a 100% of it and refresh my memory on each route and right now I'm doing Liam... And I'm itching to explore two more routes.
If Anon was Liam
Very VERY off in terms of personality, but I'm gonna try to expand this and precisely use the knowledge and sister part and not match the rest.
I’m also gonna use the popular headcanon of Nina and Anon being siblings!
Anon would be knowledgable in flowers because his kingdom is more advanced technology wise (magic technology, but shush—) and has a bit of an ego in showing off, especially to the MC. He likes to impress in his way, obviously.
I think Anon would bring up Nina a lot, nearly as much as Liam brings his sister Olive up. Both stem from an unconscious replacement of a role the MC isn’t supposed to have; Liam is worried about his sick sister and sees a lot of her in the MC, while for Anon…
He would be kind of forced in visiting the MC’s kingdom, but he’s having fun so who cares right? Well, deep down, he terribly misses his sister. He’s seen her on competitions, and eventually she married off, and he’s been terribly lonely since only his sister truly understood him. And since he’s having such a good connection with the MC, he unconsciously projects Nina onto them.
It’s only until the MC gets to blow up about his behavior that he realizes what he’s doing. I imagine he’d be defensive a little, but once he explains himself and you forgive him (or not), he finally sees what he’s been missing out on, and he gets to broaden his horizons with you.
If Cole was Liam
Controversial take but I can’t hold back. I need this stupid wet cat in here and it’s either this or Cesar.
A better bet would be to use my own redesign and rewritting of Cole but I haven’t really talked about him much yet…
But come on, if there is one guy who has yandere potential it WOULD be Liam. So let’s try with Cole so i don’t die crazy over it.
Cole to me has crazy potential and different routes to choose from. And I really wanna bring them up but it would take forever LOL.
What if Cole had a failed, prior engagement, and projects that onto the MC?
It could start off with Cole pretending to be his suave self, and gradually spiraling. In the game you can meet up and have dates with all the different guys, it practically stays platonic the entire time unless they bring the romance up in some way. But if you do that with Cole as your partner… he’d lost his mind.
If he isn’t present with you when you meet up another guy, he’s gonna ask you questions, but if you dare dance with another man? He will act like you cheated on him. (Which… it kinda does in the game if you practice with kiefer behind your partner’s back…)
On day 20, that’s when Liam gives you a Lily hairpin, the same one as Olive. You can either accept it or blow up at him, making him understand that you are not Olive, and you want him to see you for yourself. He will realize what he’s been doing and profusely apologize. And then the weird sister stuff stops!
Same thing for Cole. It can either be from another argument over you hanging out with another guy, or him finally letting his delulu take the best of him and act like you are somehow his failed engagement, giving you something that was meant for his previous person. Same thing here; you blow up at him, he is distraught over what he’d done, and will do anything to make it up to you.
I like being fucked up a little so I need him to call the MC a nickname he used to call his prior fiancé/partner before choosing a new one for you eventually….
Also imagine if he did still know about flowers and made some very off putting comments, totally not threathening ("Did you know these plants are endangered species so you’re not allowed to dig them up? Perfect to hide something under them…")
God he’d be so mad if you left him to go back in your real world…
Okay I’m done i’m going to sleep now LMAO
Next step is to draw these guys as princes but honestly we can just imagine their butler or masquerade outfits…
I should also design accessories based off each guy… mh…
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I'm very limited in what I can do and the people I talk to because Void of all people is the one who is untrusting of the people around me. I've been having a split for more than a week until Angel was ripped from me and now I'm stuck in this bubble.
I'm feeling better a little, my infection is still acting up so i'm more busy stressing about losing my hearing or a bursted heardrum than the rest.
It sucks being limited, because I want to talk to friends. Void allows me to be on calls but that's like under certain conditions.
It almost feels like I got stripped of my emotions and I just feel... numb. Maybe it's for the best to keep me from spiraling down again
Finally started my art blog and little did I know, the first post I'd make would be Blush Blush fanart made in earnest. Hello any people who might be seeing this!!!
Just a sweet little Nimh art I made as a gift for my friend!! Might make a matching Volks one.
/!\ If you draw him PLEASEEE @ me!!! I wanna see!! HOWEVER please do not use this design for your own Reverse AU ships I will cry and explode
• Real Name: Valko
• Nickname: Volks
• Last name: Frost
• Age: Between 22-24
• Height: 5’7
• Nationality: American-Canadian with German/Russian decent
• Job: Part-time model / Part-time dog trainer
• Favorite BB character: Lady
Backstory
Valko or "Volks" is an only child to a business man and an emergency nurse. His parents divorced when he was a child because of his father's abuse. He has been living with his mom ever since and cut contact with his dad since he was 15. He grew up feeling a bit lonely as he never got along with his peers at school and his mom had to do long hours. He rarely acted out and preferred to stay by himself. Still very much true even now.
Volks is a wolf kid lol. He used to be obsessed with wolves, still is but he hides it . Since he was hyperfixed on wolves and fantasy stories with animals (ex: Wolves of the Beyond, White Fang, Call of the wild etc...), he had that period where he thought he was a werewolf. Wolf t-shirts, books, research papers, even his beanies and sweaters had wolf ears and cute tails (that he'd still try to hide)......... he regrets this part of his life. But his love for wolves is still there. Just don't mention his emo wolf oc drawings-
His love for nature has been there since he was a baby, but on weekends and vacations, his mom enrolled him in group activities for kids in the forest etc, which enhanced his appreciation and knowledge on survival skills and fauna/flaura. He stopped going after he turned 12 because he couldn't handle people anymore.
He had a bit of a hard time during puberty (acne, voice crack, hair, the whole thing), but had a quick glow up. Sadly, this prompted people to try to get close to him simply because of physical reasons. He regrets his first time since the girl left him shortly after and the very few hook-ups or tries at relationships didn't work, so he gave up on love for now.
Volks likes taking care of himself or be taken care of, but he's also a bit of a lazy butt, so when there are no shoots around, he lets himself relax a little (within limits obviously). He goes to the gym and goes for runs, but it's enough to let him eat what he likes without feeling guilty.
He is a dog trainer part-time, since, as a pretty boy, he is also a part-time model!
He can make a lot of things look good on him, and knows but doesn't know how to dress?? Fashion can be confusing sometimes and he questions a LOT what companies try to make him wear. He's a very simple guy. However he WILL judge you by your outfit and will most likely make you aware.
He has a secret youtube channel where he used to post covers but he got so embarrassed he stopped.
His love for Blush Blush, Lady and his fandom interactions
Volks is usually a "silent" enjoyer, one who never comments and will just leave a like on something he likes. He has no fandom etiquette and is easily detered because of crazy fans (and assumed all fandoms were like that)
He found BB right before a low period in his life, and somehow he found himself infatuated by a French character who turns into a husky. She gets a bit on his nerves at first (mostly because he relates to her but denies it), but the more he plays the more he realizes that's why he likes her so much. He's used to characters crafted to be perfect, but she's not, and he likes that.
It's months, almost a year later he encounters a problem and goes on the subreddit. When he realizes there is a whole discord server for the studio, he says fuck it and joins , fully intended on being a lurker. He asks his question, he gets help, but instead of leaving, he actually stays because he is curious. He still severely judges most of the people there, and gets ticked off with how other fans talk about Lady, but he doesn't speak up.
Slowly, very slowly, he sometimes types in chat and that's how he meets most of the other guys (Eli, Anon, etc...) and he's like: Wow these guys are something but are actually fun to talk to. BUT WHEN KOUGEN/COLE APPEARS IT'S A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY.
Valko and Kougen DESPISE each other at first. The former thinks the latter is bat-shit insane while the latter thinks the former is an absolute douche. Despite sharing a private server together with the others, they constantly argue, but it may stem from deep rooted insecurities...
Kougen envies how naturally hot Valko is and easy he has it, while Valko envies how open Kougen is about loving his f/o (at least online).
The only times these two can relate, is when they can discuss their thoughts and views in a much deeper manner (during arguments) and how much they love and will defend their f/os. Their relationship gets easier over time when they both jump to the gun to defend their views in the main server, or when they have a vulnerable moment in front of the other.
Elijah calls them a "Enemies to bros to maybe lovers???? ;)" dynamic. Which disgusts and horrifies both of them.
Valko is non-sharing... He's embarassed about it, but he is. Lady is his only stable comfort. He's not agressive with doubles, but he turns even colder and pouty about it. When Fuyu joins, he takes him like an enemy at first... but both end up relating heavily to each other through their love for Lady and end up as two very selective pathetic dogs. (Though Valko WOULD bite Fuyu to steal that Lady standee he has...)
The reason his game avatar looks similar to him... is simply because Volks isn't really the type of guy to create a whole new original character. He's content with a self-insert, add wolf in the mix, and that's it. Though he is proud of some of the outfit designs he came up with...
IDK HOW I NEVER POSTED VALKO'S REF HERE?? BUT NOW I FIXED IT AND I TURNED IT INTO A YAP SESSION.
My favorite AU to share with the goobs. We should draw more for this AU...
And before ANYONE ASKS: N O, his name isn't based of the LADS guy. I've had the name Valko for more than a YEAR now, I just forgot to upload it LMAO...
Meet -- Akihiro Nishida (although everyone calls him Aki)
╰─•𖣂•─ Surprise surprise, my Mystery Friend, [REDACTED] drew this at my request!! I added the LiuAki thought bubble but literally who cares sksjsl /lh -- I'm omw to funding their whole future, lorddd
Having undiagnosed ADHD, Akihiro grew up without much support from his parents, due to a language/cultural/age barrier between their ingrained Japanese mindset and Akihiro growing up in an English-speaking environment -- this led to conflicts and strain that pushed Akihiro to become self-reliant.
However, he didn't really know where to start on that. A lot of his self-taught skills grew from humiliating failures, and there are lots of things he still doesn't know how to do (he insists on paying for everything with cash, as he doesn't know how to use his cards and is too embarrassed to ask people) -- he also had to learn how to navigate friendships the hard way, learning from experience how certain behaviours can really hurt people around him.
Akihiro was a hyper lil kid!! Fastest in his class, a lil demon in P.E., "talking back" at teachers and asking questions about things they've just explained. Some kids rolled their eyes whenever he spoke up. Teachers weren't surprised to find him in detentions.
But after accumulating a bunch of moral wounds from failed friendships by the time he reached high school, he mellowed out a bit. Or rather, he started suppressing himself, a method that he considered to be "safe" after reflecting on all the times he acted shamefully. There are times when his excitement and passion would shine through the cracks, but most of the time, he comes off as awkward but well-meaning guy who's still getting a hang of social etiquette, even though his residual pride kind of hinders that journey from time to time.
He absolutely treasures his friends though. He still suppresses himself around them, but he's working towards opening up in time. He loooves lots of things!! Akihiro has favorite bands, hobbies that he wants to try, subjects he wants to study, clubs he wants to join -- but he feels uneasy "being himself" while he still lives with his parents, and thus he mostly keeps his interests to himself. He expresses himself in small ways though, like dyeing his hair (though making sure not to go TOO crazy) and crafting pins and badges and stuff in his room!!
In creating his "Aki" persona, he wanted to incorporate his childhood silliness into a safe space where no real people would be affected by him, but would still allow him to vicariously goof around and cause chaos to his heart's content. He misses his more-outgoing childhood self, and he's still trying to find his place in the world as a university student, so he always envies/admires "whimsical"-type characters who are freely silly and passionate about what they love doing. Enter Liu, stage left.
I think Akihiro would kind of. Idolise Liu at first, just for how he appears on the surface -- as this mysterious and nonsensical character with an ethereal vibe to him. Then Akihiro would have to gradually recognise that,, Liu is still a person with worries and flaws and conflicting behaviours. Akihiro has done a LOT of self-reflection, so he's fairly good at putting his feelings into words, whereas Liu isn't anything like that. So I think Akihiro would see this character that he cares so deeply about and -- feel compelled to help him, yk? Especially since he recognises the helpless part of himself within Liu, in that regard. Idk. Liu is his blorbo!!
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Got to watch Merryweather play his own DLC on stream on Twitch and I am glad he seemed to have fun and wanted to take his time to enjoy every bit to the fullest before buying a boost...
And the chat was so kind?? Obviously they were excited since they were focusing on Merry but when Merry checked the other guys, I didn't see a single bad comment... they were even appreciative......
Yes I may be naive because negative comments probably get filtered through by mods but I didn't see anything to back that up?
And when I had to leave they all wished me well i nearly sobbed
Seems like we're gonna hopefully get more new friends and players, I already saw a few Vtubers who knew Merry planning to play Blush Blush (mostly for the DLC but STILL-)
It feels nice to see people appreciate the work put into BB, from the art to the voice acting... BB has its flaws but if people took the time and also read the lines and experienced things at their own pace, they would even see how much thought is put into each guy ;;
Sorry for the ramble but nowadays it's very hard to see any appreciation for this game with everything going on so seeing this just makes me very happy and emotional
It's gonna be ruined again eventually but I'm keeping hope
Found this on Twitter and it's really fun... [Link]
-> Must warn you though, this is in korean, I had to use a page translator!
I am scared at one point some of it is, apart from some difference like my birthstone that should be a ruby, BUT that might be tied to my deadname rather than my birthday...
Otherwise STILL the meanings and everything match so so well??
Fuyu related to Hades is INSANE i think it fits pretty nicely... and now I need a LadyFuyu Hades and Persephone AU okay BYE
Funny how Volks and Fuyu have extremely similar birth colors yet totally different meanings that match them anyway...
This is shameless promo for my angsty and pretentiously-written Kitsune Boys fic from agesss ago :,) there's 10 more poems in there!!
Also um. !! Warning for suicide ideation !!
Aki
They're trying to kill you, kill each other, kill themselves —
You do nothing to stop it because you're singing along with them;
you're a scrawny runt, a little conniver,
a rodent with one tail who's jumping on the bed and knows nothing.
But that's fine, you can live with that.
You just can't live with yourself
and you're fine with that too.
You're a ragdoll in his little pigeonhole with limbs that itch
to break out of your bleeding stitches and show them what you're really made of,
whether you're a hero or a villain or a good guy or a bad guy,
or a dream or a nightmare or you're real or an illusion,
but you'll always be a boy with a stick and a few tricks up his sleeves
because you just can't stop singing along.
Haru
Tally up the pretty lies you've told
through your days of indulgence,
your nights of revelry,
your centuries of grief.
The illusion of control is a beautiful thing,
a beautiful thing to take your mind off
the scratch marks on the invisible bars of your cell,
You're a lover, or a fighter,
whichever is convenient to you;
You're a kitsune who loves to fight,
you're a fox who fights to love,
you're a dying thing under a charming smile
who doesn't know what he wants anymore.
Fuyu
I had never known love until it told me so,
for I had never known love at all.
You found me neck-deep in the long winter of centennial consequence and
nursed me back to my senses,
my senses that I thought were long lost, and
when you thawed my pride, plunged your fingers into the ice,
brought colour back into my heart
with your warm hands where I sought refuge,
I asked your name —
a name which now I've forgotten,
for your name sounded an awful lot like "love."
A love that now is lost to me. A love that, maybe,
I never deserved.
Did I deserve love? Did I deserve you? Would you have told me the answers if
you knew you wouldn't return?
My heart is freezing over, please come back already.
You smiled that day and
I watched you leave me for the last time.
But as this ravaged, icy heart climbed its way to my throat and
shattered to shards, cutting into my brittle bones,
spilling onto my feet like a secret in rotten teeth,
perhaps I already knew it;
that I may never know "love" again.
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