𓏵۪۪　﹒　Braaains!　 ☙ 𓏼

Oh my gosh there's really not much to say anymore but I miss them so bad, why did I have to move away?? ARRGGHG

I HATE THEM!!!!! OMFGG!!!!!!! NOO I DONT MISS YOU NO I DONT LIKE YZOU GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But why is he so content with our departure. I wish he fought a little for me. I don't miss him considering NOTHING about our relationship was sincere.. Lol... It's just the fact he used to fawn over me and treat me like the most imprortant thing ever for just a while. If I was truly an accessory he could flaunt, then I'd have been the golden one he kept on display. But, oh my GOD.... It's a silent agreement that being treated above all is infact dehumanization too and that's why we didn't last as much as I wanted us to. I really just wanted to be his friend and for him to be the partner of both me and my lover. I wanted to show him I cherished him just as much by spending real time with him instead of him constantly showering me in fake-affection. He had so much potential.. All I had to do was show him how to be good to us- then maybe he could just become an overall better human all together. He could've been so amazing. But now he's stuck with that boy who is getting him stupid off of dopamine- what does he have that we don't? We could've tended to all his motional need better than he ever would. That boyfriend of his only cries to him whenever minor inconveniences occur- and he's so curious why his friends are so horrible to him!!! ughgughuhgusd.. I miss him. I wish that guy wasn't dragging him down. But I won't bother him unless he makes it clear he wants me back around T nT but even then, I'd still feel like a burden, and push him away even more...

Maybe unsaid things can remained trapped in both my throat and my hands : d I regret not kissing him more, holding him closer, or just saying "I love you," while I still had him all to myself. Now we're so far apart and I can only be filled with so much guilt and dread when I think back to the moments we shared when we lived so closed together. I miss him so much. T ^T

Everytime he types, I can literally hear his voice reading the texts to me, I feel like I'm going crazy. It sounds like HIM, I hear him, why is his voice engraved into my mind. I want him out of my life, I'm doing everything I can to push him away, yet I still want him to talk to me. </3 ughghghur this is horrible

Caaaaaaaanada ^ p^ I got real invested in aus where Canada is depicted as a murderer lolol so I made a small animation w him. Uhh..... Something else interesting........

this doesn't mean I wont do that tho